Make a wish, Sam!” Penny Parker, Samuel Barton’s girlfriend, giggled into his ear.
“But don’t tell us what it is, Bucky,” his college roommate admonished, “or it won’t come true.”
Bucky leaned toward a chocolate cake ablaze with twenty-two candles. He imagined that everyone at the long restaurant table believed they could guess his wish, but they’d be wrong. They were all as well lit as his birthday cake but for his mother, who sat sober and unsmiling across from him. He felt her tension and could easily read her wish, her prayer, for him in her eyes: Please God. Let my son survive the war. The same wish for themselves sobered the faces of his University of Oklahoma fraternity brothers. Of the four, two were already in military uniform, their draft numbers called before they could complete their diplomas, and were home on brief leaves before their deployment overseas.
They had cause to be worried. The war was going badly for American forces and their allies in both the European and Pacific Theaters. Europe lay under the Third Reich’s domination after an almost unbroken chain of battlefield successes, and now the German Army was effectively advancing into Russia. In southeast Asia, U.S. forces had surrendered at Bataan and Corregidor, and the Imperial Japanese Army had occupied most of the islands in the South Pacific. His other Phi Delta Theta buddies would be joining up to serve their country immediately after graduation in a few weeks. Only Bucky remained uncommitted, a situation everybody expected to change with the next drawing of the military draft numbers, but Bucky had other plans.
The honoree puckered his lips and drew in a full lung of air to annihilate the candles with one blow. All twenty-two flickered out. “Atta boy, Bucky,” his father said across the table, joining in the guests’ riotous applause. So far, his pudgy face, flushed from food and drink and high spirits, had managed to deflect the concerns on his wife’s.
One of his fraternity brothers sang out, “Tell us how you got the name Bucky, Sam!”
“Yes, son,” urged his father, eyes alight with devilish amusement. “Tell your friends how you happen to be called Bucky.”
Bucky, who preferred to be called Sam since leaving high school, batted away the request with his hand and with forced good humor called down to his friend who’d made it, “Another time, jerk face, when you’re sober enough to remember.”
“I’ll tell ’em!” Horace Barton boomed out. “Nothing to be ashamed of.” He turned expansively to the group, ignoring the warning Monique pressed on his arm and Bucky’s embarrassed look. “When my son was born, he was very sickly. Colicky. Cried all the time. Threw up a lot. Couldn’t keep food down. That went on for a while until I told him, ‘Buck up, boy! Buck up!’ That was before he could talk. When he finally did, he’d heard ‘Buck up!’ so often that when he was asked his name, he’d say ‘Bucky’! And that’s how he got the handle he goes by.” Horace beamed his pride around the table for his hand in making his son the man he was today.
“Did,” Bucky corrected his father. “I go by Sam now, Dad.”
“Because he’s no longer that sickly kid, I can assure you,” Penny purred knowingly and snuggled closer, warming his ear with her breath.
Bucky subtly wiggled his shoulders as a hint to Penny to undrape herself from his arm. It was warm in the private room of the restaurant, and her perfume and the waft of the blown-out candles were stifling. He was mad at her anyway for smuggling in a case of champagne and beer and bribing the waitress to keep quiet about it. Oklahoma was a dry state with strict laws against the sale and imbibing of alcohol in public. He felt suffocated from the heavy food and beer in his belly, the cigarette smoke, and the revelry that had begun to have a desperate edge to it, as if his friends’ loud jests and tipsy laughter could drown out the voices of gloom and uncertainty hanging over their futures. Tomorrow when their heads cleared, the voices would resound louder than ever. He supposed it would be impolite to have the waitress box the cake to take home, but he didn’t think he could endure the long ritual of having it cut and served and eaten at the tail end of his party. He’d had enough of his birthday celebration. He wanted to get his mother out of here. He wanted to go home.
This birthday bash had been his father’s idea and thrown at his insistence. “It’ll do your mother good to get her mind off her worry over you and the war news in France. Besides, this is the last one you’ll have before you’re drafted, and you know that I like to show off what I can do for my family,” he’d argued. But Bucky suspected a big part of his father’s reason for the party was his own fear that this birthday might be his son’s last.
The girlfriend of one of his fraternity brothers leaned forward and slurred, “So, Bucky, wha…branch of the service are you…gonna sign up for if your draft number isn’t called this next go-round?”
At a signal from his mother, the waitress approached the table and, in chagrin, Bucky watched her whisk away the cake to be taken to the kitchen and sliced. They wouldn’t be skipping dessert after all, and he wouldn’t be able to escape the question he’d known was bound to pop up.
