Drag Up

dedicated to the white people who were asked to raise their hands if they would choose to be black

Every month she buys magazines of haute couture,

takes them home to Washington Heights,

and clips out models. It is not their color,

my 22-year-old girlfriend contests, it’s how well

their bodies display clothes. A point, she makes it

to tell me about this white woman’s nose, she likes

this white woman’s lips, another’s eyes, white

cheekbones she saves in piles on the floor, in files

on the bookshelf, these faces, from their bodies,

snapshot and stored beneath her bed.

A trunk, she pulls out, of three hundred Barbie dolls.

Takes the lid off a collection, white and naked, jostles

like sugar cane cut foot-long, stretched out side by side,

each head at the feet of her neighbor, face up, smiling.

All these plastic bodies have names: Sarah, Cora, Theresa,

Jane. . . . To my face, she puts two, close, pale and thin,

smells like condensed milk—The hairline, she says,

is what makes them really distinct.

She tells me how they came into her possession.

In plastic containers she places their accessories,

of the time when she saw them on the shelf.

She explains how she makes their outfits. She always

buys another when she passes a toy store—

between breasts and thighs her fingers go.

Wipes their lips, a new color she branded, the browner

version of eyebrows to their forehead. She arranges

her dolls back in rows, piles on Barbie piles, no space is wasted.

Twist-ties their wrists and legs, so when she puts on the cover,

they won’t kick and their hands won’t raise.