I stop.
Watch a girl skateboarding down some steps.
I dawdle.
Missing the lights at a crossing.
I examine a notice in the newsagent’s
for a paper delivery person.
I don’t want jobs from Lucy any more.
I walk slowly,
and by the time I am home
Marla is mewling,
crumpled at the bottom of the stairs,
a red blood-pillow beneath her head.