At 4:00 p.m., after a day that felt seventy-two hours long, I followed Eleanor’s car south on Interstate 5. She was woozy from the day’s drama and her two shots of whiskey with Cooper, and wanted to make sure the battleship returned to port. I didn’t mind being her escort. The Ghost made every trip feel like a vacation, especially after my two Bureau-assigned heaps, one of which was a K-car with vinyl bench seats. The other car was purple and stunk of perp vomit. With Italian butter-leather caressing my back, I gazed out the smooth wash of windshield. The temperamental summer rain was taking another break and the spent clouds splintered sunlight. Mount Rainier’s peaks looked as gilded as crowns of ice. I could’ve stared at that view forever, but my rearview mirror held an even more interesting picture.
A black Cadillac left Emerald Meadows when we did. Its darker-than-normal tinted windows led me to assume it was a private limo. But it should have passed us by now because Eleanor was motoring down the freeway at forty miles an hour, peering through her steering wheel and singing along with the golden oldies on her tape deck. Irate motorists kept giving her colorful hand signals, conveying their sentiments about her speed, or lack of. But the black Caddy hung back six or seven cars. When she took the exit for Tacoma’s North Slope neighborhood, it did the same, then dropped back a little farther at J Street, when Eleanor swung the Lincoln into the curving driveway of her old Victorian. One bejeweled hand came out the window, waving good-bye to her escort. I waited at the curb until she was inside the house. When I pulled back into the street, the Cadillac was a block behind me.
“All right,” I told the growling engine. “Let’s roll.”
Stepping on the gas, I shifted into second almost immediately. Just before Division Street, the car begged for third. We made a sharp cut left and flew back uphill to the North Slope. Obeying my commands with the walnut steering wheel, the tires stuck to the pavement like unrequited love. When we plunged down the hill again, I opened up the engine and zipped down Dock Street to the 1700 block and into the parking lot for Thea’s Landing.
The Caddy was nowhere in sight.
“Well done.” I patted the burled wood dashboard and gathered my belongings. For the first time in days, weeks, I was smiling, feeling so good I started to plan my next meal. Unfortunately, there wasn’t anything to eat in the condo, and as I was crossing the parking lot to my building, I was debating whether to go shopping or eat out. But something caught my eye. I turned, looking at the street.
The Cadillac passed slowly. The late-afternoon sun made the black paint sparkle like crushed anthracite. And the driver was hidden behind the dark glass.
I felt a sudden temptation. Fire up the Ghost, chase him down.
But the thought was doused by the image of OPR, and my boss in Richmond, warming their hands over my incinerating career.
Let it go. I keyed open the lobby door. For now.
Thea’s Landing was a sleek and modern complex, named for the matriarch who founded the largest fleet of tugboats in the Northwest, Thea Foss, a Tacoma pioneer who passed away in 1927. The brand-new building sat on the waterfront, and the lobby still smelled of gypsum board and the volatile compounds leaking from the walls’ inoffensive beige paint. I keyed open the brushed nickel mailbox labeled #202, Raleigh David and walked up two flights. The biggest envelope in the pile of mostly junk mail had the return address of Three Springs, Vesuvius, Virginia. The David family’s estate. Supposed estate. I was coming down the hall to my door, turning over the envelope to check the tamper-proof seal, when I saw two brown bags sitting outside my door. I walked up to them carefully, looking over my shoulder.
They were full of groceries.
Eleanor, I decided. Probably a delivery of rye bread and lettuce.
Carrying the bags inside, I set them on the polished granite countertops that gleamed from lack of use. My two-bedroom corner unit had a balcony that overlooked a small harbor. The place was so far beyond my budget it was laughable. But Eleanor hadn’t batted one false eyelash. Like the Ghibli sports car, she insisted her niece would have only the best. She and Harry never had children, and I sometimes wondered if she was making up for that by spoiling me.
Picking up the envelope again, I inspected the back flap. If there had been any tampering, the nearly invisible tape would have come off in annoyingly small pieces. But the seal was intact, and inside I found two smaller envelopes, both addressed to me.
