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Shortly after New Year’s Day 1952, Nadine wrote to Brammer: “On January 25, our fetus will be 3-1/2 inches long with head, hands, feet, legs, and a mouth that opens. Also, sex will be differentiated, but no bones yet. I am learning, papa, and will inform you when I see you.” Then she asked again what they would do about money.

He deflected the money question by telling her he had found an affordable house for them to rent, and if they wanted to buy it eventually, it would cost $8,500, no down payment. The house was near a railroad track. It had a “dirty solid pink” carpet whose “look” nevertheless was “very good,” he wrote. The best part was that it had plenty of space for a small family. “You are a genius for finding it,” Nadine wrote to him. “Tell me about it. . . . You’re no good when you don’t give details. But you’re a good husband. I love you.” They decided to buy.

Seven months later, on August 11 in Austin, their baby girl, Sidney, was born. She was an unusually pretty infant, said Robert Benton, fair skinned and delicate, and Brammer, he said, was besotted with her.

Within weeks, however, Nadine had fled back to her mother in McAllen, taking the baby. Ostensibly, the separation was for a short time only, occasioned by scheduling difficulties and Nadine’s need for her mother’s help while Brammer balanced classes with press assignments. In reality, she was unhappy with staying home while Brammer worked and studied during the day and went out with friends in the evenings. She no longer felt sick in the mornings, but she was terribly isolated. It upset her that she couldn’t return to school—they couldn’t afford day care or babysitters. Brammer’s spending habits hadn’t changed, and his salary from the newspaper remained a meager fifty-six dollars a week.

Nadine’s letters to him during this period were chilly and short, written on printed stationery featuring her mother’s name, Nadine Cannon (her own name before she married). One weekend, after Brammer had driven down to visit her, she wrote to him: “Thought of you around 1 a.m. when I was feeding Sidney. Presume you didn’t have a bloody wreck on the way home. Am staying in bed today . . . there’s nothing else to say. You forgot your dirty shorts. I miss you, but think it will do you good to have a vacation from my bitchery. Go to Dallas and go swimming and play for two hours—please. You need it.”

Alone in Austin, he was miserable, staying up nights, swallowing pills, doing homework, and typing out his sports assignments. He had to have two molars pulled; his mouth ached, and he struggled to pay the dental bill. Desperate to prove to Nadine that he could provide for her and the child, he resurrected his air force idea: “Pay begins at $335 per month plus about $150 more for you and Syd [sic], plus $100 more during a 10 weeks flight training deal. That’s a lot of money. Thought I’d look into it. What do you think?” His initiative pleased Nadine. Her letters to him warmed: “Am having little sex dreams of you, so guess it’s nearing the time when we can enjoy each other’s body—oh good thought!” “Am generating energy to come back to you and feed you sexually and physically. Hope you are still healthy enough to eat.”

This time, to aid the success of his application, he wrote to his state representative, Homer Thornberry, as well as to the senator who had won a piece of his heart. He sent a direct appeal to Lyndon Johnson’s Washington office, requesting expedited consideration for a position in the air force. “My dear friend,” said the reply, “I am glad to know of your interest in active military service . . . and it will be a pleasure for me to get in touch with the authorities here and get some information as to chances for your call to active duty in the near future.”

Almost immediately, a major general informed Thornberry there were no “present requirements for additional officers.” A few days later, Brammer received a brief letter of regret from Johnson’s office: “My dear friend . . . I want you to know I was very glad to inquire into this matter for you and if at some future date I can be of any assistance to you in any way, just let me know.”

Nadine remained in McAllen. Brammer worked twice as hard as before, hustling newspaper assignments. He convinced his editors that he could cover politics as well as sports. He trolled for legislative gossip at the Forty Acres Club or on the top floor of the Headliners Club, where lobbyists gathered to drink. He attended meetings of the state’s Agriculture Commission. “Have been staying out till about three each morning with [friends] bitching about the election,” he wrote Nadine. “Heard Adlai speak last night and he is better than any radio comedian—Heard Ike talk today to a bunch of farmers, and he sounded like a high school football player trying to make the debate squad. He wasn’t interrupted by applause, either.”

