Forever

A man in a chequered football shirt

opens the door. Yeah?

He unashamedly stares at my cheek.

Is Kelly-Anne home?

My shoulders are burning.

I put down my backpack.

Kels? Nah.

I doubt we’ll see her again.

She buggered off, didn’t she?

He lifts junk mail from the mat,

flicks through it,

steps outside

and bungs it into a wheelie bin.

She’s in Aberdeen.

Got a job in sales. Owes me rent.

He picks his ear, stares at his finger

like he might discover something fascinating.

Try her phone. Not that she’ll answer.

I’ll try.

I don’t tell him

she hasn’t replied to my messages recently either,

or that it seems pointless

if she’s in Aberdeen and

I’ve come to Cornwall.

We are a whole country apart.

You all right?

The man examines my backpack.

I better go, I say.

Do you have somewhere to go?

His expression has softened.

A cat is nudging his trainers.

I don’t know.

But not home,

I know that for sure.