Chapter 56 - Greg

Greg came to with a jolt, his chest pumping so hard it hurt. He wrapped his arms around his side and howled in pain.

“Sam! Sam! Sam!”

His throat felt raw as if he’d been screaming for days.

“Lay back, son.”

Someone pressed a cool hand to his forehead and he felt a prick on his arm. He looked down at a large syringe stuck into his shoulder. His eyelids grew heavy immediately. He fought the dizziness, but his eyes blinked closed for a second or several hours, he didn’t know how long. Then he was awake again, screaming, heart and chest pumping. This time his arms were stiff, tied down, perhaps. It didn’t matter. He didn’t need arms.

He needed a lifeline.

“How much of this is it safe to give him? This would be the fifth time.”

“I wish magic would work, but it’s having no effect on him, for some reason.”

“Sam! Sam! Sam!” Greg screamed but barely heard his own voice. He was swimming in open space, lost with nothing, no one, to anchor him to Earth. He had to find her, had to wrap his arms around her and bury his face into her neck. Once there, he would hold on tight, so tight he would never feel adrift again.

“So do I give him another shot?”

“No. Maybe later. He’s had too much already.”

“He’s going mad.”

“Greg, Greg, listen, you have to calm down. Lay back and rest.”

“Sam! Sam! Sam!”

There was no other word, no other end but to find her, cling to her, never let her go.

More time passed. He screamed and screamed until he wore himself out. Even then, he mumbled her name like a prayer so vehement that not one second went by between one utterance of her name and the next.

“Please, Greg. You have to stop.”

There’s nothing. Nothing. Nothing. She’s not here. Not anywhere.

It was impossible. She had always been there, like the sun, like the moon. Grand and unavoidable. He had to keep looking, wading through this nothingness until he found his way.

Because he would find his way to her. It was what he did. He always knew where she was. He’d just taken the wrong turn, but he was on the right path now.

“Sam, Sam, I’m coming.”

“Greg, don’t do this. Please!”

She was near. Maybe around the next corner. Yes! She would be around the next corner, waiting, smiling.

“Snap out of it for God’s sake. She’s not here!”

Lies. Lies. Lies.

“I’m coming, Sam. Sam! Sam!”

“Shit! Don’t make me . . .”

“Sam! Sam—”

“SHE’S NOT HERE! You were ripped apart. Ripped, ripped, ripped, and if you don’t freakin’ snap out of it, you’ll never see her again.”

No. No. No.

Greg curled on one side, stopped calling Sam’s name and cried until his inside shriveled.

* * *

Compliance came by degrees, but acceptance didn’t follow.

The truth of what had happened took shape before Greg’s eyes like a deformed sculpture hammered into shape by cruel hands. Once he could stand to look at it for more than a few seconds at a time, he saw reason in Brooke’s pleas to “snap out of it.” And he did, to everyone’s surprise.

It took days. Seven to be exact, but he rejoined the living.

“Greg’s either very strong or . . .” Portos, like everyone else, searched for an explanation. “Or something went differently during the ripping.”

Greg was sitting in an armchair, Jacob curled up and asleep at his side, head resting on his thigh. Since Greg had first woken up, the boy hadn’t left his side. He followed him like a stray duckling and didn’t go with anyone else no matter how much they cajoled or begged.

I’ll keep him safe for you, Sam. He caressed Jacob’s hair and felt a measure of peace.

Others were in the room: Bernard, Ashby, Perry, Brooke, as well as people he had never met, most notably Sam’s mother. Roanna looked so much like her daughter that it almost hurt to be in her presence. Greg couldn’t bear to make eye contact, even if it was rude.

They had brought him here—transported, really—while he was still unconscious. The house belonged to a Luana Mirante, Joao and Calisto’s mother, and it was one of MORF’s safe houses. He knew it was in England, but he had idea of the town or general area. It didn’t matter.

For four days, they’d kept him sedated, until it wasn’t safe to medicate him any longer. After that, they sent Brooke to smack some sense into him. She was the only one who knew exactly what to say.

