PROLOGUE

 

 

 

What is my purpose in life? Will I be happy? Will I be someone’s happiness? Should I worry about these things knowing that I cannot do anything about it? These are questions that most people ask themselves, but I never thought I would. Life always seemed so dull and boring… I never wanted to know what the future would be made of. But on the day I met him, my perspective shifted; I did not know what my fate would be, but I knew that he would be a part of it. My life before that moment felt like it had never happened; like it had been nothing more than a dream. My past felt imaginary, non-existent, because meeting him brought so many new feelings and experiences.

One encounter after another led me to where I was supposed to be; led me to my fate. Fate… I had never considered that someday this idea would be looping over and over in my mind. Yet, ever since that first encounter, everything seemed to have been written for me. I was not in control of anything; regardless of how hard I tried to do the right thing, I always failed miserably. I wanted to please everyone; I wanted everyone to be happy, even if it meant pushing my own happiness aside, but it did not happen, perhaps because it was not meant to happen.

My life felt like a circle, going round and round. Finding happiness; losing it; finding it again; losing it again. I found myself wondering when that circle would end. Would I ever find my happiness, and keep it?