Nestled in the comfort of the leather recliner chair in my small upstairs office, I took a few moments to settle my new client, Jennifer, by talking about how I worked, and the sort of things she might experience during our session.
‘Before we begin, I just want to explain that the information I receive will come in many ways. I see visually, which we might call ‘second sight.’ I hear information telepathically and receive messages directly from the ‘knowing field.’ I might be given information from those in spirit. I can intuitively locate unexpressed emotional debris from past trauma held in your body, and then tune into the information and story it represents. The information may come as a knowing or an experience of a previous event. My awareness can move to other space-time locations we might refer to as past lives, currently impacting your present life. I can also work with you energetically, but I don’t have to touch you. It’s all about assisting your empowerment, your liberation from whatever is holding you back. Basically, it’s the whole shebang that I get. Is that okay?’ I asked, adjusting the cushion at the back of my chair.
Jennifer’s face lit up with a radiant smile. ‘That’s great!’
‘You could say I’m very forensic in my approach, kind of like Sherlock Holmes, detecting what needs to be understood and released here,’ I continued, laughing a little and feeling the joy of being able to awaken and inspire others. I then added: ‘The information comes in very quickly. If I hesitate, it can start to back up like traffic on the LA 405 freeway, so I will go right ahead and begin.’
Already I was noticing a powerful build-up of energy. ‘Okay. The first thing I’m noticing is that there’s quite a lot of stuck energy, emotional debris in your legs, especially in your upper thighs, your hips and up under your waist. There is deep sadness stored there, a feeling of being unloved. It’s a belief that you feel inadequate in some way. It’s also indicating you have been restricted in your creative expression during your life; in doing what you truly want to do. These two themes often tend to tie in.
‘You have patterns of giving too much to others, after not getting your emotional needs met as a child. You’ve come to see yourself as less important. Your soul history indicates the same theme there in other lifetimes, so this is an old pattern for you. This pattern is active in your life right now, and this is why it’s time to finally place yourself and your own needs first.
‘I’m being drawn to your head. I’m seeing you have a tendency to rework things in your mind, keeping things to yourself, instead of letting them go or sharing them with others. You believe other people’s ideas, thoughts or desires are more important than yours. These old beliefs keep you stuck. They’re unproductive. You also tend to worry about the past and the future, so you miss out on this moment, where we are most powerful. Does this resonate so far?’
Jennifer’s eyes flashed wide as she quickly replied: ‘You’re absolutely correct.’ All I had been told prior to the session was that Jennifer was unsure how to move her life forward, and was seeking clarity in her personal and professional life.
‘It’s really important in this time of great change for you to take care of yourself and make time for your own needs. You have a tendency to attend to your own needs last, and that’s because you got the message as a child that you were not worthy. It’s time for things to grow and blossom for you. Your inner self needs to be shown she is worthy of love and attention.
‘I’m seeing your little inner-child self as a small baby, and you really need to nurture her now. She is wrapped in pink. The colour feels warm and safe and nurturing to her, and I see that your new default pattern to cultivate is to be aware of her and her needs going forward, and to make them a priority. I see you saying to another person: “Yes, I hear what you need, and yet I can’t be there right now, but I will see you tomorrow and we can discuss it then,” rather than overlooking your baby self and attending to the needs of others. You are a great friend to many people. You give yourself to others too readily. Now is the opportunity to reflect and review how much you have placed others’ needs before your own and, in doing so, limited the choices you’ve made for yourself. This life you have is actually for you. You are worthy to live it. Does this make sense?’
‘Yes, it does!’ Jennifer replied with conviction.
‘You know, it’s like this: it’s as if our spirit guides are sitting in the front row of the theatre, watching us make limiting choices and take self-sabotaging actions in our lives. When we repeat and repeat these same behaviours that are so dishonouring of ourselves, it must be really amazing for them to watch,’ I said smiling, moving the session into a more aware, awake perspective. ‘It’s like I see them sitting there watching this story of our unconscious patterns of behaviour, where we get stuck just repeating the same thing. Our spirit guides must be wondering how long it’s going to be till the movie changes, till we actually wake up and realise that this life is so incredibly precious, and we are so incredibly important! It’s like: hello universe! I’m finally listening!’ I shared, inviting Jennifer to join in the laughter with me.
‘We all do this, Jennifer, which is why we really need to get this stuff sorted; wake up from the limiting programming, where we’re almost asleep at the wheel. Then we can become the glorious versions of ourselves that we have the potential to be!’
With some lightness and fun to further encourage Jennifer’s growth in awareness, the session continued.
‘Okay. So I’m sensing what it was like for you at the age of eight ... between seven and eight, but closer to turning eight. I sense a great loss, a significant change. Your life situation seemed to worsen. Your needs were met even less. I’m being shown this really impacted on you, because that was when you really cemented the belief that you were not enough, that your own needs were not important. Does this make sense?’