On the weekends, stimulated by Benzedrine, Brammer drank late at Scholz’s or watched James Mason movies with Benton at the Varsity Theatre on Guadalupe or headed out the Old Dallas Highway to Threadgill’s. Threadgill had been a steadfast supporter of Hank Williams. He booked Williams frequently, despite the singer’s increasing reputation as an undependable drunk. Williams played his last full show in Austin, at the Skyline Club, on December 19, 1952—though rumors spread among Brammer’s press corps pals that the poor sod had been whisked to Brackenridge Hospital following his performance while his baby-blue Cadillac remained parked at the club. It was also rumored that a Dallas bar owner, Jack Ruby, whom Williams had been avoiding because of Ruby’s reported mob connections, had finally managed to book the singer a few months prior to his Austin appearance. When Williams passed out cold in the dressing room, Ruby charged customers to see him laid out on the floor. Years later, the singer-songwriter Doug Sahm would tell Brammer he had been present at Williams’s Skyline show. He was eleven years old at the time, learning to play a little steel guitar; Williams sat the boy on his bony knee, his breath smelling powerfully of whiskey, and told him to keep practicing. He did, and eventually Brammer was one of Sahm’s biggest supporters.

In the early 1950s, Brammer became deeply fascinated by the road life of popular musicians—reminded of the peripatetic lives of his father’s lineman buddies. Hard as it would be to move from place to place each day, the freedom from domestic responsibilities appealed to him, and it would be comforting to always have your next paying gig lined up. As he had predicted as a boy, his father’s electrical wizardry had helped shape the future: Austin’s energy now “wound through its nightclubs,” said the writer Barry Shank, “linking power amps and speakers, transistors and tubes into a clashing counterpoint of discordant tonalities played together.”

For the next year, Nadine shuttled back and forth, carrying Sidney, from Austin to McAllen. Whenever she spent an extended period with her mother, Brammer drove to see her on weekends. In the meantime, he tried to make the house he had bought merrier: “I’ve got sort of a study fixed up in the spare bedroom with the extra bed, typewriter, table, desk and lamp,” he wrote. “It is very nice, and the record schism resounds all over the house. Carpets feel good on my athlete’s footus.” He lamented the chill in his lonely bed and signed his letters “John the Baptist” or “Copulation.”

He remained in debt after frequent dental work and clothing sprees at Reynolds-Penland or Scarborough’s over in the “hip” part of town, at Congress and Sixth. To try to compensate, he asked his editors for more and more assignments, taking more and more pills each night as he tried to meet his deadlines. At the end of 1952, he won a Statesman press award for “excellence in writing.” Just over a year later, the Texas Associated Press singled out the Austin American-Statesman for distinguished reporting, citing Brammer’s work on the Agriculture Commission as well as a feature on the “exuberant happiness and newfound confidence of the [Texas] Longhorn football team” after an upset victory over an archrival. The feature was notable for the same clear gaze that had animated “Fight Team!” It focused less on game facts than on individual athletes and the relationships among them in the locker room. “He told the story in his usual unusual style, which has become the delight of thousands of American-Statesman readers,” said the newspaper in announcing the awards.

In fact, the story was mostly fiction. It revealed Brammer’s now-accurate ear for speech. One of his colleagues, Anita Howard Wukasch, said to him, “Bill, you weren’t even there. How did you know what the boys were saying [in the locker room]?” “They always say the same thing,” he answered. “Nobody has accused me of misquoting.”

He was becoming increasingly restless writing about sports. Just a stone’s throw from his university classes, on Guadalupe Street, known as the Drag, he witnessed remarkable social changes that most reporters were ignoring. A man named Block Smith managed the YMCA on the Drag. Frequently, in the Y’s meeting rooms, he hosted interracial student gatherings, infuriating the university’s conservative board of regents. He urged members of the journalism faculty to denounce the university’s racist policies—from him, some students first heard the word “racism” and inquired about its meaning. Few of the young people knew of Heman Sweatt, an African American man who had sued to be admitted into the UT Law School. The stress of the drawn-out legal process, which reached the US Supreme Court, and the hostility that greeted him on campus caused him to withdraw from school in 1952. Ever since, the university had used his example to argue against fully integrating. When the journalism faculty remained silent about this, Smith muttered, “I’m gonna give you a liver pill so you’ll stand up for something.”

