DeMott barreled down the sidewalk, hands shoved into the front pockets of his chinos. His shoulders were hunched with anger, and I tried to catch up, running across the parking lot. But the stupid girly shoes were slowing me down.
“DeMott!”
He didn’t stop until I yelled a third time. Even then, he didn’t turn around. I walked down the sidewalk. The wind was in my face and the road was choked with cars, all heading the opposite direction. The first race started in less than fifteen minutes and greed was pulling everyone to the entrance. And DeMott was glowering, refusing to look at me.
I tried to control my temper. “Do you have any idea what you just did?”
“Work,” he said.
“Pardon.”
“Work.”
“What about it?”
“Raleigh, I’m here two days. And you can’t stop working.”
“I didn’t ask to sit with that guy—you accepted his invitation.”
“Because I know you want to be working. I was trying to help.”
The wind was pulsing from the north, rustling leaves in the maples planted along the sidewalk. I glanced at the traffic, feeling both embarrassed and oddly grateful for this public spat. How could anyone think this relationship was fake when we went at it like this, for all to see? But it was one of those times I was losing for winning.
“DeMott, I have to work. I need my job.”
“Marry me and you’ll never work another day of your life.”
I held back my sigh. It came too easy, too cruel. He was leaving this afternoon, and I might not see him again for a long time. Calm down. “What just happened in there,” I said, “that wasn’t like you.”
“You mean standing up for myself?” His tone was hostile again.
“No. Being rude.”
“You’re right.” He nodded. “That wasn’t like me. That was like you.”
The gusting wind shook the leaves. “I can’t believe you just said that.”
“I can’t believe you didn’t tell me about the fire.”
The trees were too loud, the sound filling my ears. And something cold was settling into my stomach. I felt myself pulling away, turning from him. When I looked at the cars, I suddenly remembered the black Cadillac. Was it in this traffic jam? Watching us?
“You have nothing to say?” DeMott swept his arms out. “Oh. Wait. Don’t tell me. You’re worried the trees are bugged.”
“DeMott, that man in there, you don’t understa—”
But he was striding down the sidewalk again, walking away. I felt a strong temptation. Let him go. Because he’d have to turn around, eventually. He had nowhere to go. And when he cooled off . . . No. When he cooled off, all of this would be waiting for us. And now Sal Gagliardo was involved too. With gossip. Track gossip. What would be their reaction, when they learned I didn’t tell my fiancé about the fire?
I ran to catch up to him. He stood beside the railroad tracks, where that train had whistled that night to wake me. DeMott’s mood seemed as hard as the iron rails.
“Sal Gagliardo is a bookie.”
He looked over at me.
“And not just any bookie. He’s the prime suspect for race fixing. The track closed his barn after his trainer was caught drugging the horses.”
“Fine. But what about the fire?”
I hesitated. The full story would only make things worse. But I didn’t want to lie to him. “Nobody knows who set the fire.”
“You mean it could be that guy? Who we were about to have breakfast with?” He shook his head. “Raleigh, doesn’t that strike you as odd?”
“Sure it’s odd. But that’s my job.”
“And you won’t even introduce me to your real aunt.”
“I can’t.”
“You could if you wanted.”
“You’re right. If I wanted to put you both in harm’s way.”
“But you’d let me eat with a guy who looks like he chews on hubcaps.”
I glanced down the road. Nobody was following us. Not even a black Cadillac. The traffic was winding its way toward the main entrance and the sidewalk lay empty, a pale, flat ribbon. But the wind kept rustling the maples, fluffing the leaves into green pom-poms that cheered on our fight.
“DeMott, I was trying to decline Sal Gag’s invitation, but you interrupted me. Then you overreacted to a simple comment—”
“This is all my fault?”
I stared down at my shoes. My Dolce & Gabbanas. Counterfeit shoes that belonged to an imaginary woman who would never trounce down a sidewalk having a public spat with her fiancé. A woman who didn’t hold two identities separate but equal. I looked up. DeMott was here. In Seattle. Close enough to touch. And yet he looked like a complete stranger. As if all the years we’d known each other never existed and my mother hadn’t asked me all through high school and college, “How’s that DeMott Fielding?”
He waited for me to say something.
“DeMott,” I said, “what happened to us?”
His shoulders slumped. He let out a long sigh. “Come home.”
“What?”
“Come back to Virginia.”
“What about my mom?”
“I’ll fly you out here. Every week. I’ll come with you. Whatever you need.”
“The FBI won’t let me leave town every week.”
He smirked. “Here we go again. Work.”
“Yes, work. My family doesn’t have a lot of money.”
“But I’m offering to take care of you, Raleigh. You don’t have to work.”
I bit back the words. I’d have to work at getting your family to accept me.
He sighed. “At least give me a solid date. When will you come home?”
“When my mom can go with me.”
“Raleigh, your mother can’t even hold a conversation right now.”
“She’s getting better.”
“Did the doctor tell you that?”
No. Dr. Norbert would never say that. Through his little round spectacles, Freud saw a chronic maze, the hopeless and never-ending trudge of the humanist. But I knew different, and I believed. She would get better. And deep down I knew DeMott believed it too, because I saw a flicker of forgiveness in his eyes. We stared at each other and he stepped forward, wrapping his arms around me. I tried to take in his scent but the wind stole it. I looked up into his great and classic face to see that blue burning bright in his eyes. When his lips parted, I closed my eyes and waited for his kiss.
It never came.
That horrible tune sang from my purse. I opened my eyes. His expression had gone flat, almost dull.
“You better answer that,” he said.
I heard the challenge in his voice. If I didn’t answer, I would prove his suspicions were right. Reaching into my bag, I ended “Camptown Races.”
Not Jack. Please.
“Hello?”
“Where are you?” Eleanor bellowed.
“I’m outside. With DeMott.”
“Get back here. Immediately!”
“What’s wrong?”
“Right now!”
“Tell me what’s wrong.”
“You are insufferable! What’s wrong? I’ll tell you what’s wrong. Somebody just kidnapped Cuppa Joe.”
“Sal Gag’s horse?”