Casualty Days

Back in the world as summer passed

through bright and gritty dog days, tethered girls

captured faceless voices and placed calls

pairing braided coiled snakes red white

gray white across the continent,

Sharon to Missoula, Pam to New York

their sad and tender fingers glittering

in the absence of their men who slept, it seemed

to the girls on second shift it almost seemed

they slept in jungles off the China Sea.

I passed them on the sidewalk outside Bell,

some college kids home on their summer break

girls in hippie dresses and peasant chic

boys in blue chambray work shirts and jeans

feigning righteousness sitting crossed-legged

(Indian-style, they thought) on the sidewalk

singing and chanting “Ho Ho Ho Chi Minh!

NLF is gonna win!” A white girl

costumed ersatz Indian princess

who wore a beaded headband from Japan

looked right through me, a Native working girl

in nylons, carrying a vinyl purse.

Upstairs we plaited spiderwebs of calls.

“Solidarity forever; our union makes us free”

floated up on humid summer air

to our window and over the switchboard,

weighting the hands and hearts of anchored girls,

unseen sisters of the working class.

And sleepless girls we sang through the night

songs I remember as I remember our fright

Operator.

Your number, please?

Please deposit five cents more.

Operator.

Your number, please?

I’m sorry, ma’am, your time is up.

Remember, Bev, how very young we were?

I remember, and remember that he’d kissed your pretty face.

I remember your blue eyes and waiting face.

And Bev, remember those “casual wear days”

when operators who’d met their quotas

were rewarded with potluck lunches

and freed from polyester working clothes

for a day of being someone not ourselves?

In jeans we almost looked like college girls.

That summer day so fragile you maintained,

chilled and sweatered, gratefully talking

recipes with the older operators,

kind ladies their spreading flesh fading and

Tussy-scented inside their casual wear,

picnic “wash” dresses soft with wear and age.

Polite and frightened we spooned and swallowed

uneasy noodle salads, their intended comforts

our reward for being such good and grownup girls.

Remembering themselves in other wars

they knew, they knew how young we really were.

Summer passed; days shortened and grew cold.

Migratory birds and college kids

soared and disappeared into the sky.

Here in the world we hurried to work

in thin-soled flats light on the frosty sidewalk

to punch in and anchor to the switchboard,

bound and faceless girls weaving America

red white gray white across the continent

Duluth to Detroit, to the fire department,

to the Busy Bee Market. Business. Births. Deaths.

Bev, that January casual wear day

you were pale and thin, fragile in winter white.

Beneath the bowl held out on the palm of your left hand

your diamond ring, loose, spun and caught the light.

That day, white marble balanced on an egg

as flatly jazzed bridal lasagna sweat

unsteady beads through wedding gift Pyrex embellished

with gold roosters flaunting avocado plumes

while shivering girls tiptoed past their bloom.

Kathy’s cave rat tunneling deep in the jungle

and Sharon’s sniper in that twelve-foot boat,

in sleep, those absent boys, what did they dream

while their feet softened yellowed, damp

in heavy laced boots, near the China Sea?

And your own soldier, Bev, lost there in the fog

within the greenest of jungles woke dreaming of you.

Remember, Bev, how very young we were?

I remember, and remember that he’d kissed your pretty face.