I’m Not a Virgin But

I want to appear to You in sandwiches,

water markings on the ceiling,

mold above the toilet,

patterns in woven baskets,

a scatterplot depicting

the correlation between people who lick

their ice cream and people who bite

their ice cream and whether or not they lie

about how many books they’ve read.

I want you to gather strangers around

the image of me because you’ve gotta

make sure it’s me and not a trick

your eyes are playing on You.

And I want the strangers to confirm your vision,

I want them to tell tales about me,

I want endless products in the shape of me

available in delis and on the side of the road,

I want to be the one abuelitas light candles beneath

and I want to be the picture on the candle, stretched out

and replicated, I want to be the one who gets daughters

into colleges with full rides,

brings the GoFundMe page to completion,

gets shoved

into the backpack during the big flood,

gets hanged

from doorknobs in new apartments

as a sign of protection, as a sign that

whoever lives there is loved.

I want everyone to believe in me eventually

but I want it to be You

who finds me, plain as day,

blooming among the flowers,

shining from the hill,

taking shape everywhere I shouldn’t,

obvious and made of light.

Of course he loves her back.

They are pájaritos.

Little lovebirds

vibrating next to

one another in their

cages as the day

turns into the night.

Time passes.

Y el tiempo?

Se pasa y se pasa.

Because of that

she is lucky,

but a part of her

still remains

in the hole.

There are worms

here, now.