When I arrived here the hand of force was laid on me, and numerous precautions were taken: neither knife nor fork was allowed for my repasts; and a strait-waistcoat — a species of sack made of sail-cloth — imprisoned my arms. I had sued to annul my sentence, so the jailors might have for six or weeks their responsibility; and it was requisite to keep me safe and healthful for the Guillotine!
For first few days I was treated with a degree of attention which was horrible to me, — the civilities of a turnkey breath of a scaffold. Luckily, at the end of some days habit resumed its influence; they mixed me with the other prisoners in a general brutality, and made no more of those unusual distinctions of politeness which continually kept the executioner in my memory.
This was not the only amelioration. My youth, my docility, the cares of the Chaplain of the prison; and above all some words in Latin which I addressed to the keeper, who did not understand them, procured for me a walk once a week with the other prisoners, and removed the strait-waistcoat with which! was paralyzed. After considerable hesitation they have also given me pens, paper, ink, and a night-lamp. Every Sunday after Mass I am allowed to walk in the Prison-court at the hour of recreation; there I talk with the prisoners, which is inevitable. They make boon companions, these wretches. They tell me their adventures, — enough to mortify one; but I know they are proud of them. They also try to teach me their mystic idioms, — an odious phraseology grafted on the general language, like a hideous excrescence; yet sometimes it has a singular energy, a frightful picturesqueness. To be hung is called “marrying the widow,” as though the rope of the gallows were the widow of all who had been executed! At every instant mysterious, fantastic words occur, base and hideous, derived one knows not whence; they resemble crawling reptiles. On hearing this language spoken, the effect is like the shaking of dusty rags before you.
These men at least pity me, and they alone do so. The jailors, the turnkeys, — and I am not angry with them — gossip and laugh, and speak of me in my presence as of a mere animal.