“I won’t be sure until I finish investigating my options,” he replied. “I want to sign up with whatever organization will let me put my engineering degree to good use.”
“Oh, I see,” she said, but, clearly, irritatingly, she did not. Ever since the war began, his friends, classmates, parents, and his father’s close business associates had noticed that the usually decisive Bucky seemed mysteriously disinclined to discuss his military service “options” after graduation, which made them wonder if he was holding out for a noncombatant but essential government job stateside. Was Sam Barton, model of young manhood, pride of his parents, star athlete, class leader, school hero, taking the safe and cowardly way out?
The girl flopped a hand carelessly. “Oh, well, who can blame you if you want to play it safe? Those Nazis are horrible people, and the Japanese are worse. The atrocities they’re committing make your blood curdle.”
Penny shot her a scathing look. “Good God, Babs! What gave you the idea that Sam wants to play it safe? He wants to use his professional skills in the most effective way for the war effort. And I doubt you can see anything given the amount you’ve had to drink.”
Penny’s reprimand signaled the end of the fun. The cake was served in near silence and hardly touched during strained conversation. Penny refused a serving, saying, “I’m watching my figure so Sam will.” After the first round of coffee, everyone folded their napkins and pushed back from their plates. It was Saturday evening, and most had to be in their rooms on the university campus by twelve. Bucky would be driving his parents home to Oklahoma City and staying for the rest of the weekend. Anticipating that his father would drink more than usual at the party, Bucky had insisted on being the one to drive their car, but he really wanted an excuse to keep an appointment at seven on Monday morning. He had arranged to meet a man at a coffee shop before catching the bus back to Norman for his midmorning finals.
Behind the wheel of his parents’ Cadillac, Bucky noticed that his father’s expansive mood, encouraged by the beer, had vanished. Horace Barton had purchased the car in anticipation of the nation going to war. Automobile manufacturers would be converting their plants to military production of arms, munitions, trucks, tanks, and planes, he predicted, “and the home front will not see another new civilian car roll off assembly lines until the end of the war, whenever the hell that will be.”
His assessment had been right and in line with most of his astute commercial and business decisions, as evidenced by the success of his trucking company and its notable survival of the Depression. That he adored Monique Barton, Bucky had no doubt. After almost twenty-three years of marriage, the feeling his rough, bombastic father had for his lovely, refined French mother still bordered on adulation. “Imagine the luck of an old high school dropout country boy like me winning the hand of a beautiful, educated woman like your mom,” he’d say to Bucky. “Never let me hear you say a cross word to her, son, you hear me? The belt if you do.”
“Yessir,” Bucky would dutifully reply, as if he could ever disrespect his mother, but he had learned that Horace Barton’s idea of parenting was to instruct by empty threat, for Horace Barton would never lay a hand on his son, even if Bucky had been the sort of child to test his concept of good conduct. His father loved him without bounds. Of that, Bucky had no doubt, either, and he was happy to make him proud.
Looking into his rearview mirror, he saw his father glance worriedly at his mother and reach for her hand. She had not spoken the whole drive, and the car vibrated with her deep silence. “It will be okay, sweetheart,” Horace said soothingly. “Your sister in Paris will be fine. The Germans treat the upper-class French with respect, and should Bucky decide to join the Army Corps of Engineers, it doesn’t send its bridge builders into combat. If Bucky is sent overseas, chances are he will be given an assignment far behind hostile lines, ready to step up to do his stuff when the path is clear.” Horace reached forward and popped his son on the shoulder. “Right, son?”
“If you say so, Dad,” Bucky said. From his mother’s expression, his father’s assurances had the effect of a sprinkler bottle used to put out a house fire, and she turned her head to stare out the window. Bucky added no words to comfort her. They would have been meaningless and untrue, as were his father’s, for in the First World War, Horace Barton had seen firsthand what the Germans could do to the French population. Also, Bucky would not be volunteering for the Army Corps of Engineers, as his father assumed. The unit he planned to join would not assign him to build bridges but to destroy them from deep within enemy territory.
But all that would remain a secret until he discussed the details with the man at Kelly’s Coffee Shop on Monday. It wasn’t only patriotism that had urged him into the meeting with the man from the Office of Strategic Services, but an even deeper secret that Horace Barton could not know—could never know. At fourteen, Bucky had overheard a private conversation of his mother’s and learned that the man in the back seat of the Cadillac was not his father. His real father lived in Paris, a high-ranking officer in the French military whom his mother still loved.