The real me. Raleigh Harmon.
The first note was from Aunt Charlotte, telling me that my mom was “okay.” My eyes burned reading her big exuberant handwriting. Such sweet deceived words. Deceived by me. She had sent the note to the Seattle field office, believing my assignment took me far away. Yet I was less than an hour from her house on Capitol Hill. I hated lying. Especially to the people I loved.
The second note was sent “care of Charlotte Harmon.” The ecru stationery was embossed with a silver scalloped edging and had the fine calligraphy used for important occasions. When I flipped it over, the envelope showed its own tamper-resistant seal: melted red wax stamped with the letter W. It stood for Weyanoke. My fiancé’s estate in Virginia. A real honest-to-goodness estate. Three thousand acres along the James River, Weyanoke had been in the Fielding family since the 1700s and DeMott planned to live every day on that land. I was supposed to join him there right after we married on the cliff above the river. We would build a home on five acres, not far from his family’s three-story Georgian mansion that was almost four hundred years old. The place was storybook beautiful, secure on the National Register of Historic Places, and no way could I see myself living there.
I stared at the calligraphy. It looked like an announcement.
He wouldn’t . . . No. He wouldn’t set a wedding date without asking me. Would he?
I tore open the envelope. And let out a sigh. The invitation was for a baby shower. His sister MacKenna was expecting a baby. MacKenna Fielding Morgan. The sister who hated me. I glanced at the details and found a small handwritten note inside.
Raleigh,
DeMott says I shouldn’t bother sending you this invitation. He says you’re working on something top secret and can’t come. But I thought you would like to know what’s going on here at Weyanoke. The family is very excited for the impending arrival of another generation!
And DeMott misses you, terribly. Please come home soon.
With love, Jillian
Jillian. His older sister. Who actually liked me.
I shredded the notes for security reasons, then unpacked the groceries while listening to the messages on Raleigh David’s answering machine. The first came from a campaign worker, begging me to vote for some congressman who promised to “clean up Washington, DC” The campaign worker, I decided, was probably also dumb enough to believe in luck.
I pulled the first item from the bag. Hamburger buns. The second message began as I removed a jar of Kraft mayonnaise and a golden brick of Tillamook cheese. In the background, an earnest environmentalist tried to scare me about global warming, carbon emissions, and how coal plants would bring an end to the human race. Just for that, I left the refrigerator door wide open. Then I opened the freezer and left that open too. The second grocery bag contained frozen French fries. And one box of hamburger patties. And a note.
Bake at 425 degrees. Dip in mayo.
P.S. Shrink at 8:00 p.m.
Jack
The environmentalist signed off, and in the ensuing silence every spotless surface glared back at me. I slammed both doors and checked my watch.
It was three hours later on the East Coast. And at Weyanoke they dressed for dinner. Summer guests were constant, parading through the grand dining room. Richmond’s corporate lawyers and investment bankers. All those First Families of Virginia. Maybe DeMott would want to come to the phone. I stared at my landline. The FBI had a wire tap on it, to monitor taps from other sources. But hey, Raleigh David was engaged. She could call her fiancé. Right?
The housekeeper answered. She asked me to wait while she went to find “Mr. DeMott.” Holding my breath, I stared out the patio door. The early evening sunshine sparkled on the water and I thought of the crystal chandeliers that would be glittering above the mahogany table that seated twenty-six comfortably.
“Raleigh?”
Oh, his voice. My heart flew.
“Raleigh, is that you?” DeMott’s voice was bred by the Old Dominion. My name in his mouth sounded like a song.
“Yes, it’s me.”
“I can’t believe it—you’re on the phone!” He laughed.
I couldn’t believe it either. What joy in his voice. He missed me, he really missed me. The real me.
“Wait—” he said. “What’s wrong? Raleigh, are you all right?”
I held back the sigh. All that joy, once again clobbered by his mallet of worry.
“Everything’s fine,” I said, but added, “Aunt Eleanor had a hard day.” Just to remind him. He knew the bare minimum about my assignment and my assumed identity. “But otherwise we’re doing fine.”