In the spring of 1954, an organization called the Sons of the Republic, led by the Houston oilman Hugh Roy Cullen (a major benefactor of the University of Houston), invited Senator Joe McCarthy to speak on anticommunism at the San Jacinto Monument, the site of Texas independence. Cullen had called McCarthy the “greatest man in America”; he had been the single largest donor to McCarthy’s 1952 reelection campaign. A few years earlier, Cullen had stood at the monument and wondered aloud “if our grandfathers wouldn’t decide it was time for another Texas Declaration of Independence,” severing the state from America’s godless ways. In Austin, Block Smith led a campus demonstration against the “appalling travesty” of McCarthy’s visit, but the protest garnered scant press coverage—certainly, it received far less attention than the state legislature’s vote in praise of the Wisconsin senator.

In May, the United States Supreme Court ruled unanimously in favor of school desegregation in the case Brown v. Board of Education. Hugh Roy Cullen said the court had just “done more to destroy individual freedom than any government action since the founding of this nation.” The UT campus newspaper, the Daily Texan, hailed the decision, writing, “Negro children . . . will be unacknowledged martyrs for the future equality of their race”; Block Smith organized demonstrations against movie theaters along the Drag to persuade them to open their doors to members of all races; Governor Allan Shivers declared desegregation would be the law in Texas only over his dead body—it was clear that a tumultuous summer lay ahead.

The Brammers’ summer ended in tumult and joy when Nadine gave birth to their second baby girl, Shelby—equally as gorgeous as her big sister and just as beloved by her father, Robert Benton said. Nadine recovered from her pregnancy, taking the girls to Deep Eddy Pool near Lake Austin to cool off and play-swim most afternoons. She urged Brammer to find a better-paying job. He enraged her one day when he traded in the couple’s Nash Rambler for a new Plymouth station wagon. He didn’t consult her. “I loved that Nash convertible,” Nadine said. “I had a little back seat for Sidney. He said we’d have more room for the girls’ playpen now, but really, he just thought it would be more comfortable to take long trips in.”

Tired of feeling trapped at home, she decided to bring her babies with her whenever she wanted to enjoy a fine evening out. Sidney and Shelby turned white as little ghosts after crawling through the thick caliche under the wooden tables in the beer garden. Other young mothers brought their kids to play beneath the strings of colored lights in the elms. “[Our] children claim they were raised [at Scholz’s], which is a slight exaggeration,” said Dave Richards. “They did, indeed, spend many a Friday romping around the garden.”

“We [became] . . . the Texas equivalent of Jack Kerouac’s Beat Generation,” Nadine reminisced in her memoir. “We were in love with romance, decadence, politics, and literature. We read competitively . . . [so as] to be witty and sparkling in the most esoteric way.” She wanted to be “elusive, quixotic, irresistible to men,” Hemingway’s Lady Brett. But when her writer-husband pressed her with questions—the better to understand the female point of view, he explained—she felt his “intrusive” interest “verged on voyeurism.” He would “set me up in conversations so he could watch me interact with various attractive male friends,” she said. “If I met someone at a party and engaged them in conversation, he would quiz me on it when we got home. In current psychological terms, he didn’t respect my boundaries.”

Whenever the flirting in the garden got too serious, “we lied to ourselves and to each other . . . rationalizing it later with intellectual verbiage,” Nadine said. “We couched it in clever repartee and witty put-downs, served with plenty of alcohol.”

At a certain point, she recognized that her husband had become “uncomfortable” with the “fun and games.” “He saw me enjoying myself, taking care of the girls, swimming every day, and partying on the weekends, and he felt the pressure to bring in more money to stay on par with some of our friends, who were either from wealthy families or were making more money in their jobs.”

As ever at Scholz’s, political outrage salted the sexual tensions. Everyone derided the cowardly legislators who had ducked the vote praising Joe McCarthy; they couldn’t in good conscience support the brute, but not wanting to alienate their constituents, they made themselves scarce by hiding in the men’s room. Maury Maverick Sr., a fiery former congressman from San Antonio (the term “political maverick” came from him), labeled them “shit-house liberals.” He included his son, Maury Maverick Jr. Given the demagoguery emanating from the governor’s office in advance of the 1954 elections, the Scholz liberals knew they had to back bold candidates if they were to have any hope of moving the Democratic Party to the left. Once again they rallied around Ralph Yarborough as he challenged Allan Shivers for the governorship. Yarborough managed to force Shivers into a runoff, at which point the campaigns’ dirty tricks exceeded the usual tactics of jamming the opposition’s phone lines and towing cars away from polling places. Shivers’s supporters sent a well-dressed black man, wearing an expensive gold watch and driving a Cadillac plastered with Yarborough bumper stickers, into East Texas. He would stop at filling stations and yell at the white attendants that he needed a dollar’s worth of gas right away. They had damn well better hurry because he was “working for Mr. Yarborough.” By swearing that Texas would never integrate its schools, by equating desegregation with godless communism, Shivers won the race.

