Paavo stood on the cement walkway above the beach at Aquatic Park. The sun was going down over the Golden Gate, and he watched the waves roll onto the shore. At sundown the changing temperatures over the water caused a chill wind to blow into the city. He turned up the collar of his sports coat.
Just above the beach the Maritime Museum looked down upon the scene. He knew it was one of Angie’s favorite “old San Francisco” spots. She often talked of how, when she was a little girl and her older sisters were in school or busy, she and her mother would walk to it from their Marina-district flat. She’d learned a lot about San Francisco history there, insisting that Serefina read descriptions of the displays over and over. Afterward, if the day was warm, she’d play in the sand; if cold, they’d walk out onto Muni Pier and check on the fishermen who dropped their lines into the water.
A chill rippled down his back and he put his hands in the pockets of his slacks. Thinking of that reminded him of how troubled he was over Angie and the situation Sal had confronted him with. He and Angie had vowed never to lie to each other. Up to now he’d pretty much kept the vow. Although she stretched the truth—or forgot it now and then—she’d never out-and-out lied to him.
Yet he’d lied because of Sal, and disagreed with Sal on top of it. He hated being in this predicament but, despite their dreadful lunch, it was a chance to form some sort of bond with his future father-in-law, and he didn’t want to ruin it.
From the time they were introduced and Sal took one look at him and decided he wasn’t good enough for his daughter, there’d been tension between them. As far as he could tell, the whole problem centered on money and position, though he wasn’t sure of that, either. Sometimes he felt Sal thought of Angie as a prize who should go to the highest bidder. No, that was harsh. He knew Sal loved his daughter, but the man’s insane devotion to the idea that it would take money to buy her happiness was childish.
Now he wondered more than ever about Sal’s judgment. Given proof that Elizabeth Schull had been involved in a false sexual harassment claim and the suggestion she’d been in a mental institute, the last thing Sal should want was to face her alone. The idea of it made Paavo suspicious. Just what was Sal up to?
Paavo forced his concentration back to the murder case as he left the walkway for the beach where Farnsworth’s body had been found. Whenever he was in any way involved in a case, Paavo visited the scene of the crime. As much as it might be a cliché, the crime scene often did, in fact, give a sense of what might have happened, and sometimes why.
Paavo wanted answers to both questions.
People argued constantly over whether Farnsworth was a saint who worked among the poor and homeless and gave them help and advice when he could, or a sinner: a scam artist who used the homeless for his own purposes to make money at his law firm. Paavo thought he was a little of both.
Farnsworth had been practicing law when for some reason—probably no one would ever know exactly why—he underwent a spiritual conversion. He believed it was necessary to do good works in this life, and Spirit, as he called his god, led him to the homeless. But Spirit also knew that Farnsworth needed to provide for himself or he’d end up just like the people he ministered to, so he kept up his law practice. He did everything except appear in court—that, he left to his partners.
Paavo, frankly, had liked the guy. They’d worked together a few times on murders of homeless people. Those were cases that got little attention from the press, and usually little from the district attorney as well. Leads were few, and finding anyone who would talk to a Homicide inspector was next to impossible. That was when Farnsworth stepped in. He—like Paavo—believed every man’s death diminished him, homeless or not, and murderers should pay the price.
Now he was the victim. Paavo would see that justice was done.
Angie picked out a Spode “English Garden” cup and saucer and placed them on the counter. She was in Everyone’s Fancy, her friend Connie’s gift shop, located across town from Angie’s apartment in a busy neighborhood shopping area on West Portal Avenue. Unfortunately, the activities in the area rarely extended into Connie’s shop, despite Angie’s attempts a while back at helping her upgrade her merchandise.
The mainstay of Connie’s business was greeting cards. Hers were all either extremely mushy or extremely funny. She left the in-betweeners to grocery store racks. Nevertheless, it took a lot of card sales to pay rent.
Buying something expensive was one way for Angie to get Connie to pay attention to her and her troubles. Several days had gone by and Angie was no closer to finding out the location of her engagement party.
