Well then, let me have courage with death, — let me handle this horrid idea, let me face it boldly. I will ask what it is, know what it demands, turn it in every sense, fathom the enigma, and look before-hand into the tomb.
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I have speculated upon Death and Eternity until my mind seems bewildered by its own horrible fantasies. My ideas wander. Oh, for a Priest, — a Priest who could instruct met I must have a Priest, and a crucifix to embrace. Alas! here is the same Priest again!