A still-fledgling political reporter, Brammer was learning the media’s dirty tricks in an age of rapidly changing technology. While covering storms, mobile units would beat on the sides of their vans with two-by-fours to fake the sound of windblown detritus. It became standard practice for print reporters to pull the plugs of TV cameramen at news conferences so that the papers could get the story first. Many smug newspapermen felt television had no future in the information business, but Brammer knew differently. He had long understood the power of those big black cords. As always, he kept a keen eye on developments in all fields. For example, “He underwent a vasectomy after I was born,” Shelby Brammer told me. “I . . . find it amazing that he managed to [do that] in the mid-1950s (always on the cutting edge of technology).”

Did any of these new techniques, like his impulsive purchases, really solve his problems? He knew his reporter’s salary didn’t provide enough support for his family. Silently watching the “fun and games” at Scholz’s each night, “he must have felt under a lot of pressure in the marriage . . . not to have another pregnancy,” Shelby said. But of course “he couldn’t stop Nadine from her exploits . . . and people do what they want to do regardless.”

Nadine wanted to work. She wanted to stay with her family in McAllen. She wanted to be a responsible mother. She wanted to spend evenings at Scholz’s. She did all these things in tandem, or tried to, over the next few months, and she tried to wrest control of the money. She placed her husband on an allowance. “I need some clarification. You have me depositing money every Thursday. Does that mean that I can’t start spending my spending money (this week $8) until Thursday?” he wrote to her at one point. “I don’t need it now, but it might be a long time between this Thursday and next. How now?”

In Austin, Nadine worked for the editor of the Austin American-Statesman, clipping articles for him from Texas newspapers. During her extended stays in McAllen, she wrote only short notes to her husband, while his lengthy letters to her grew more mournful: “I am missing you tonight with tingling scrotum; also our children . . . Television is no good when you can concentrate on it instead of changing diapers . . . My teeth hurt every night . . . [found] a dentist who extracts on the installment plan: easy pull, easy pay.” He asked her to hug his kids for him.

And then “Bill walked into my life unbidden,” said Ronnie Dugger. “I was too isolated to ask anyone for help and too young to know I needed it.”

Dugger had just begun the thankless, some said foolhardy, task of editing a small liberal newspaper in the heart of Texas, from a tiny office on West 24th Street, just off the Drag. He had honed his skills, a few years before, as the editor of the Daily Texan—after spending time with Edward Murrow’s news team as a student in London and working briefly as a reporter for Lady Bird’s radio station in Austin. At the Texan, he wrote in favor of civil rights, proposed national health care, called for drunk drivers to be jailed, urged boycotts of barbers near campus who had raised the price of a haircut from eighty-five cents to a dollar, railed against the university for failing to provide students with enough pencil sharpeners or with hot rolls in the cafeterias. His critiques of Lyndon Johnson’s lackluster legislative record caught the senator’s eye in Washington. The Daily Texan was just a student newspaper, but it rankled Johnson that this boy would go after him. He didn’t know the meaning of compromise, Johnson grumbled. He was a “kamikaze liberal,” a “red hot.” The senator told one of his staffers, “If you investigate that boy’s bloodline, you’ll find a dwarf in there somewhere.”

Dugger sat next to Heman Sweatt in the first law class Sweatt attended after winning his discrimination suit against the university. He witnessed the man’s bravery and travails. He grieved when Sweatt left school. And then, after the liberals’ statewide losses in the 1954 elections, he felt “ashamed of my culture, my countrymen,” he said. Allan Shivers had been reelected on a platform of racism, and a right-wing Republican named Bruce Alger had been elected in Dallas to the state’s congressional delegation. The Left had lost further ground—not to slick political operatives, but to “platoons of energetic women effectively carr[ying] out a grass-roots campaign, backed by telephone squads and canvassing teams,” according to reporters. Dugger considered retreating to a coastal town in Mexico, going to work on a shrimp boat, and writing a novel about migrant laborers.