Connie eyed the china suspiciously. She was a few years older than Angie, blond, and with a round figure that caused her to constantly diet—or think about dieting—to avoid drifting from curvaceous to plump. Blue eyes pierced her friend. “Is this a bribe?”
“Whatever are you talking about?” Angie asked innocently. “I’m going to give my mother a present for all the hard work she’s doing.”
“Keeping your engagement party a secret from you?” Connie put her hand on her hip. “The woman’s lucky you don’t give her poison. I know you, Angie Amalfi, and I know she’s driving you nuts.”
“I wouldn’t put it quite that way.” Angie picked up the Spode, pretending to study it. “She loves pretty cups and saucers like this one.”
“Fine.” Connie rang up the sale, then got out a box and gift wrap. “But don’t waste your time being coy. I have no idea where the party is.”
“Really?” Angie asked, disappointed.
“And if I did know, I wouldn’t tell you.”
As Angie watched, she remembered the call about the cake. “Don’t use purple gift wrap, please. I’ve developed a sudden aversion to the color.”
“Purple? You’re kidding.” Connie reached for pastel green.
“Oh, Connie!” Angie wailed, sudden tears in her eyes. “You don’t know what I’ve been going through. First some baker calls about a purple cake, then…then a stripper called about jumping out of it! What is my mother thinking? She’s gone crazy! I’ve got to stop her.”
“Don’t cry, honey.” Connie walked around the counter to pat Angie’s back and hand her a wad of tissues. “That doesn’t sound like Serefina to me,” Connie continued. “It’s got to be a mistake or a joke.”
Angie wiped her eyes. “Who would joke about such an important occasion?”
“It’s a mistake, then. Someone’s got your name mixed up with another Amalfi, that’s all. Someone who likes strippers and purple cakes.” Connie grinned. “Someone like your Cousin Richie, maybe.”
Even Angie had to chuckle at that. Richie was one of those people who no longer surprised her with the crazy things he was up to. “Maybe you’re right.”
“Have you ever mentioned to Serefina the type of party you hoped for?” Connie asked.
“Sure. The wedding will be serious and beautiful, so the engagement party should be a bit whimsical. Romantic, of course, but also fun. A time for me, Paavo, friends, and relatives to get together without stress. Weddings are always stressful, no matter what. I’d like to avoid that.”
“Whimsical?” Connie asked skeptically.
“Yes. Good food, lovely clothes, but something a little different. I know it won’t happen. We’ll probably end up at a wonderful restaurant, but still…”
“Where would you like it to be?” Connie asked.
“I don’t know anymore! Oh, well, why think about that? My mother will most likely come up with something very traditional and lovely, right?”
“I didn’t have an engagement party before my first marriage. Next time, I’ll do it right,” Connie said dreamily. “An elegant restaurant with white linen tablecloths, crystal goblets, gold-rimmed white china…that’s what I’d like. If, that is, I marry a Rockefeller or some other tycoon. If not, my friends and I will probably gather at Pizza Hut. Beer and pizza on the house!”
“And everyone would love it,” Angie said.
Connie nodded. “Maybe someday…” She went back to the counter and began to tape the gift paper in place. “I take it you had no luck checking restaurants.”
Angie shook her head. “It didn’t work, and now I’ve only got thirteen days to go. I’m at my wits’ end.”
“Well, if I hear anything that might help, I’ll let you know,” Connie said as she unfurled a long length of green ribbon and then began to wrap it around the package. “Although I can’t imagine anyone better than ‘Stan-the-Man’ at sleuthing out a place where food will be served.”
“Puh-lease!” Angie said, studying a figurine of three clowns in a hot tub. She didn’t get it, and put it back on the shelf. “He was lots more interested in going to a shabby little Greek restaurant than helping me.”
“And that surprises you?” Connie asked.
“I know he loves to eat, but once there, he just picked at his meal. He only livened up when he was making eyes at a pregnant waitress.”
