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Lily slumped against him, shivering as aftershocks rippled through her. She’d been such an idiot, jumping to conclusions about him and all he’d wanted to do was look after her. She’d been okay until he’d dragged her close and she’d pressed right up against him. It’d sent a bolt of sensations through her, and she’d lost her mind.
Embarrassment flooded through her. He’d know she’d come. He’d know she’d dry humped him to orgasm.
“Bloody fucking hell.” He fell backwards his hands still inside her jeans.
She grunted as she fell with him, her face still buried against his neck.
“You just killed me,” he groaned.
She kept her face buried, not able to face him.
His hands moved on her butt, squeezing and stroking. It sent a shiver through her, making her wriggle on him.
“I never want to move again, but I need to get out of these sweats,” he muttered, his hands slid up her back and back down onto her butt.
“Yo! Is it safe to come in?”
She lifted her head in horror. “Don’t tell them.”
“Fuck off!” Nate roared, and rolled them until he was hovering over her. “This is between you and me, no one else, and certainly not those morons.” He kissed the end of her nose. “That was incredible, but I do need to change.”
He moved, and she saw the dark patch on his sweatpants. A bolt of pleasure rushed through her. It’d been mutual. She flopped onto the bed and covered her eyes with her arm. She heard the rustling of clothing and then he was over her, kissing her.
“I need to know that you’re okay with this. I know it’s a bit late now, but we need to be honest with each other. Did I go too far?”
“No.” She wound her hands around his neck. “It was amazing, Nate. I don’t regret anything. I was worried that you’d be disgusted. I basically dry humped you.”
“You can dry hump me anytime you want, babe.” He kissed her nose. “I got you off, didn’t I?”
She saw a spark of something quite primeval in his eyes. “Yeah. You did and quite spectacularly.”
“I could feel you,” he whispered against her lips. “I felt you come and it made me come. I want to do this again with you. I want to touch you, to explore every inch of you, I want to watch you come.”
His words caused a delicious shiver to race over her. “You don’t need any books, Nate. You’re doing perfectly.”
His phone rang, and he groaned, rolling to the side of her. He made a grab for it and put it to his ear. “Hello...Okay, thanks...Yeah, I know.”
She watched him, but his face gave nothing away.
“Yeah.” He hesitated. “You okay?”
He was silent for quite a while as he listened, and she realised it was the others he was talking to. Dread pooled in her stomach, and she closed her eyes.
“Thanks. I mean it... just, well, thanks.” He rang off and dropped it on the sheets.
“Do they know?” She bit her lip.
He rolled towards her, propping his head on his hand. “They know we were making out.”
“It’s going to be a problem, isn’t it?” She knew they must have known, and— “Oh, my god, Nate. Your parents. Your mum and dad. What if they heard? Oh, hell. How will I ever face them again?”
“They aren’t here. Matt said they went to the pub for a meal.” He slid his finger down her nose, over her lips, and down her throat.
She sucked in a breath as he drew his finger between her breasts, over her stomach, stopping at where her jeans were still open. He ran his finger back and forth across the edge of her panties, making her gasp as tingles zinged through her. She bit her lip, embarrassed at reacting to his touch so soon.
“The twins are starving, as usual, and they’ve gone with Matt into town to get some pizza. They’re bringing it back here.” He lifted himself over her, his hand still resting on her lower stomach. “They aren’t angry with either of us.”
“How do you know?”
“Because Matt told me how long they’d be. Josh told me they’d ring my phone when they were five minutes from the village, and Jake reminded me.”
“Oh my god!” She covered her face with her hands.
He moved his hand from her stomach to the sheets between them. “I fuck this up every time. I promised you I wouldn’t push you. That we’d take it slowly and what do I do? Grab hold of you and grind against you until I shoot my load.”
“Hold on.” She dropped her hands. “You weren’t working solo. I straddled you, you didn’t grab me. I let you put your hands in my jeans, I ground against you as much as you did me. And let’s face it, I came before you. You didn’t push me into anything except the best orgasm I’ve ever had.”
“Really?” He looked smug. “The best you’ve ever had?”
She made a horrified noise as it sank in what she’d revealed. Swallowing, she looked away, trying to play it cool. “What? You think you boys are the only ones to, well, y’know, fly solo?”
“Oh shit.” He groaned deeply, burying his face in her neck. “I thought at first you meant one of the others, but, oh, Lord.”
“It’s not a sin, y’know.” She flushed, trying to pull away from him, but he moved quickly and pinned her shoulders to the bed as he leant over her.
“No, baby, not a sin, but hot as hell. Just thinking about...” He groaned and pushed away from her to lie on his back.
She winced. “I shouldn’t have told you that.”
He turned onto his side, looking down at her. His pupils were little more than pinpricks in the expanse of blue. He lowered his head; his hair fell into his eyes, and she swept it back. His eyes closed at her touch, and when she drew her hand over his cheek, he opened them. His pupils had blown wide and there was no mistaking the desire in them.
“You can never tell me too much,” he whispered. He kissed her gently, pulling her towards him. She rolled with him until she was snuggled into his side, her head resting on his chest, and their legs tangled together. He stroked his fingers through her hair and it made her sleepy.
“What did Jake remind you of?” She closed her eyes as his fingers played with her hair.
“What?” He sounded as drowsy as she felt.
“Jake? On the phone, what did he say?”
“Oh. One word: condoms.”
Heat flooded her cheeks. Would she have let him go that far? If she was honest with herself, then yes, she would. She’d been close with the twins and they hadn’t even got past touching her breasts. On a logical, cold, unemotional level, she knew it was endorphins, a chemical reaction, a natural response. But she also knew it wasn’t just that. She’d never considered getting this close to any other boys. If it was only a natural chemical reaction and nothing else, she’d had felt the same with Jimmy after the school dance, but she hadn’t felt anything. She didn’t feel that way about anyone in her class now, not even the ones she considered good looking.
She knew her boys were gorgeous, but there was more to it, and she knew it was because she loved them. She was entwined with them in ways she couldn’t even comprehend. They were everything to her and always would be. Sharing anything physical with them went much deeper than a rush of oxytocin being released, it was deeper than anything she could name.
“He’s being an ass.” She heard the hesitancy in his voice and knew her silence was the reason.
“Not really.” She heard him suck in his breath. “We’re going to end up that way, aren’t we? At some point?”
“Yeah, I hope so.” He chuckled, but the edge was still there.
“If you feel rushed, you must say. If I feel rushed, I’ll say. If we get to a point and we want to stop, we say so.”
“I would always stop if you said to. But I’d better warn you, nothing is going to make me say stop.”
“I might do something you don’t want,” she said.
He snorted loudly. “No. I don’t think so.”
“I might. What if I have a fetish for sucking your toes?”
“Um...do you?”
“No. Well, I don’t think so. I’ve never sucked your toes, but I doubt it.”
“You’ve been talking to the twins too much.” He laughed and kissed the top of her head. “But even if you did have a fetish for sucking my toes, I’d let you if you really wanted to.”
She laughed and buried her nose into the side of his neck. “You smell so good.”
“Aren’t I supposed to say that to you?”
“You can say it to me if you want too.” She laughed.
“You do smell good.” He stuck his nose in her hair. “You always do.”
He stroked his hand up and down her back, lulling the drowsiness to creep up over her and pull her under.
