Hobnobs

We watch a talk show, the news,

eat Hobnobs and drink tea.

At ten o’clock Marla’s phone beeps.

That’s me, then.

She switches off the TV.

When I was doing my exams

I used a reminder to tell me

to go to sleep too, I say,

speaking more than I have all evening.

Oh, I have reminders for everything.

I mightn’t remember otherwise, she says.

She peers at the phone.

Peggy put them in.

Goodnight then.

Are you going now?

I’m shattered.

Yes, it’s late.

She nods and leaves,

switching off the lights on her way to bed.

Without knowing why,

I tiptoe up the stairs

after Marla,

my ear against her door,

listening,

pushing on another door, where

a bedroom is revealed –

the bed stripped bare,

walls painted avocado.

No one else lives here.

That’s obvious.

So I could have one night.

What harm would one night do?

I dash downstairs

and in the kitchen stare out at the shed.

But instead of leaving,

I lock the doors

and return

to the avocado

bedroom.