Connie was so surprised by Angie’s words her hand slipped and the bow she was making unraveled. “Pregnant? You don’t think Stan…?”
“No way. He could never have kept that a secret. Shoot, he even tells me when he’s having intestinal troubles. Give me a break!”
Connie shook her head and went back to creating a bow. “So, who is she?”
“That’s what I wonder. I asked Stan and he said he didn’t know. The funny part is, I believe him.”
Connie’s eyes lit up. “Maybe we need to find that out.”
“Say, you don’t sound half so curious about my party,” Angie remarked. “Why is that?”
Connie said nothing as she concentrated on creating a beautiful bow.
Stan was awakened from a sound sleep by a shrill ringing. He picked up the phone by his nightstand. “Hello?”
A dial tone sounded.
The ringing continued.
He sat up, confused.
The sound came from the cell phone on the bureau beside his wallet and comb.
By the time he picked it up, it had already switched to messaging. Instead of listening to the message, he simply hit the caller ID—it showed pay phone—punched “call back,” then laid back in the bed. The call was probably a mistake, he thought, as he listened to the ring.
He peered at the clock radio…1:45 A.M.…and groaned.
“Hello?” A woman hesitantly answered.
“This is Stan Bonnette. Did you just phone me?”
“Stan…oh, Stan.” Her voice broke as if she were going to cry.
“Who is this?” he asked, sitting up.
There was a pause. “It’s me. Hannah. From Athina.”
Hannah. So that was her name. His heart clenched.
“Stan, I’m scared. You said you’d help me. I’m not sure where else to turn.”
Although he’d convinced himself that the only smart thing would be to stay away from her and the Athina, hearing her voice he tossed such intentions aside. “What do you mean? Where are you?”
“I’m in the all-night Safeway near Fisherman’s Wharf. In a phone booth. My…my water broke. Labor pains started. Stan, I need help. I don’t know what to do.”
He was silent a moment, then got out of bed and began to pace. “Is it safe there? Are there people around?”
“It’s safe.”
“Can you get a taxi? Your social worker set you up someplace, right? Can you get there?”
“No. I can’t go there.”
“What do you mean?”
“I can’t! Trust me in that. I need to get out of the city. Help me, Stan. Please.” She was crying.
He rubbed his forehead. “What about San Francisco General? They’ll take you.”
“I can’t.” The hysteria in her voice rose. “You…you said you’d help me.”
Me? He had said that, hadn’t he? He stopped pacing, bewildered. How can I help? “How often are the labor pains coming?” He didn’t really know what he was talking about. All he knew was frequent was bad, infrequent good.
“I’m not sure. Every fifteen minutes or so, I guess.”
Was that frequent or infrequent? His heart pounded. He had no idea what to do. “You should be home, in bed, not in some grocery store.”
“You aren’t listening to me.” Her disappointment reached across the phone lines. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have called—”
“Wait!” He didn’t want her to hang up. “I’ll come. I’ll call a cab and be right there. Wait for me at the big main entrance on Bay Street. We’ll get you to a hospital.”
“I…I don’t have any insurance.”
That stopped him a moment. How much could it cost to have a baby? People seemed to have them at home and in taxicabs all the time—basically for free. “Don’t worry about it. Just don’t move…except to be somewhere that I can find you when I arrive.”
Stan called for a taxi, then threw on khakis, a T-shirt, shoes, and a sports jacket. He was pacing outside in front of the apartment when the cab showed up less than ten minutes later.
As promised, Hannah waited at the grocery’s main entrance. She was wearing the rain parka. Her thick dark hair, loose and full against her shoulders, made her face appear small and white as death. She tried to smile when she saw him, but her eyes were limp with fear.
He sprang from the cab but paused as the enormity of his action, of the depth of his involvement, struck.
“Stan,” she whispered. “You’re here.”
Her simple words spurred him forward. “Come on.” Steadying her with his arm around her back, they hurried to the taxi. A pain gripped her, forcing her to stop a moment. It wasn’t too strong, she said. To him, though, it was horrifying.