“If you don’t freakin’ snap out of it, you’ll never see her again.”

He would see her again. That was a promise. Greg brushed Jacob’s hair again. The boy sighed.

Sam’s father stood by the hearth. “Do you think that whatever went differently with Greg also went differently with Sam?”

They were trying to figure out why he wasn’t crazy, why his mind was still intact.

Or so they thought. Just because he could talk and function normally didn’t mean he was whole. He was anything but. He was torn to pieces inside, and if it wasn’t for the hope of seeing Sam again, he would have nothing else to carry him on.

Portos rubbed his chin. “I don’t know.”

“I think Sam did something,” Greg said, thinking back on the horrible moment when that witch tore them apart. Struck by the recollection, Greg bit his lip, took a deep breath, and tried, again, to recall, doing his best to ignore the pain that flared at the memories.

“She . . . I felt her reaching for me. It felt like . . . I don’t know, like she was trying to save us.”

The old sorcerer paced, a long robe billowing behind him. “I wish we knew more about Weavers. It is quite possible that skill is part of her arsenal.”

Roanna’s eye lit up. “In that case, she might be in control of her full mental abilities, just like Greg.”

Even the clear timbre of Roanna’s voice reminded him of Sam. He stood, laid Jacob’s head gently on a cushion and left the room.

He walked through a long hall lined with all kinds of ancient-looking paintings, clocks and useless pieces of ornamental furniture. At the end of the hall, there was door that took him outside into a moonlit night. The chilled air hit his face and cleared his mind. He reclined against a squat stone wall and looked at the faraway trees.

His tolerance was thin and wore away quickly. This was the third time he’d walked away from everyone, sure his head would explode if he didn’t just leave. He hoped it would get better. It had to get better. Bernard and Roanna were just as interested as he was in getting Sam back. He had to be of help.

Brooke joined him fifteen minutes later. She sat on the stone wall and said nothing for a long time. He was grateful for that. Every once in a while, she sighed and shifted positions.

“She started going on about it being our fault again,” Brooke sighed.

Mirante hadn’t wasted any opportunities to blame her kids, Ashby, Perry and Brooke for what had happened. They had set out to find Sam against her express instructions to leave her be and, as a consequence, had led Veridan straight to New York.

“If it’s anyone’s fault it’s mine,” Brooke said, getting choked up.

“You have to stop blaming yourself.”

“Everyone keeps saying that. Veridan used a spell, no human could have resisted it, blah, blah, blah. It doesn’t matter. I was the one who took her away from you. It was my fault.”

She played with the amulet she now wore at her wrist. Perry had made it for her. It was supposed to prevent memory alterations. Many Morphids wore them. No memories acquired while wearing it could be modified or erased. So if it was taken away, the wearer would at least remember who took it.

“I wish I’d had this on me. None of this would have happened,” Brooke said.

“Veridan and Danata are the ones to blame. No one else.”

She slumped, then jumped off the wall, looking unconvinced.

“I don’t blame you.”

And it was true. Brooke had been helpless against Veridan. The spell had been simple and short lived.

“Take the girl away from the Keeper.”

That was the only thought he’d implanted in her mind, and it wore off as soon as she fulfilled the task.

“I know you don’t.” Brooke sounded grateful for that. “We’ll get her back. That bitch isn’t going to get away with this.”

“No. She won’t.”

And that was a promise. To Sam. To Jacob. To himself.

The house’s front door opened again. Ashby and Perry came out and joined them.

“Can we talk?” Ashby asked Greg.

“Want to take a walk?” Perry took Brooke by the arm and didn’t wait for her answer. It seemed she went quite willingly, though.

Greg had no desire to talk to Ashby, and he’d been avoiding him since he noticed the furtive, questioning glances he sent his way. What else could he want but to gloat? Well, he’d let him gloat this once. At least now Greg knew exactly how Ashby felt. The suffering had at least given him the capacity to empathize.

It wasn’t much, and it was certainly not better than nothing.