I can feel it
like worms into wood.
This sadness is eating my soul.
Breath by breath,
tear by tear,
memory by memory,
day by day.
Barren, unclad,
I wander alone.
A lost shadow of me,
fading to sad.
I can feel it
Like blinds blocking sun.
This hurting is closing my light.
Wish by wish,
sigh by sigh,
heartbeat by heartbeat,
Barren, unclad,
I wander alone.
A lost shadow of me,
fading to sad.
I can feel it
Like flame into flesh.
This betrayal is burning my love.
Regret by regret,
week by week,
lifetime by lifetime.
Barren, unclad,
I wander alone.
A lost shadow of me,
fading to sad.
Awash for a while.
I don’t think of you.
Until the cracks open
And the pain gushes through
Then
Barren, unclad,
I wander alone.
A lost shadow of me,
fading to sad.
Your face, quietly contorting.
Draining and flushing.
Your jaw, firmly set against disclosure.
Your eyes, screaming in blue.
I’m wondering now…
who are you?
How dare you touch my hair,
so openly, so tenderly?
I’m not yours.
How dare you banter
about the anticipatory joy
of kissing my neck?
Who do you screw at night, mister?