He eased her into the cab.
“Not SF General, please,” she murmured, clutching his hand. “Please. Somewhere else. Somewhere on the peninsula, maybe. A small hospital. A place no one would think of to look for me.”
“You’re hiding from someone?”
She nodded. Stan didn’t like that. He had planned to insist she go to SF General. With a baby ready to pop out, it wasn’t as if she had a choice. But if she was scared and hiding…He hated making decisions. Lately, he’d always gone to Angie to help him make them. Maybe he should phone—
“Hey,” the taxicab driver shouted, “I don’t want no kids born in this cab. Let’s get goin’ or I want you both out of here.”
“All right,” Stan said, his anxiety growing. “Head north. Marin General in Greenbrae, just off Highway 101. You know it?”
“Yeah, I know it. Hang on tight. I don’t like the way she’s moanin’.”
They practically flew across the Golden Gate Bridge. Twenty minutes and one contraction later they reached the emergency entrance. Stan ran inside to get help. He came back out with a wheelchair.
“Good luck, you two,” the cabdriver said, then sped off.
Stan noticed the relief on the man’s face as he left them. He would have liked to leave as well—to go back home, back to his nice comfy bed. How had he gotten caught up in this, anyway?
He didn’t say a word as he pushed Hannah into the emergency ward, preferring to concentrate on getting her into a doctor’s hands and out of his own.
Emergency was fairly quiet, as he expected it might be in this area. The nurse approached. “So this is our mother-to-be,” she said. Stan and Hannah both nodded. “We have some paperwork first.” Stan inwardly groaned.
“Name?” The nurse asked.
Hannah looked so scared, shy, and overwhelmed that Stan answered for her.
“Hannah,” he replied.
“Last name?”
“Uh…” He glanced at Hannah, and the nurse gawked at him.
“Jones,” Hannah said, slightly dazed.
The nurse’s mouth twisted skeptically as she wrote. “Address?”
Hannah gave the address of the Athina. Stan also learned she was twenty-three years old and could name no living relative. She’d been raised in foster homes and never knew her parents. She refused to give any information about the father of the child. Somehow, as the nurse continued the questions, Stan found himself holding Hannah’s hand tight, doing his best to give moral support.
When the nurse pulled out yet another form, Hannah doubled over with a contraction. Perspiration flowed from Stan’s forehead. He was sure she’d give birth right there at the front desk.
“Can’t we hurry?” he wailed. The contractions seemed to be only about five minutes apart at this point.
The nurse was unmoved as she asked about insurance coverage. Because Hannah didn’t have any, Stan went through a lengthy song-and-dance during which he agreed to pay basic, everything-goes-like-clockwork costs, capped at $12,000. That it could cost so much to have a baby stunned him. Fortunately, his father had plenty of money.
“We’re going to send you up to the maternity ward,” the nurse said. “You don’t need to be in emergency, the baby’s got a while yet. They’ll take good care of you up there.” She then handed copies of the paperwork to Stan. “Give this to the receiving desk on the fifth floor.”
“Me? But…” He gazed longingly over his shoulder toward the exit.
“The elevators are to your left.”
Before he knew it, Stan was not only on the fifth floor, but waiting outside the examination room. Everyone seemed to assume he wanted to stay with Hannah. Rather than argue, he went along. After making sure she was all right, he planned to go straight home.
His own nervousness surprised him, a ridiculous state to be in over someone he’d just met. Someone whose last name he didn’t know because whatever it was, it certainly wasn’t Jones. She was a stranger to him. Nothing more.
When Dr. Linda Jedlicka peered into the waiting room, Stan jumped to his feet. “Is she all right?”
“She’s fine.” The doctor gave him a reassuring smile. “The baby’s heartbeat is strong. I expect things will be happening in the next hour or two. She’s asked for natural childbirth, so we’ll move her into a very nice delivery room set up to look much like a bedroom. If anything goes wrong, though, it’s just steps away from a full operating room. You can wait for her in number twelve on the right. When the nurse wheels her in she’ll show you a button to press if things start happening more quickly than expected.”