Meanwhile, the 1954 losses galvanized others—specifically, Frankie Randolph, an heiress to the Kirby lumber fortune in East Texas, wife of a prominent Houston banker, and one of the founders of Houston’s Junior League. She had been a strong New Deal supporter and a major financial bulwark of Adlai Stevenson’s 1952 presidential campaign. One of her friends believed “Frankie . . . was to Texas what Eleanor Roosevelt was to the United States . . . Her wealth gave her an easy familiarity with men of power, but she cared about working people, the union movement, racial equality, social justice, and peace . . . Earthy, blunt, and honest, she had more independent political power than any woman in Texas history.” After the electoral debacle, she agreed to finance and serve as publisher of the Texas Observer, a successor to two earlier but erratic liberal publications, the State Observer and the East Texas Democrat. These ventures had lost a lot of money; a group huddling in Austin’s Driskill Hotel in the fall of 1954 to plot the liberals’ future strategies feared that by backing the Observer, Randolph would waste precious funds best saved for the next campaigns. But she agreed with Bob Eckhardt that pragmatic policies and electable candidates were only part of the story: political initiatives required “panzer troops” to set a social “conscience.”

That was where the Texas Observer came in. Eckhardt, working as a labor lobbyist in Austin, helped draft legal documents to establish the newspaper. He and Randolph wanted Ronnie Dugger to serve as editor. Randolph liked his “spunk.” She offered him a $6,500 annual salary. Dugger agreed to put Mexico on hold and to take the job only if he had full editorial control. He drafted a masthead statement that read: “We will serve no group or party but will hew hard to the truth as we find it and the right as we see it.” His creed upset some members of the planning group, who wanted the paper to be nothing more than the Democratic Party’s left-wing propaganda organ. One of them said, “If ever a rattlesnake rattled before he struck, Dugger has.” Dugger threatened to quit before he began. Eckhardt backed him and provided a political cartoon for the first issue, published on December 13, 1954—a man with a top hat and cane, proclaiming, “I do not agree with anything you say, and I will fight to the death your right to say it.” Right away, said the writer Larry L. King, “Dugger dug his talons into Governor Allan Shivers, conservative state legislators, uncaring corporations, fat-cat lobbyists, the reactionary Dallas Morning News, LBJ, and any person or institution who failed his high standards of honesty and caring.” Eckhardt called the Observer a “little star in the murky night of Texas journalism.”

Brammer had met Dugger over a pitcher of beer at Scholz’s. “He was a relaxed, soft-spoken fellow with much self-deprecation in his manner,” said Dugger. “He laughed at more than I laughed at, and in a different way, but I did not notice this at the time.”

One evening early in 1955, as Dugger labored late in his basement office with the nearly impossible job of putting out another issue of the Observer, Brammer dropped by unexpectedly after his shift at the American-Statesman. The men didn’t talk much. Brammer watched Dugger “going regularly, unfailingly bump all over the place,” he recalled. He recognized the man’s “total commitment,” how he brought “all his resources and crackling nervous vitality” to his work.

Brammer dropped by on another evening. And another. After a while, his late-night appearances became quiet routines. “Without remarking he would go sit down at the long sidetable, which was always laden with mounds of Texas newspapers, and read and clip them for me,” Dugger said. The job of putting out another issue of the Observer became a little less impossible.

“He came [to me] because he believed, or he wanted to believe, that things can be reformed, but he came just as much, too, because he wanted to watch, to overhear and to laugh. He was a born spy,” Dugger said.

The men could not have been more different on the surface. “If he seemed a bit overmuch in those early days, perhaps my own assessments and receptions weren’t even minimally enough,” Brammer wrote—a way of saying that Dugger was an intense, often humorless, crusader, whereas Brammer, for all his vast interest in politics, didn’t take the game quite so seriously. His time as a reporter in the Capitol cloakrooms and the lobbyists’ private bars had taught him that the major players were fallible and all too human and that few solutions to social problems were fully satisfactory or permanent. In moments of busy frustration, Dugger would accuse Brammer of being completely apolitical, but reminiscing to me, years later, he said, “I exempt Billy Lee from my own sets of attitudes and values on people in politics . . . I loved him . . . obviously, coming to me nights when he got off work from the American-Statesman and I was alone, then offering to join me in the lowly work of clipping newspapers, and then quitting his downtown job to become my first associate editor, he was acting within his politics and political-societal values.”