‘Oh sure,’ Jennifer affirmed. ‘My parents separated when I was about seven and a half, so I remember how different my eighth birthday was. My father left the state to take another job. We didn’t get to see him much after that. My mother had to go back to work, so things were really different from that point onwards,’ Jennifer shared, with real sadness.
It was then I became aware that we were not alone. Sitting just behind me to my left I could clearly see and sense John, eagerly listening in. Continuing the consultation, information flowed through me as usual. Jennifer continued to listen and verify my insights with enthusiasm.
Suddenly, unexpectedly, I began to hear John commenting on what he could see, eager to share his insights with me. However in doing so, he was inadvertently drawing my energy and focus away from Jennifer, as I listened to him telepathically. I tried to listen to him, but my client was talking at the same time, so I couldn’t concentrate. I was worried that I would be distracted. After a while, I sensed he realised how challenging this was for me, and he suddenly stopped sharing his insights.
As the session continued, I was shown further into significant situations in Jennifer’s childhood and teenage years, and more detail of limiting past life patterns. As always, this older and deeper level of information provided Jennifer with deep insight and guidance into the hidden resistance that was holding her back from moving more fully into her own personal power and life potential.
‘As we’ve highlighted your underlying psycho-spiritual story, the shift at the cellular level of your being is already starting to take place,’ I commented. It was essential I was able to reach Jennifer at a cellular level, as this is where toxic attitudes and patterns embed themselves, disempowering us, potentially creating illness. ‘We are going to move in now to use energy and direct telepathic connection, to create an immediate cellular response. This means we’re basically going to reprogram your cellular consciousness,’ I continued. ‘This will help you disconnect from the old patterns in this life and other lives, which have caused you to miss out on all the opportunities available to you. These old patterns are why you choose not to stand out and express your own beliefs and ideas, living instead in the shadow of others.’
‘It’s true,’ Jennifer replied reflectively. ‘Let’s just get in there and change it.’
Jennifer closed her eyes and took a deep breath. It was then I felt an immediate mind and energy connection to her. I raised my right hand up from the chair and the energy transmission began. A warm, powerful flow of energy streamed through my hand towards her, as I merged with her cellular consciousness at a quantum level, to clear her old limiting script.
Jennifer was a psychiatric nurse seeking a more fulfilling way of working and living, and a better understanding of her life ahead. She had been working with a team of psychiatrists in the mental health field in California, but she now desired a more holistic and soulful way of assisting others to grow and heal. The fact that John, as a psychiatric specialist himself, chose to witness this particular session with Jennifer was a very interesting point of synchronicity.
Without forewarning, I suddenly experienced a strong deep pain in the upper part of my right arm. Announcing to Jennifer that I needed to pause for a moment, I simply explained that some information was being given to me from someone who was observing our interaction from the spirit world. I sat and waited in silence, gently rubbing my right arm, which was now significantly painful.
The information flowed into my mind as clear knowing: ‘I’m being told the setting where you work is stifling for you, as the insights and broader understanding you often have about various clients differs greatly from those held by the psychiatrists you work with.’
‘Yes, that’s absolutely right,’ Jennifer replied.
‘I am being told that you need to understand that psychiatry as it stands is limited, and is headed for huge change. You are also headed for a time of transition from the way you work, and you are being guided now to trust your intuition and higher understanding, and not be intimidated by the limited views of those you work with. You will eventually move from where you are and work in a very different way. Does this make sense to you?’
Jennifer responded with great enthusiasm, confirming she had indeed found it very frustrating that traditional psychiatry seemed so limited. She had also been considering moving from the mainstream practice where she worked to another more holistic group further south, with a more integrative approach which she resonated with.
I felt such deep joy at having John assist me in this way. I knew John wanted to encourage Jennifer, as he did so many worldwide. He was way-showing her how to be a part of the new emerging vision for mental health, with a deeper understanding of the full spectrum of human experience.
John was a visionary scholar dedicated to social change and transformation through the expansion of consciousness. Now on the other side of the veil, he was still actively championing the existence of alternative realities beyond the blinkered beliefs still held by so many.
Finishing the session, I hugged Jennifer goodbye. Locking the office door behind me, I made my way down the narrow winding staircase from the cosy third-floor office I shared with a local child psychologist. Along the landing, I walked past the open office of well-known energy medicine expert and author, Donna Eden. Once out of the building, I slowly walked home, comforted by the surrounding trees on East Main Street.
Before long, my legs began to feel leaden. John had already left. I missed him so much. Rounding the corner, I looked across the road to the town cemetery, a sombre reminder of John’s passing.