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IVY
Four Weeks Later
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ALL I CAN HEAR IS THAT Britney Spears’ song “Oops, I did it again...” going in my head. Yeah, another stick with another positive sign. I sigh. I get another piece of my David, and he gets something else to be mad at me about.
“Girl, you just need to get on birth control next time you go see him or take some condoms. Jeez!” Brian jokes.
“Wouldn’t dream of it. These two pieces of David are going to get me through the next four years.”
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JUNE 21, 2013
David,
I hope you won't hate me, but I found out I’m pregnant again. Yes, again. Our son Adam David is our honeymoon baby born just four months ago, and now coming back just before your wedding, I’m pregnant again.
I have chosen not to tell you because I feel it will make our separation harder, and I’m terrified it may be too hard and drive you to the drugs anyway. That is my greatest fear.
Brian is recording everything, so we will have hours of video for you to watch. I’m really hoping this one is a girl this time.
I love you with all my heart.
Ivy
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JULY 12, 1961
David,
I know yesterday was one of the hardest days of your life. The wedding and the wedding night. I know traditionally I should congratulate you, but I’m sorry I won't.
I hope you will forgive me for putting you through this, and it doesn’t make you resent me or love me any less.
I also have this striking feeling to remind you not to let her mess with my house. I love it the way it is. As you are preparing to head out to California, I hope you still plan to take some of my things with you. Make sure to check the pockets in the red coat of mine in the closet. You’re welcome.
I miss you terribly, baby, but the good news is there are 4 years, 1 month, and 2 days until I see you again. That’s 1,522 days. I know it seems like a lot, but so far, we are 2 months, 51 days down. We can do this, baby.
When you get to California, remember I will be watching every movie. It’s what I fall asleep to every night. Your voice lulls me to sleep.
I love you more than words can say.
Ivy
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JULY 12, 1961
My sweet, sweet Ivy,
You’re right. Yesterday and last night were hell. I had our vows adjusted to say, 'will you take this woman to be your legal wife.’ Nothing more, no till death do you part. She was fuming, but I refuse to disvalue our vows.
Then last night.... I had to get so drunk, and even then, I had to think of you the whole time. Afterward, I locked myself in the bathroom and cried. I showered long after the water got cold, scrubbing every inch and washing with your shampoo and body wash to get your scent back.
I could never love you less or resent you. I hope you will forgive me for last night for being unfaithful.
Oh, and thank you for that pair of underwear in the red coat. It still smells like you. Those little Ziploc bags are amazing.
You are the love of my life, and I can't wait to start our life together.
David
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FEBRUARY 2, 2014
David
Our sweet baby girl was born today. She has your eyes and hair, just like her brother. Clara Cecille is her name after our grandmothers. She loves to cuddle, and I can't seem to put her down.
Confession: I let Adam sleep in bed with me more than I should. Holding a piece of you helps me sleep. I don’t see him or Clara being out of my bed anytime soon.
I pray every day you will forgive me for this secret. I love you so much.
I tell the kids about you daily and play your music and movies for them. They will know you always.
All my love,
Ivy
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APRIL 20TH, 1962
David,
Congrats, Daddy!! The photo of you looking at your son. I’d love to know what you are thinking. The love there, the press ate it up.
Remember to spend time with your son Scott as much as you can. Maybe not the diaper-changing time, but cuddle that baby and love him with all your heart. He will have a rough childhood, and none of this is his fault.
He grows up to be an amazing man and does some great things. You will be so proud of him. Next time you visit, we can look him up and show you.
Also, congratulations are in order for your movie premiere just days before your son was born. I’ve been falling asleep to that movie every night for the last week. I’m guessing Brian is saying, “Woman, pick another movie!” by now while Kevin just laughs at us.
Give that baby a kiss for me. Despite his mom being Anna, he is a piece of you, which means he will always hold a piece of my heart.
Knowing we have hit the year mark, I thought I’d give you a little something to make your nights a little spicier. I hope you enjoy the photos.
3 years, 4 months, and 22 days. 1247 more days.
I love you to the moon and back.
Ivy
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APRIL 20, 1962
My sweet, sweet Ivy,
I know I promised I would never lie to you. I imagined it was you having my baby that whole day. But you are right; I love my son so much.
