Caleb
I do care for her, more deeply than she knows, more deeply than I can admit. My feelings, my emotions will only put her life in jeopardy. I care too much to do that to her but how do I keep her from leaving without exposing the truth?
Whenever she's near I want to touch her, kiss her, hold her in my arms. She makes me into the man I once was, the man I so long to be again but that comes with a price no one should ever have to pay.
"Sutton, before you answer let me ask you one small favor. Sleep with me tonight? We don't need to have sex. I just want you in my bed with me." I lean down placing a small kiss on her forehead, the emotions and feelings I have prying their way out unable to be concealed. She doesn't know it, not even Ben does but another reason I decided coming to this arrangement was because I was lonely. I missed having someone familiar so close by, I just never expected to care.
This all came as a shock, to possibly want to be with someone other than physically. Sutton is everything, beautiful, smart, resilient: all the aspects of a woman that pulls me in but after what I've lost I don't know if that's something I can ever handle again knowing it could all disappear in an instance with an inconceivable grueling pain that rips away at my existence.
"Okay Caleb," she responds in a whisper. Her soft voice a soothing sound that comforts me as she sits up wrapping her arms around me, bringing herself in close so I can feel the heat of her body, of her heart. Her warmth easily dissolving the coldness that has sat burrowed throughout my entirety for way too long.
"Can I remove your dress? It's seems a bit uncomfortable to sleep in." I want her to comfortable, to not feel confined in her own clothing. This doesn't have to do with my needs or wants, this is about her. Once more I find myself putting her first over myself. I hope she knows that, asking nervously waiting for a response, while I look upon her with uncertainty.
Sutton looks into my eyes hesitantly conflicted but then her expression changes with her reaching behind her back taking hold of the zipper of her dress, " I do want to get out of this thing." She releases a small smile, the corner of her lips slighting veering upwards.
I can't contain my urges any longer. My hands take grasp of her face, my lips rapidly and intensely meeting hers before my hands fall lower probing the rest of her body in a frantic rage. She makes me insane, more insane and irrational then I've ever been. I want her, I need her, I never want to let her go even though I know the cost of loving her can be both our demise.
She gives in with the same intense urgency, her kisses just as furious, her hands following the same motions. This woman is everything I want, everything I've needed for so long.
I reach behind her back before she has finished undressing herself. My fingers working the metal hinges that hold up her dress taking it down until it releases her perfectly round breasts for my eyes to gaze upon, to admire the perfection. The bare skin, her attentive nipples calling out to me, it all has me riled up causing my cock to twitch, hardening, rising to the occasion.
"Fuck Sutton, promise me again, promise you'll never leave me. I need you, I never want to let you go." I accidentally admit because I don't know how I'll survive if she's gone, if she's an absence from my life.
Her breathing is heaving, her ability to speak no longer existent. The two of us in unison, an unspeakable connection bringing us together while I briefly break away to remove my clothing, Sutton lying beneath me gasping for air.
Naked, I enter her, my cock sliding into her welcoming canal. She's so tight, so wet, so warm, so fucking undeniable.
Sutton reaches around me, her arms positioning under mine until her hands grasp my shoulders locking in, her fingers digging into my skin.
I sway into her, the first stroke slow the second just a bit faster as I gradually rock back and forth while her pussy clenches tightly onto my cock, the sensations beyond unreal.
"Caleb," She cries out wanting to say more but I cut her off.
"Shhh baby, please just let me make you feel good." My arms are propped up along side her head, my face towering over hers as I look into her pleading eyes. I continually let my lower half grind in a paced rhythm with hers as our bodies move in sync.
My cock pushes inside her depths, reaching as far as it can in and out with a delicacy that was never there before and it feels better than ever. Not just with her but sex, fucking, it's never felt so good, so...so..right like it does with Sutton.
I bring my lips to Sutton's devouring her mouth in an uncontrollable manner. I need to taste her, have her in every way possible. This isn't fucking anymore, it's so much more and I realize that now. The way it feels with her walls gripping me tightly, everything in me going through withdraw when I'm not in her, when she's not around.
What she does to me, physically, emotionally has my body tense, shiver, locking up until all of me releases in an eruption escaping into her enclosure. Sex has never felt so amazing. I begin to question is this sex or did I just make love?