Tad Petersen was always being shuttled between his mother's and father's. As his mother would've said, "divorce is a bitch," even though he knew that he wasn't allowed to use the kind of language he heard fly between his folks whenever they ran into each other. It was always, "you do this," or "you never do that," between them, so whenever he could, Tad ducked and covered and tried to be invisible. His mother lived three streets away from his father, and still Tad had to stay three nights with his mother, three with his father, and every other Sunday with one or the other. It was enough to drive him nuts, and being eleven was driving him nuts all by itself.
So whenever he could (or maybe, just maybe it was whenever he dared), he'd hang out in his dad's woodshed, put behind what he'd come to think of as his second home, mainly to stay away from his parents when his mom had just dropped him off and needed to chide his dad about child support or about something from the past that had only just occurred to her; or like now when his dad was ragging on his mom for being an hour late with Tad, or because he had noticed that Tad's grades had slipped a little and whose fault was that?
Tad was sure that if you put his folks in a locked room with a jar of peanut butter, they'd figure out a way to argue about it.
His father's woodshed was really just a converted garage, separate from the house. Tad wasn't really supposed to go into it by himself, because his dad always told him that the machines were dangerous. But Tad was approaching an age in which he felt he was smart enough not to turn on the wrong thing. He knew enough not to fiddle with the jigsaw or lathe. Sometimes, however, he went and got a hammer and some nails and just started pounding them into a scrap of wood to make a design.
He went searching for the jars of nails; there were tons to choose from, but he liked the larger kind. Hammering seemed to eat up a lot of his frustration, and being a particularly frustrated kid, he wanted to do a lot of it.
He got a small jar with several fat, spiky nails, and grabbed a triangular piece of wood from the scrap pile next to the jigsaw.
And then, he thought he heard something.
The light in the woodshed was dim, and outside, the trees of the backyard obscured what little light of day remained.
It was as if someone had coughed and then disappeared.
Remembering what he'd imagined at the cemetery, Tad pulled his windbreaker closer around his collar.
"Dad? Mom?" he asked.
Then, he thought he saw a shape just beyond the woodshed door.
He shivered.
He was sure that someone or something was waiting there, just outside the woodshed.
He dropped the piece of wood he'd just picked up.
He could practically hear his own heartbeat.
"Who's there?" he asked.
He walked close to the shelves, away from the door. He opened the jar of nails and drew one out. He held it up in his fist, point turned towards the door.
"Who's there?" he asked again.
His dad came through the doorway. "Tad? I thought you weren't coming in here again without permission."
Tad caught his breath, and lowered the spike. "Dad, you scared the bejesus outta me. Is Mom still around?"
His father shook his head. "She left half an hour ago. I was wondering where you ran off to. And so, I find you in the one place where you shouldn't be."
"Oh." Tad grinned, knowing he would now have to charm his father out of his sour mood. "There's lotsa places where I shouldn't be. This is the one place where I should be. Maybe I'm just like you, Dad, and will be a world-class carpenter when I grow up. When are you ever gonna show me how to use the jigsaw?"
"In a year or two. Don't change the subject. This is not a place where you should be playing."
Tad cast his glance to his shoes. "I know, I know. It's just that when you and Mom start in, I want to be as far away as possible."
His father sighed. "Well, as long as you watch out for stuff. And we don't mean to start in."
"I know," Tad said. "It just happens."
"Sometimes," his father said, a sheepish look on his face. "Sorry about that, Taddo. Hey, you've got mud on your windbreaker."
And right then Tad wished that his parents had never gotten divorced, that they'd learn to get along for a while just so he wouldn't have to feel as if he were the Dad sometimes and that his mother and father were the kids.
He wished he could go back in time so that they were all living together in the house again, because even with the arguments and stony cold moods, he felt safer and warmer when both of his parents were there all the time—
And if he got his wish, and went back in time, he would force them to love each other the way a mom and dad were supposed to. He would make sure it was a happy family where everyone got along and no one fought, and if that happened... if that happened...
Tad Petersen would probably go even more nuts, because he knew it wouldn't be his parents with him, but some robots or body-snatcher people. The thing he knew best about his mother and father was that they loved to disagree. "Dad?"
"Yep?"
