Contents

1. Title Page
2. Glossary
3. Epigraph
4. Dedication
5. Map
6. Prologue
7. Part I
8. 1. No Longer Knowing
9. 2. Death Rhumba Psychosis
10. 3. Won’t Get Out of Here Alive
11. 4. Damaged Neurochemistry
12. 5. Toronto Maple Leafs
13. Part II
14. 6. 1-Mil
15. 7. Life Set to Music
16. 8. So Much He Could Not See
17. 9. Men and Boys
18. 10. The Way He’d Remember It
19. 11. Enemies and Friends Alike
20. 12. Looking Straight into Him
21. 13. Benguela Sky
22. Part III
23. 14. Even Up the Scorecard
24. 15. Mathematics
25. 16. No Illusion Come
26. 17. Survive This
27. 18. The Final Accounting
28. 19. And Quiet Came
29. 20. Easier Than Living
30. 21. All You Can Do
31. 22. Drowning
32. Part IV
33. 23. Straight to the Heart
34. 24. Animals
35. 25. A Part of Who He Was
36. 26. Presumption of Superiority
37. 27. The Vast Improbability of Life
38. 28. This Forgotten History
39. 29. Structure and Function
40. 30. Going To Die Anyway
41. 31. Just Like You
42. 32.
43. 33. A Distant Port
44. Part V
45. 34. Suicide Continent
46. 35. Anything Other Than a Human Being
47. 36. That Periphery of Darkness
48. 37. Heavenward
49. 38. Nothing Here Is Yours
50. 39. You Could Show Me How
51. 40. 117 Days
52. 41. Orders
53. 42. Live Your Life
54. Epilogue
55. Historical Note
56. Acknowledgments
57. About the Author
58. Copyright