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DEMARCO
“ Resident DeMarco Winslow,” said a loud voice over the intercom. “Please report to your room.”
I listened in closer. “Did they just call my name?” I said to Coo Coo, one of my friends from the neighborhood where I grew up.
“I think so, homie,” he said. “Whatchu do?”
“I haven’t done anything,” I said with a frown as I thought back to what I may have done. I stood from my desk and closed my textbook. “I wonder what they want.”
“You better go see,” Coo Coo said. “Maybe you going home, boy?”
“That would be nice,” I said. “But I doubt that.”
“No other reason for them to be calling you.”
I thought about what my friend said for a second and realized that he was right.
“Hold it down out there until I get home,” Coo Coo said with a blank expression on his brown baby face. He reached out to shake my hand as if he was congratulating me, but we both knew going home wasn’t anything to celebrate.
Coo Coo was in for stealing a candy bar from a gas station, and the owner of the store was acting like he was a bank robber. He pressed charges and the judge gave my friend nine months in the pokey for a doggone Snickers bar. He was only fourteen years old and already seemed to be getting the hang of life behind the fence. Coo Coo had lived a very hard life and his eyes told his story: sad, droopy, and void of any signs of a future. His mother was in prison and his father was shot and killed during a botched bank robbery. Coo Coo lived with an aunt who treated him like he was a leech. He got his nickname because folks always called him crazy, but he was as sane as anyone else. He only acted crazy to keep the nuts away.
“Resident DeMarco Winslow. Please report to your room,” the voice said again.
I sighed and picked up my drawing tablet and walked to the front of the class. Officer Scales appeared in the doorway and nodded at me. That was my cue that he would be escorting me back to my “room.” I don’t know why they called them rooms; I guess it was because we were juveniles and they wanted to be politically correct, but in my book, they were cells and we weren’t residents, we were inmates.
Officer Scales asked, “How ya doing, boy?” He was at least six feet ten inches tall and was mostly muscle.
“I’m good.”
I followed him out of the classroom without a word to any of the thirty or so other kids who looked and dressed just like me. We were a sea of black faces, navy-blue jumpsuits, and orange flip-flops.
“What’s going on, Scales?” I asked as we walked side by side. “Why they want me?”
“Don’t know, lil buddy,” Scales said. “Maybe you have a visitor. Today is your birthday, right?”
“What’s the date?”
“August twentieth,” he said.
“Oh yeah? Well, I guess it is,” I said with a hunch of my shoulders.
“Yeah,” Scales said. “The staff here was trying to do a lil something for you this morning, but the new director is a butt-wipe and he shut it down.”
“It’s all good. Don’t nobody wanna celebrate their birthday up in here anyway,” I said as if I had a better place to be.
Scales chuckled, then used his large key to open the steel door leading to the main building. We entered through the cafeteria, walked through the commons area, past the control booth, then down a hallway all the way to my “room.”
“Happy birthday, DeMarco,” a short, white nurse said as she walked by.
“Thanks,” I said, thinking of how many birthdays I had spent in this place.
“How old are you now, Dee?” Scales asked.
“I’m sixteen, man. Getting old.”
Scales stopped in front of my “room” and opened the door.
“I’ve been working here for four years and for four years you’ve been coming in and out of this place. When are you going to wise up and realize that you are better than this, Dee? You’re a good guy, man. I mean you could really be somebody, but you gonna have to leave that street crap alone or whatever it is that keeps bringing you back here. I know I wouldn’t want to keep coming back to jail all the time. People like you, and you’re smart. Those are two of the best qualities anyone could ask for, and you just take it for granted and throw it away by coming in here.”
I nodded my head but didn’t say anything. What was there to say to that? Once he had my door open, I walked in. I looked at my bed and there was an empty box sitting on my bunk. That could only mean one thing—I was leaving.
Scales held out his hand and I shook it.
“I don’t wanna see you come in here no more, boy. Take my number down. If you’re hungry or something, call me. Just stop doing the stupid stuff, man. When you turn seventeen it’s over to the big jail, and that’s when it gets real,” he said, slapping his huge paw on my shoulder.
I nodded my head, but I wasn’t really paying him any attention. It was always so easy for folks to sit back and judge me. They didn’t have a clue as to what I had to deal with when I went home, and truth be told, I wasn’t really looking forward to going there.
“Don’t just stand there looking crazy, go find something to write my number down on,” he said.
I walked over to the metal desk that was bolted to the concrete wall and wrote down his number on a piece of paper.
Once Scales had stepped away from my room, I gathered my personal items: my drawing tablets, a shoe box containing my tattoo supplies, and a brush for my waves. I walked out into the hallway and waited to be escorted to the intake building where I would be sent on my way. As I stood there waiting, I saw Prodigy Banks. We called him Mr. P. He was a volunteer teacher who was also a mentor to a lot of the real knuckleheads at the facility.
