Giant Rock Dummy

Lucy buys us both a giant red rock dummy

from a kiosk on the seafront,

unwrapping hers and licking the end of it.

That’s your sugar fix for the month, I say.

Shh, baby, shh.

She laughs,

unwraps mine,

pushes the dummy

all the way into my mouth

so I am completely gagged.

Do you have a boyfriend? Lucy asks.

I shake my head no.

Yeah, I guessed that.

You totally read as a virgin.

I keep the dummy in my mouth

much longer than is necessary.

It stops me saying the wrong thing –

telling Lucy the ways

in which

I can read her too.