Always

Marla is sitting up in her hospital bed.

Kelly-Anne shakes her hand

hello

and when I see in Marla’s eyes

that she has forgotten me

I shake her hand too

and say,

Did they hard-boil your egg again?

Hard-boil it?

They baked and varnished it.

Probably cos of salmonella.

Kelly-Anne smiles.

They’re just trying to needle me.

I overheard a nurse saying I was tricky.

Anyone would think I was a magician.

Tricky?

They wouldn’t know what to do if

I got difficult.

Is that a baby you have in there

or did you have a big feed for breakfast yourself?

Kelly-Anne doesn’t seem to hear.

She leans back into the chair suddenly and

whistles, her eyes wide.

She breathes hard through clenched teeth.

No, I say. No, not now, please.

Now isn’t that tidy?

If we were in a film you’d roll your eyes.

Marla presses the call bell.

Make sure they give you plenty of drugs.

Don’t be a hero.

Kelly-Anne starts to cry.

I’m so alone, she says.

We all are, I say.

But now we’re alone together.