Mr. P was about six-feet-three-inches tall, had a bald chocolate head, and everyone seemed to love him. Especially the female employees. They just blushed and blushed whenever he walked by, but from my viewpoint he never paid them any mind. There was something about Mr. P that said he was above all of the drama. He was very passionate about helping his boys, as he called us. We hit it off one day after I had gotten into a fight and was sent back to my room for “cool down,” which was exactly what it sounded like. Mr. P came by my room, had one of the officers open my door, and handed me a book. He told me that I needed a little something to kill the boredom of being forced to sit in a six-by-six space for the next twenty-four hours. Before that day, I had never read a book on my own. He was smart enough to give me something I could relate to. It was a book by a self-published author called Bliz. The book was interesting and it made me want to read more. Before long I went from street fiction to reading Sun Tzu’s The Art of War.
Mr. P motioned for me to come his way and I walked over to where he was standing. The intake building was directly behind him so I strained my eyes to see if I could catch a glimpse of my mother, but the lobby seemed empty.
“You ready?” he asked.
“Yeah,” I said, confused as to why he was asking me that question. “Who signed me out?”
“I did,” he said. “Go on and give these folks their clothes back. I’ll be waiting right here.”
He didn’t have to tell me twice. I was authorized to be released three weeks ago, but my sorry mother never came to sign me out, so I was stuck here until I could find a relative or somebody who the officials at Metro trusted enough to vouch for me. Sitting in jail after your release date was all a part of being a poor black boy from the hood. If I had to sit and calculate how much extra time I had done after my release dates, I might be close to a year. Thanks, Mom.
I quickly changed clothes and jumped back into the same ones that I came in with over six months ago. The jeans were a little too snug around the waist and somehow they seemed to have shrunk to where the pant legs ended at my ankles. I forced my size twelve feet into the size eleven Air Max 95s. My feet were killing me already, my pants were too short, and my shirt was too tight. I looked a hot mess, but that too was part of the drill. I balled up that blue jumpsuit and threw it in the empty laundry cart. The flip-flops that I wore were cheap and were already falling apart, but I placed them on the shelf for some other poor soul to wear. Five minutes later, I was on the other side of the steel doors that kept me trapped for so long.
I said my good-byes to the intake staff, just like I had done so many times before, and then stepped outside into the Georgia heat.
Good Lord, I thought as the humidity attacked my nostrils.
It was hot and humid, but there was something about being on the other side of that fence that made it a little cooler. I looked up at the thirty-feet-high gates that were topped off with razor wire and exhaled. I didn’t hate this place; actually, I had been here so many times that it had almost become a second home.
“Are you gonna stand there staring at this place all day, or do you wanna leave?” Mr. P asked with his hands outstretched.
“I’m coming,” I said, shaking my head as I continued to stare back at the place that housed some of Atlanta’s worst kids. “Thirty-two.”
“Thirty-two?” Mr. P asked.
“I’ve been here thirty-two times,” I said, not believing the number myself. “Thirty-two times. That’s crazy.”
“Well, don’t make it thirty-three. Let’s go,” Mr. P said. “It’s hot out here.”
I looked away from the kiddy jail that raised me and up to the sky. I gave God a wink and turned away. I walked with Mr. P down the long walkway to the parking lot as I thought about some of the past mistakes I made that had landed me in the pokey.
I’m not a bad kid. As a matter of fact, I’m a pretty good one. Every single time that I’ve been arrested, it wasn’t because I got caught doing something stupid, it was calculated. When I was twelve years old, a friend from my neighborhood came home bragging about how well he was fed and how the juvenile center had all of these video games, a pool table, basketball courts, and a big-screen television. To a lot of kids, having those things was the norm, but to me they were luxuries I’d only seen on television. To me, going to juvenile hall was an opportunity to never be hungry. Three hot meals every day was like dying and going to heaven. So whenever I got hungry or cold or just plain tired of living where I was living, I would go steal something from a store and make sure I got caught.
“So,” Mr. P asked me. “What was all that staring about?”
“I just wanna make sure this is the last time I ever see it,” I said.
He nodded his head but didn’t say anything.
“There was a time when I didn’t mind coming here, but it’s time to move on to bigger and better things.”
“I hear ya, but you have to do more than talk, my tattoo-faced friend. Choices, Dee. Life is all about choices. But,” Mr. P said, hunching his shoulders, “you should’ve never been here in the first place.”
“You keep saying that, Mr. P, but I’m guilty as sin,” I said as I walked beside him on the walkway.
“Yeah, but not really,” Mr. P said. “You’re what I would call a victim of circumstance. Doesn’t excuse what you did, but ... whatever. That’s the past. I don’t like to spend too much time dwelling there.”
