74.

I wish Ian could come over,

I say to Mari.

We’re on a first-name

basis with Ian

St. Clair.

We stand in the Wal-Mart

looking for hair bleach

(for me, too!)

and talking about

Mari’s upcoming boy/girl party.

A party Liz might

have come to,

if she wasn’t still in

the hospital.

That would be so cool,

Mari says.

She looks at me with

her big brown eyes.

She has the

prettiest eyes in all of Florida.

Me and Mari stand silent,

me thinking

just how great it would be

if anybody really cute

showed up.

A voice comes over

the speaker saying M&M’s

are on sale

on aisle five.

We’d have to take turns

dancing with him,

Mari says,

then she looks at the bleach.

Your hair is a lot blonder, Hope,

Mari says,

after a quiet moment,

and if I’m going to match

you I’ll need something

strong.

And light.

I think I’ll go with Buttercup Yellow.

What about you?

I’m not thinking

about bleaching my hair.

I am wondering about

anyone who is cute that

might be at Mari’s

boy/girl party.

Hope, what about you?

Mari says.

I decide right then,

why not?

I like this red,

I say,

and pull a box out

with an auburn-haired girl

on the cover.

Her hair is near

the color of Liz’s,

only shinier.

And the girl smiles big,

too.

Turning all that natural blond red,

Mari says,

like she’s her mother all the sudden,

and like this wasn’t her idea.

Then

Mari grabs me tight by the arm.

Isn’t this exciting?

she says.

And it is,

till the coloring is said

and done.