In those photos, I was thinking about how lucky I am to be blessed with this little boy, and I’m pretty sure at one point I was thanking God it only took one night and one time for it to happen.
I have to say I laughed, thinking of Brian telling you to pick another movie. I can see it clear as day in my mind.
You, my beautiful girl, are an evil, evil woman. I will say I have to buy you new panties because I’ve been using them around my cock when I come thinking of you. But those photos? I haven’t been able to get my cock to go down since I saw them three hours ago.
My favorite is the one with both your fingers in your pussy and leaning up to look at the camera. God, I can't stop looking at it. Oh, be right back. Need to take care of my cock again.
My hand just isn’t the same, baby. I will apologize now because the next time I see you, I plan to be in your pussy for twenty-four hours straight.
All my love,
David
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DECEMBER 10, 2014
David,
Today, I broke. I’m not as strong as I thought I was. Your concert in Atlanta? I was there. I had to see you. God, watching you on stage is mesmerizing.
You are the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen. I know why all the women swoon after you.
You sang our song, and I remembered our time on the piano bench. My panties were soaked, and all I wanted to do was go up to you and drag you off to the closest door. But I knew I had to be strong for us.
I love you.
Ivy
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DEC 17, 1962
David,
Just a quick note. 999 days. We made the triple digits. To celebrate, I have one more photo for you. Remember how much I love you and included in this envelope is another envelope with no date to open it. Save it for when being apart is unbearable, and you don’t think you will make it another day.
Congrats on your new single, and I love you.
Ivy
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DEC 18, 1962
To the evil women who owns my heart,
You are truly evil.
I love you.
I had to cancel work yesterday because I couldn’t get my cock to go down.
Evil woman.
Don’t ever change.
David
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MAY 16, 1963
David,
OH MY GOD!!! Congrats on your first Grammy award last night!!
It was such a huge event. I hope you celebrate some! I want to celebrate with you.
Now tonight, go to bed at 9 pm, lie back in bed, close your eyes, and think about me. Open the attached letter only then.
2 years, 3 months, 26 days. 849 days.
See you at nine, my sexy husband.
Ivy
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MAY 16, 1963
David,
Tonight, we are going to celebrate together. I am already in bed thinking of you wearing the black lace outfit in the photo.
Take your cock in your hand and picture me spreading my legs for you. I’m pulling my panties aside for you to get a view that is only for you. Only you have been in this pussy since the day we met. I’m soaking wet, thinking of you lying in bed stroking your cock.
I’m now rubbing my clit, baby. And don’t you dare come until I tell you and don’t you dare skip ahead.
I’m dripping wet, baby, all for you. Take the cum leaking from your cock and spread it over the tip and give it a few tight strokes.
My other hand is playing with my nipples, and I just plunged two fingers into me and moaned your name. I’m pulling my fingers out, and they are soaking wet. I stroke my clit again and buck my hips.
Keep stroking your cock, baby, just like I would, but don’t you come yet.
My eyes would be staring right at your cock and the leaking cum, and I’d be licking my lips. Dying to taste you. Dying to have you in my mouth.
I’m so close, baby. I want you ready to come with me. I’m plunging my fingers in and out of my pussy, and my hips are bucking as my other hand reaches down to stroke my clit.
Oh god, baby, I’m coming. Come with me, baby.
Congratulations on your big day. I hope I made this award night special for you.
I love you with all that I am,
Ivy
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MAY 16, 1963
My beautiful Ivy,
My god, that was the best way to celebrate. I haven’t come so hard since the last time I was inside you. Just thinking you were there with me doing this for me was hotter than hell.
My sweet, sweet, Ivy, I love you so much. You have no idea how much I needed this, needed you tonight. I was happy to accept the award, but my heart just needed you there. I do all this for you. My sweet, amazing girl, you are my everything. There is nothing I wouldn’t do for you. Even this crazy four-year stint, I do it for you.
849 days until we start our forever.
I love you and you alone, my Ivy girl.
David
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SEPTEMBER 12, 1963
David
Earlier this week, you started your adventure in Hawaii. This movie you are shooting is one of my favorites and not just because of its location.
I want you to enjoy your time there, and for our anniversary, I want you to rent that same house and spend a weekend remembering all the dirty things you did to me there. My favorite was our night in the hot tub.
We are getting so close! We are under two years now. We have done two years before, so this is a cakewalk for us. We got this!