In his future writing—both in sections of The Gay Place and in private notebook jottings—Brammer indicated that he took more seriously betrayal by a friend than a politician’s broken promises (which he more or less expected). The intersection of politics and friendship was a major point of interest for him, personally and literarily. This is one explanation for his decision to leave his regular newspaper job, despite the pressure from his wife to fix their finances, in order to join what he called a “provocative but clearly doomed experiment in independent regional journalism.” For Dugger, the crusade was all; for Brammer, the venture was more about helping a friend whose principled commitment he admired. “Dugger [gave] far more to the Observer than he ever stood to gain,” Brammer saw, and he pulled off a “miracle . . . shak[ing] us a little in our Hookworm Belt complacencies,” in a place where few politicians tolerated even “an occasional honker of dissent.” Dugger’s “drives and demon-lusts and continuous manic flights and forced landings,” though sometimes “debilitating” to be near, were the source of extraordinary achievement, Brammer said. They were reasons for him to show up night after night to help, jeopardizing domestic ease and a stable career path. The lack of challenge he had felt while writing for the American-Statesman was another motivating factor: too much football, too many agricultural subsidies. He told Nadine he had been stimulated by a recent conversation with a group of Houston newsmen. The media market there set much higher standards than the Austin papers: “We are a bunch of dull, dreary hacks here compared with Houston . . . But who wants to live [there]?”

He liked to watch Dugger get “swacked” on his own adrenaline, as if “tossing down straight shot snifters” of the stuff. But more than that: in spite of the superficial differences between them, Brammer recognized a kindred spirit. As a young man, Dugger had sworn to himself he would “rather disappear into oblivion than to give my life over to anything but my own work.”

Precisely as the Observer was hurling its first stones at Goliath, Lyndon Johnson was consolidating his position as the youngest and—given his mastery of the body’s arcane rules—the most powerful Senate majority leader in history. Though Johnson consistently denied to his colleagues that he harbored any greater ambitions, Dugger understood that “he was hell-bent on the presidency.” In short, this involved making the “[Democratic] party and the nation stop thinking of him as a southerner,” explained Robert Caro. Southern conservatives held sway in the Senate; Johnson couldn’t afford to lose their support. At the same time, to broaden his power base, he had to persuade northern liberals he was on their side. All this he had to accomplish without riling his home-state backers, the oilmen and the Shivercrats, while appearing to be driven solely by principles rather than careerism. Dugger wasted no opportunities in the Observer to expose Johnson’s machinations. “No one maintains he is not a man of his word—he is; it’s just that he doesn’t give it when it matters,” Dugger would write. Later, he admitted: “I damned Johnson to hell and back.”

“Lyndon Johnson loathed what Ronnie wrote about him because it was so on target . . . [He] constantly tried to figure him out so that he could either convert him or compromise him—he failed,” Bill Moyers said. “I think LBJ understood that the kind of populism Ronnie espoused was the kind of politician he would have liked to have been if only he could have been elected statewide on those ideas.” Reading the Observer “was like reading the Old Testament prophets,” he recalled, “except that Ronnie didn’t wait to hear God’s voice in his ear.”

Brammer’s gentle satirical tone provided a needed counterpoint to Dugger’s orations. He kept up the drudge work of pulling pieces of interest from the pile of “rotgut” Texas newspapers on the clipping table. And just as quietly as he had begun appearing night after night, he began to suggest story ideas for future issues. Dugger asked him to write them. Then Dugger offered him the associate editor position—salary unspecified and unstable, depending on the fluctuating circulation numbers.