"If you love Mom, and she says she loves you, why can't you both work things out?"
"It's not that simple," his father said, and pretended to be distracted with some out-of-sequence tools; he arranged some screwdrivers and hammers on one of the mid-level shelves. "Sometimes it takes more than loving someone to be able to have a marriage."
"It sounds simple to me. It's like being in school with kids I don't know or like much. I just decide that I'm going to get along with them, and then, if I try hard, it works out."
"Marriage isn't like that."
"Yeah," Tad huffed, "marriage should be easier, 'cause at one time you liked each other."
"We still like each other. It's more complicated than you can imagine."
Tad shut up. He knew when to shut up, because talking to his dad about these things was like talking to a wall. He watched his father fumble, trying to reach for the upper shelves where the drills hung. "Here, Dad," he said, "I can get it." He went over and stood, with one foot balanced on the second shelf up. He reached for the smallest of three Black & Decker drills, and grasped it. He passed it to his father, who suddenly, to Tad, looked small and weak and completely helpless.
When it was closer to suppertime, Tad went inside to wash up. His dad's version of supper tended towards the pizza delivery route, or the Quickie Burgers over on Main Street. Tad preferred those to his mother's almost exclusively vegetarian household. As he soaped his hands, in preparation for the soon-to-be-delivered pizza, he practically drooled, thinking of all that pepperoni and sausage slathered across the thick cheese.
And then, he felt the hairs on the back of his neck stand up.
The feeling seemed to freeze him; someone was watching him from the window.
It was a stupid fear, and he knew it; he already had too many fears. Besides the Bonchance brothers, there was his fear of the dark, and his fear of getting bad grades, and his fear that he would never grow up and get married and be happy. Sometimes, Tad thought he could pick a fear for any moment of the day.
Even though he knew better, he told himself not to look out the bathroom window. Whatever's there will go away. Or maybe nothing's there. Maybe it's some leftover goblin from Halloween.
Finally, he couldn't resist. He glanced at the bathroom window.
Just the bare trees outside, and the house behind them.
Tad, wiping his hands on a towel, walked over to the window. He looked out at the shadows.
He thought he saw something over at the Feely farm, just four houses behind where he was.
The field and orchard were dark, but there was an eerie light on at the house, and for just a second, Tad thought he saw a face in the light—
But how can I? It's so far away.
When he was younger, he had believed that he'd seen a witch fly across the moon at Halloween. But he'd been a baby then, maybe four or five.
The face was like a jack-o'-lantern, its feral eyes and grin outlined in the light of what seemed an enormous red flame behind the glass of the window.
How could it be? It was so far away, why did it seem so close?
"I'm not a baby anymore," he said aloud, and moved away from the window, refusing to believe that there could be anything to see beyond the shadows and the trees and the normal lights of houses.
Downstairs, in front of the television (watching the video of Jurassic Park, which they'd both seen at least six times), in between pizza chomps, he asked his father, "Do you believe in ghosts and goblins, Dad?"
"That's a weird question. How's the 'za?"
"The 'za is excellent. You didn't answer my question."
"Oh. The goblin question. Well, I don't believe in them."
Tad thought about this a minute and then said, "Just because you don't believe in something, does that mean it isn't there?"
His father looked across the sofa at him, but said nothing.
On the TV screen, a Tyrannosaurus Rex was chasing a man down.
Tad said, "There're things I don't believe in, but I have a weird feeling that they believe in me, and that's the scary part."
The action in the movie didn't seem half as terrifying to Tad as the memory of that strange face in the window of the old Feely farmhouse.
Tad wanted to ask his father if he knew about Billy Hoskins. There was a kids' network, an informal grapevine, no less powerful than television news, through which dirty jokes from ages past were filtered (about men named Bowels No Move and girls named Sue Pee), and songs about Comet which had never been on television in Tad's lifetime were sung, and the ancient ritual dance of bullies and wimps was observed. Local news, too, made it from grades one to seven, the mythology about the white trash family out in the shanty, which drank their own spit from a Maxwell House coffee can, about the rich old widow who drank the blood of children, and now, about what the other kids were already saying about Billy, only a few hours after he'd disappeared: about how something leftover from Halloween got Billy and ate him up just like candy corn.