I stared at the man. He was by far the coolest dude I’d ever met, but I didn’t trust him outside of those walls. What was his angle?
“Thanks for signing me out, but why did you do it?” I asked.
“You’re welcome,” he said, then removed a black-looking thing from his pocket and pointed it at the prettiest truck I had ever seen in my life and pushed a button. The remote control disengaged the alarm on the late-model Range Rover.
“Is that your truck?”
“Yep.”
“Man, I’m riding home in style,” I said with a wide smile. “You’re sure you ain’t flipping those thangs, Mr. P?”
He stopped and stared at me. He didn’t smile, and he didn’t seem angry either, but I knew I had said the wrong thing. His brown eyes squinted as if he was trying to see through my forehead and into my brain.
“I want you to stop associating nice things with selling drugs,” he said. “Okay?”
“The only people I know with nice things sell drugs, Mr. P. But I hear ya,” I said before opening the passenger-side door. I sat down, and even through my jeans the leather seats were scorching hot.
“Put your seat belt on,” Mr. P said as he hit a button, turning the vehicle on and blasting the air conditioner.
I ran my hands along the soft, leather-covered captain’s chairs, then across the smooth wood grain on the dash. I had to get me one of these. This had officially become my dream car.
Mr. P stared at me and smiled.
My antennae went up. What the heck is he smiling at? If this man tries something with me, I am going right back to jail for assault on a freak. “What’s wrong with you?”
“Nothing.”
“Whatchu smiling for?”
“Because I feel like it,” he said. “I can’t smile in my own car?”
“I’m just saying.”
“Saying what?” he asked, still smiling at me.
“What do you do for a living?” I asked.
“I run a nonprofit organization and I come up here and hang out with the likes of you.”
“Driving this,” I said, still looking around the sport utility vehicle in amazement. “Somebody’s making a nice profit somewhere, and I thought you were a volunteer up here. I didn’t know you got paid for that.”
“I don’t get paid, but that doesn’t mean I don’t do this for a living. I like working with you guys.”
“Why?”
“Lord knows I wish I knew,” he said, shaking his head.
I inhaled the cold air into my lungs, still watching Mr. P out of the corner of my eye. Then I felt guilty. This man had never given me any reason to believe he would harm a fly, yet I couldn’t help but be distrustful of people who claimed to do things out of the kindness of their hearts.
“Where am I going?” he asked.
“You taking me home?”
“Where do you think I’m taking you, boy?”
“My bad. I live in the Bluff,” I said. “You ever heard of the Bluff, Mr. P?”
“Yep,” he said as he backed out of the parking lot and drove to the main street. “I’m very familiar with Vine City and the Bluff. I used to work with a few kids who lived over there.”
“Who?”
He called out some names that I didn’t know.
“So you know my hood, huh?”
“Not really. I just know where it is.”
“I don’t believe that. Something tells me you know these streets, Mr. P,” I said, smiling. “You got a lil thugness ’bout cha.”
Mr. P shook his head. “I used to be a street guy. Stealing cars, robbing folks, snatching purses. All kinds of ignorance, but that’s not something to be proud of. As a matter of fact, it’s something to be ashamed of. Being a criminal is stupid. It’s a setup. You never get away and you can attest to that, Mr. I’ve-Been-Locked-Up-Thirty-Two-Times. These dumb rappers got y’all youngsters out here thinking jail is some kind of rite of passage or something, when in reality you’re modern-day slaves.”
“Mr. P, why you so hard on rappers?”
“I’m not hard on rappers. I just call it like I see it. Most of them are worse than the Ku Klux Klan. Sellouts. They get paid to spit ignorance and you buy into it, get locked up, and the folks who own the prisons get paid. The little white and Asian kids who would be competing with you for a job no longer have to worry about you. Why? Because you were more interested in being cool and hanging out than studying. Even if you don’t have a criminal record, you’re not prepared. Thank God that gangster rap is dying out. I don’t even let my son listen to some radio stations.”
“Why? It’s just music.”
“Nope. It’s more than music. It’s poison. Mental poison,” he said.
“Is it really that deep, Mr. P?”
“Why did you put a tattoo on your face?”
“Because I like it,” I said, not really feeling like going into the real reason I used my face as a canvas.
“And that’s your final answer?” he said with a smile. “Because you like it? You’re not in a position to do what you like right now. Lil Wayne can do whatever he wants with his face because he may never need a job. But you, on the other hand, will probably need one, and when you get a job you represent that company. Ever thought about that?”
I shook my head, but I wasn’t trying to hear his preaching about something that wouldn’t apply to me. I wasn’t interested in getting a job. I was going to open up my own tattoo shop.
“Are you hungry?” Mr. P asked me. “I’m starving.”
“I could go for a bite to eat.”