Brammer didn’t resign his post at the American-Statesman right away; “to conceal his leftist treachery from his bosses downtown,” Dugger said, he signed his pieces “BB” or “WLB.” The first one began, “It was two or three weeks before the [governor’s] Inauguration, and the city, as some people put it at the time, was ‘electric’ with excitement. As a matter of fact . . . it was pretty dreary for us.” The piece veered into fiction. Brammer claimed Governor Shivers called him accidentally one morning: “That mellifluous voice. It loses none of its rich, crunchy goodness over the wire.” It was a “splendid opportunity” to lobby the governor, but he failed to exploit it, he wrote. Still, he carried the “consolation that we had been near greatness, in one way or another, and we had made small talk with someone special.” With this first article, neither reportage nor editorial, he had announced himself as the fool to Dugger’s tragic prince.

“To Hell with the Facts” he subtitled his second column: “The State of Texas is in the hands of a terroristic band of soapbox radicals, perverted pinkos and dirty Reds. They control the legislature; they’re stacked three deep on the boards; they’re rotting in the courts. They stink.” He debunked the holy site of the San Jacinto Monument: “They stuck a shaft in the ground at San Jacinto and called it the tallest stone monument in the world . . . [Then] Joe McCarthy came, saw, and re-conquered the battleground.” He published a one-act play concerning the US Justice Department’s opposition to Texas’s leasing of its tidelands for oil drilling. The scene is a lonely, submerged, oil-rich beach off the Texas coast. Four lonely, submerged, oil-rich figures are visible,” the play began. Then the Texas governor—an early, rough sketch of Arthur Fenstemaker in The Gay Place—says, “Youah Govahnah went to Illinois. He talked with Ada-lie Stevenson. He asked Ada-lie if he was going to take the tidelands away from ouah schoolchildren if elected president. Ada-lie said yes, he was. How do you like that?”

Issue after dogged issue, Dugger exposed and Brammer mocked. The pressure to include political commentary prevented each Brammer piece from becoming fully realized on its own—not quite story, not quite play, not quite essay. These were opinion pieces gussied up as satires. Brammer wanted to be S. J. Perelman. The Observer needed him to be I. F. Stone.

Finally, he left the American-Statesman and backed his Observer work with his name:

There is a certain intimidating circumstance concerned with putting words down on paper. The words, if you’re sober that day, are liable to fall into sentences and from these may fall an opinion or two.

And then along comes some spoilsport who holds your stuff up to the light and finds it a bit roseate.

All things are relative, though, particularly opinions adjudged as pink.

Looking around at this “hysterical, No-Think” moment in American history, encouraged by Dugger’s example, he had girded himself for direct battle with what he termed “our own mid-century Inquisition—[with] everyone [acting] . . . torpid and uncomplaining in the clutch of the Peckerwood and the Ignoranti.”

He continued to write satires, but now he also engaged in gumshoe reporting, investigating official abuses, the backroom shenanigans of lobbyists, and Texas’s political temperature. Always, he looked for the quirky detail, an image to crystallize the absurd hypocrisies underlying social behaviors. “A Department of Public Safety narcotics agent who admitted he kicked a Latin American service station attendant who was lying on the ground was found not guilty of depriving the attendant of his civil rights,” Brammer reported. The narcotics agent, W. F. Hendricks, had forced the service station attendant, Abraham Maldonado Calderon, to strip to his underwear and drop to the ground. “Hendricks said he kicked Calderon ‘three or four times on the leg . . . in order to search Calderon . . . not to deprive him of any rights,’” Brammer wrote, noting that Calderon had suffered four broken ribs.

In a profile of a San Antonio police officer suspended for participating in white supremacist activities, Brammer quoted the fellow’s lengthy anticommunist diatribe, delivered while the man’s little boy came flying through the room shooting a water pistol, shouting, “Communist, Communist, Communist.”

In another instance, Brammer coaxed an interview subject to indict himself unwittingly with his own statements. “We’ve got everything under control here,” an East Texas newspaper editor bragged to him. “I led the fight . . . There’s not going to be any mixin’ of nigger and white children in East Texas for a long, long time.” The “fight” he had led was an organized series of physical threats against community members who had asked the local school board to uphold Brown v. Board of Education.

In an article on the state treasurer, deliciously named Jesse James, Brammer raised questions about the use of public money and mentioned, in passing, “old Jesse’s private sideline, a motel on a nearby lake.” And in a piece on the public relations “huckster” Phil Fox, who had helped Allan Shivers smear both Homer Rainey and Ralph Yarborough, Brammer referred to an incident in which Texas House member Barefoot Sanders was denounced as a communist by one of his opponents. On the spot, Sanders challenged the fellow to a fistfight—a scene replayed as high farce in book two of The Gay Place.

