33.

Late that afternoon,

when the last

kitten is dead,

I bike my way to Mari’s house.

I am hollow inside

from it all.

Look at this camera,

Mari says, when I walk

in her room,

clicking my picture before

I even have a chance

to smile.

My father bought it

for me.

She snaps another picture and

another

and one more.

And I almost

forget

every

awful

thing

in

my

life.

Stop it!

I want to say, but

I’m laughing.

We can do something

with these,

she says.

Maybe I can blackmail

you.

But first,

she says aiming the camera,

more

pictures.

I pose,

hand on my head,

covering my mouth,

pointing to my butt.

Mari poses,

pulling at her hair,

mouth wide open,

grabbing her bosoms.

We take pictures,

laughing the whole

time.

Carrying on

till Mari’s mother

stops in to see what’s going on.

We’re leaping on Mari’s bed,

both of us, leaping,

catching action shots.

What are you two doing?

her mother says

just as the bed collapses.

I hit the floor

on both knees,

and roll onto my back.

Mari falls to the floor, purple

hair every-which-way.

She aims the camera.

I point to my O-shaped

mouth.

Snap!