“Are you sure? You sound upset.”
I took a deep breath and wished the sudden pain in my ribs could evict the terrible thoughts in my mind. DeMott’s fear, his anxiety, they annoyed me so much. What happened to calm DeMott, peaceful DeMott? He disappeared almost immediately after he put this ring on my finger. The even-keeled guy I’d known since grade school was replaced by a man of worry, full of what-ifs and shoulds.
“I got the invitation to the baby shower.” I checked my watch. If the call was longer than what was needed to order a pizza, the case agent would check the conversation. That meant Jack. Listening to this. “Congratulations,” I said. “That’s great news.”
“Oh. You’re calling about Mac’s shower?”
“Yes.”
“It is wonderful, isn’t it? Pretty soon we can start our family. The babies will be cousins.”
In the significant pause that followed, the stainless steel stove glared at me, clean and accusing. No fingerprints. No smudges. No home-cooked meals. Not one trace of human life in this place. The appliances seemed to wonder why I wasn’t leaping at the chance to marry DeMott and join that esteemed line of Fieldings. Life at Weyanoke. On the historic register.
“DeMott, I can’t talk long. I have to—”
“So that’s it,” he said. “You just called to say congratulations?”
“I’m really busy, I should—”
“Should what?”
There was one very big should in all this: I should never have called.
He said, “You haven’t even asked how I’m doing. Or Madame.”
My mother’s dog, Madame. DeMott had offered to keep her while my mom and I took that cruise to Alaska. Ten days going on two-plus months. And counting.
“So how’s Madame?”
“She’s on antidepressants,” he said.
“Pardon?”
“Something called Clomicalm. The vet prescribed it. He says she’s suffering from separation anxiety.”
“Madame?” The small and willful dog was so self-sufficient I sometimes wondered if she was a human trapped inside a dog suit. “Madame’s never been depressed. Ever.”
“Really? She quit eating.”
“What are you feeding her?”
“The most expensive dog food I could find.”
“Well, there’s the problem, DeMott. Just give her a Big Mac.”
“Raleigh, she won’t go outside either. I thought it was the summer heat. But even at night I have to carry her out in my arms.”
I glanced at my watch. How long does it take to order a pizza? Two minutes, thirty-five seconds. Not that long.
“I’m sorry, DeMott. What can I do?”
“Come home.”
I stared out the sliding glass door. Two kayakers were floating past, their paddles windmilling like double-edge swords. “Aunt Eleanor needs me here right now.”
“There are other people who need you too.”
“I can’t leave.” The first kayaker lifted his paddle to point at something in the water. “Not yet.”
“Then how much longer?”
A sea otter. It was rolling through the water, then floating on its back.
“Raleigh, how much longer?”
“I don’t know.”
The otter held a fish between its paws. The silver scales were flashing in the sunlight.
He said, “I’ll bring her out there.”
“What?”
“Madame. I’ll bring her out there. She needs you.”
Whatever the feeling was, it shot across my chest, circled my lungs, and began choking out my air. I couldn’t speak.
“Raleigh, she’s so thin. And her eyes, they’re . . .”
“Okay, all right. Send her out. What, air freight?”
“Are you serious?” He sounded indignant. “I’m not going to toss her on a plane. Alone? Not in the condition she’s in. She could die.”
I loved this guy. Really, I did. “You’re right. I’m sorry. I wasn’t thinking.”
“I’ll bring her. But I won’t stay.” He paused. “Unless you want me to.”
I was trying to decide which thing scared me more. DeMott coming out here, or Madame suddenly needing a home when my mom was in an insane asylum and I was working day and night. And my real aunt kept a house full of vicious cats, and I couldn’t go see her anyway. But just like that, another concern popped up. I looked at my watch. How was I going to explain this call to Jack? To OPR? And if this phone was tapped by somebody else, did they just figure out Raleigh David might not be who she said she was? And all that wondering stretched out, creating a weighted silence that finally snapped.
“Fine,” he said. “I won’t stay.”
“DeMott—”
“You’re welcome.”
He hung up.