“Whatcha want?”
“McDonald’s will do.”
“Man,” he said, fanning me off. “That stuff isn’t good for ya. You ever had Japanese?”
“Nope,” I said. “I had Chinese.”
“Well, let’s tickle your taste buds a little bit,” he said as his eyes darted to the navigation system. A picture of a telephone popped on and off of the screen. “Just a second, DeMarco.”
He pushed a button and the radio went off. A female voice came through the car’s speakers so clear it seemed like she was sitting in the backseat.
“Hey there,” the woman said. “Where are you?”
“I’m just leaving the center. I have a wonderful young man in the car with me who has a tattoo on his face,” Mr. P said.
“Hello, young man with a tattoo on his face,” she said, and I immediately knew I would like her. There was something about her voice that let me know she was a good person.
“Hello,” I said.
“I’m going to take him to grab a bite to eat, then drop him off at his house,” Mr. P said. “What’s up?”
“Oh. I have a meeting and I was wondering if you could pick Blake up from practice,” she said.
Mr. P glanced over at the clock and nodded. “Yeah. I can. Where are the girls?”
“Arielle is reading some book about vampires and Lyric is watching television.”
“Hannah Montana again?” Mr. P said.
“You know it,” she said.
“A’ight. I will see you shortly. I was going to take DeMarco to Benihana, but they are probably packed with the lunch crowd, and the coach will have a fit if he has to stay late with Blake. We’ll figure something out.”
“Okay,” she said. “Well, he’s welcome to join us for dinner tonight.”
“I’ll see what he has planned,” he said. “Chat with ya shortly. Love ya.”
“I love you too.”
I stared at him and realized that I had never heard a man express his feelings so openly. And I had heard about that Benihana place he mentioned before but never thought I would eat there. I had to admit I was a little disappointed that we weren’t going.
“Was that your wife?”
“Yep,” he said.
“She got you sprung, huh?”
He looked at me and laughed. “I would hope so. Do you like Chick-fil-A?”
“Yeah,” I said, even though I had never been there.
“I owe you a nice lunch, but I have to go and pick up my son from football practice.”
“How old is your son?”
“He’s sixteen, like you.”
“I bet he’s never been to the juvey, huh?”
“Nah,” Mr. P said, shaking his head. “Do you play sports?”
“Yeah, I play basketball and football. I used to play baseball when I was little, but it’s boring so I quit.”
“What positions do you play with football and basketball?”
“Football, I play receiver and safety; basketball, I play point and shooting guard. I got major game, man. What position does your son play—quarterback?”
“No,” he said. “He’s a running back. Tailback to be exact.”
“Private school?”
“Nope.”
“Wow. I would expect you to have the best of everything.”
“He goes to a good school and he likes it, so it’s all good. How tall are you, DeMarco?”
“Six-two, maybe six-three. I’m not sure,” I said. “I like playing ball, but I don’t have dreams of playing in the NBA or nuttin’ like that. I’d rather draw.”
“Is that right,” he said. “What grade are you in?”
“Tenth.”
“What kind of student are you, Dee?”
“I get straight As, Mr. P. I’m no dummy.”
“An honor-roll thug. I’ve seen it all,” he said as he released the steering wheel and threw his hands up.
“Whatever,” I said.
We rode the rest of the way to my house chatting about this and that. We made plans to get together over the weekend. He said he was going to introduce me to his family and take me out to eat for my birthday, and I couldn’t wait. I liked hanging out with Mr. P.
We stopped by the Chick-fil-A and I had one of the best chicken sandwiches I had ever tasted. I ordered the lemonade and it was so good I was upset when I finished. A few minutes later, we were back on the highway headed toward the Bluff. We pulled up to the apartment complex and two of the four buildings that made up our section were boarded up. The crackheads and other street folks had taken over the abandoned building behind ours for all of their unscrupulous activities. The scum of the Bluff, was the name my sister called the crackheads and other substance abusers. At any given time you were liable to hear gunshots followed by screams in either of the condemned buildings. I used to hang out in them all the time, but now I was thinking it was time to stay clear of them.
“This is it,” I said as we pulled directly in front of my apartment. One of the windows in my mother’s bedroom was up, and I could hear my little brother crying his little heart out.
“Somebody sounds like they need a little attention,” Mr. P said.
“That’s my little brother and he’s probably hungry.”
“Well, now that you’re home, maybe you can feed him.”
“Yeah,” I said, not sure how I felt about being back home.
“Now that I know where you are,” he said, “I will come scoop you up this Friday around five.”
“Cool,” I said, reaching over to shake his hand. “Thanks again for signing me out, Mr. P.”
“My pleasure. Just make sure you don’t go back,” he said with an easy smile.
“Fa’sho,” I said as I got out of my dream car and headed back to the nightmare that was my life.