1 Year, 11 months, and 29 days. 730 days.
I love you like a fat man loves chocolate cake.
Ivy
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SEPTEMBER 12, 1963
My sweet, sweet Ivy,
Hawaii is beautiful, but you should be here with me. Thinking of our time here, I figure it’s as good a time as any to tell you none of the rumors to date of the girls I’ve been with are true. I haven’t had a single one of the drugs they are reporting me to have used either.
I did a show in Maryland last weekend, and I stopped in to see your grandparents. I know they have no idea who you are, but I felt I owed it to you to explain.
Your grandfather almost closed the door in my face, but I begged them to let me explain. I told them about the letters from Anna’s family and how you told me to do this while you got everything sorted out.
I don’t think they like me very much, but they are at least speaking to me. We had dinner together. They asked about you and want to see you again. I love hearing the stories they tell that you have probably heard many times over.
I did as you asked, and as soon as Anna got the okay from the doctor, I moved her into her own place, and she has no access to Ivy Hill anymore. Other than visiting with my son, I haven’t seen or heard from her. Last I heard, she was having an affair with her tennis partner. Poor guy.
I miss you every day, and my body craves you every night. My heart beats for you, my sweet Ivy.
I love you.
David.
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NOVEMBER 11, 2015
Today, I went to see you again. You were in Charleston, South Carolina, doing a show. Just seeing you on stage and watching you perform turned me on so desperately.
I think you might have seen me tonight, but I bolted, and you never caught me. I felt horrible, but I needed to be closer. I needed to know you were okay.
I love you, David. Please forgive me.
Ivy
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JANUARY 1, 1964
David
I know the music single you released today is about me. I smile every time I hear it and think of you.
Remember that time we spent together in California on our honeymoon, the night in the bathtub? Think of that tonight because I will be.
My sexy husband, you are only getting better with age. I love you.
1 year, 8 months, 10 days. 619 days.
Happy New Year. We got this baby.
I love you.
Ivy
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JANUARY 1, 1964
Sweet, sweet Ivy,
That song is about you, about us, and my love for you.
I spent yesterday with my son. He’s an amazing kid, and I love him so much. I hope one day we have kids. I’d love to see a little girl just like you running around.
You, my sexy wife, are such a turn-on. I can’t wait to see you again and be inside you again. I love you with everything I am.
David
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JUNE 16, 1964
David,
If you are reading this, it means times are too hard right now. I want you to cancel your plans for the next few days and go back to Ivy Hill. Come home so I can take care of you. I love you. On your plane ride home, I want you to think about that first day we met.
Why did you invite me in to give me a tour of the house? I accepted because I always felt a draw toward Ivy Hill. I was named after it, but it was more than that. I think it was you before I even knew you. I always felt at home when I toured the grounds. Little did I know.
Think about that first night we slept in each other's arms. It finally felt like home.
Think about our first kiss.
Think about the time in the back of your car. That memory still makes me smile and blush.
When you get home to Ivy Hill, go to the guest room across the hall from our room where I was going to stay that first visit. In the bottom right of the tall dresser is a box for you. I left it there on my last visit. Open the letter first.
Remember, David, we can do this. Our love is greater than time and space. I love you enough for both of us right now. I need you, baby. See you soon.
Ivy
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JUNE 18, 1964
Welcome home, baby.
Go lie down in our bed and surround yourself with me. Our wedding photos are there. That was one of the happiest days of my life. Now I want you to open the box and do as I say, okay? First, take out the card with the recipe. If I was there, this is what I’d make you right now. Take it to Nancy and have her start cooking. Tell her I miss her.
Next is my favorite shirt. It’s yours, but I would always wear this when I was missing you the most. Put it on, baby.
Now for the phone. It’s your phone, so plug it in and let it charge.
While it's charging, I want you to look at that photo the day you named Ivy Hill. When I look at this photo, I know we are meant to be together. The bumps along the way suck, I know, but I just know it was meant to be.
Check on the phone, baby. If it is charged enough, turn it on, but keep it plugged in. Go to the photo section. I recorded a few videos for you. The first one is to go with this letter. The others are just me going about my everyday routine but talking to you while I do. I hope this gives you a taste of our future.
I love you. When it gets too hard, watch these videos. It’s what gets me through. I love you, baby. I can't say it enough.
Ivy