“Me?” Stan felt woozy. “But, you see, I…”
Dr. Jedlicka’s eyes were kind as she rubbed his shoulder. “Don’t worry. She’ll be just fine. And so will you.”
As Stan sat in the delivery room with Hannah, he again considered calling Angie. She should take over here for him. Women understood these things. He didn’t. Not the slightest bit. Hannah seemed to find comfort by his presence, though, and he decided to wait a while. Big mistake.
When “things” started to happen, as the doctor put it, all hell broke loose.
All Stan could remember was that he’d tried to leave, he really had, but Hannah was holding his hand so tight his knuckles were squished together, and the nurse gave him a fierce glare as she said, “You aren’t going to leave her alone now, are you?”
He edged closer to Hannah for protection.
Before he knew it, he’d been tied into a gown like a sausage, and the dictatorial nurse was instructing him to tell Hannah when to breathe.
“Breathe?” His voice cracked. That was the only word he managed to get out of his mouth when the nurse told him exactly what she thought of men who didn’t bother to attend Lamaze classes. He was too dumbfounded to speak up for himself, especially when Hannah went into the most violent contraction he’d ever seen.
He took a moment to thank God he wasn’t a woman.
The nurse coached him on how to coach Hannah, and he found himself growing increasingly light-headed as he huffed and puffed along with her through the contractions, and wiped sweat from her brow—and his own—in between them.
After what seemed like an eternity, the doctor announced that the crown of the baby’s head was visible.
Up to this time, he’d stayed near Hannah’s head, her legs draped with a sheet. Now, though, at the excitement Dr. Jedlicka and the nurse displayed, curiosity got hold of him. He peeked. He thought he’d feel like a Peeping Tom, but he didn’t. The sight was too overwhelming for there to be anything the slightest bit sexual about it.
Birth, right there, in front of his eyes.
He felt weak in the knees, but he couldn’t turn away. He couldn’t miss it. He gripped Hannah’s hand, and for the first time, smiled at her. “Soon, Hannah. Everything will be fine.”
She was surprisingly stoical. He could tell when the pain came hard, but she never cried out. In fact, between contractions, he heard her thanking him for staying with her. Between her thanks and the nurse’s frowns, he’d been frozen to the spot.
And scared. Every little order the doctor gave to Hannah or the nurse was like a stab to his heart. What’s wrong? He’d wanted to shout. Is something wrong? But he’d been too afraid to ask for fear that the doctor would say yes.
Now, though, now…
His head was swimming when the doctor said, “Here it comes.”
Stan held his breath as the baby’s entire head emerged, and then watched the doctor ease out a shoulder. He had no idea a baby’s bones were so gelatinous.
The hospital room began to spin. The baby was coated with some whitish, reddish gunk. Once the head and shoulders were out, the rest followed so quickly, Stan couldn’t believe it.
“It’s a girl!” The doctor announced.
A girl? His eyes welled with tears.
“She’s beautiful,” the nurse said, smiling at Hannah.
“Take the scissors,” the doctor ordered.
From a deep fog, Stan tore his gaze from the baby and realized he was the one the doctor was speaking to. The nurse handed him huge shears.
“Cut,” Dr. Jedlicka said.
The umbilical cord.
Stan moved the scissors where the doctor indicated and pressed down. The cord was much harder than he thought, and as he pressed, he realized that this was living flesh…alive.
Black and purple spots danced in front of his eyes. He wondered if he’d ever forget the sound of the scissors against the cord, the way it felt as he cut through it.
The nurse was cleaning up the baby, he guessed. He wasn’t aware of much of anything except that Hannah was no longer in pain. He was watching the doctor, trying to regain his composure, to be cool, suave Stan once again, when the afterbirth came sliding out of Hannah’s body.
And that was when Stan-the-Man fell over in a dead faint.