The May 23, 1955, issue of the Texas Observer carried Brammer’s short story “The Green Board,” about a freshman member of the Texas House. The man had landed “in trouble” with his colleagues for not cozying up to lobbyists. He remembered the innocent days when he had arrived “in the Capitol with a white Stetson, a string tie, and some gaudy cowboy boots with a silhouette of the three counties he represented emblazoned across the front of them.” Four months later, the “string ties and Stetsons had disappeared, and so had the $25 a day. And so has my virginity, he thought. He wasn’t quite so naïve now. He knew, now, what was going on down here, and he didn’t like it much.” The story showed a vast improvement over “Fight Team!” After rereading Tender Is the Night, Brammer learned to balance scene setting with his characters’ interior voices. “The Green Board” predicted the matter and atmosphere of The Gay Place as well as the jaundice that would shade Brammer’s already dark view of politics. “He had lived pretty high the first month,” he wrote. “He’d brought the wife and kids down, and the $700 monthly from the State had seemed like a lot at the time. Now, the family was back home and he had been sending them money. Almost all of his last $350 check had gone that way.” If these circumstances echoed his own present affairs—the money woes and frequent separations from Nadine and the girls—the next sentences would stand as a cold prophecy of his future, his embodiment of Fitzgerald’s character Dick Diver, eroding spiritually, vanishing little by little: “At first he had lived in a rather sumptuous suite in one of the nicer hotels. Later he switched to a second-rate hostelry, and now he was in a rooming house near the Capitol.”

“He was a very special person,” Nadine would say of him later. “[But] Billy Lee never developed an adult ego state. He was my playmate—we always had fun. As long as he didn’t have to be an adult, be responsible, he was so much fun to live with.” But now with two little girls, the need for steady income, and the constant attentions of attractive men at places like Scholz’s, Nadine was not always fully present, even when she shared Brammer’s bed. More often than not, she spent weeks with her mother in McAllen, leaving him in the disorderly, dirty house. To fill his time, he began to rough out a novel about a group of Austin malcontents. He welcomed long nights in the cramped Observer office. Perhaps his humorous, self-critical editorial “A Fragile Subject,” declaring “sex” the Observer’s “missing ingredient . . . whether from sheer ennui or just plain boyish modesty,” was a cri de coeur.

The Observer’s other missing elements were art and cultural criticism, a paucity that Brammer sought to remedy with a column called “The Texas Mind.” In one issue, he profiled the Dallas journalist Paul Crume, a “slightly sad-eyed and ungainly fellow” whose prose has a “glitter to it that distinguishes him from the hundreds of hackers who daily fill the Texas prints.” This, in spite of the fact that Crume “has never done what major writers like to call ‘major writing,’” Brammer wrote. Clearly, the thrust of his column was to urge Texans toward greater ambitions. He sounded deeply aggrieved when offering reasons why so many talents in the state had failed to deliver on their promise. “Perhaps it is the novel form that intimidates people like Crume,” he wrote. “They prefer the essay, but there is no easy avenue to its recognition—particularly when it appears in so short-lived a medium as a daily newspaper.”

In few other nonacademic Texas publications of the time were people writing at this level of seriousness about the state’s literary prospects. In speaking of the terrors of the novel form, Brammer was of course talking to himself, trying to pluck up his courage.

“Billy was the first genuine, practicing literary man I ever knew,” said Willie Morris, then the editor of the Daily Texan and a Scholz habitué, quaffing foamy pitchers with Brammer after dispatching his late-night deadlines. “We talked often . . . about the books I should be reading . . . He cared passionately about literature and had confidence in his own writing. [He said] good writing endured beyond the momentary fashions, and to read, read, read.” Brammer and Dugger admired the principled stands that Morris took at the Texan. He excoriated the governor’s support of “interposition”—that is, defiance of Brown. And when the UT Board of Regents pressured Morris to stop printing pieces critical of the state’s oil-depletion allowance, he ran blank spaces on the page where editorials should have appeared.

The beer garden gave Brammer company when otherwise he faced an empty house; the people there made him feel part of a cause larger than himself—though he had never been, and never would be, a foot soldier for causes. Nadine told her parents she and Brammer considered themselves more liberal than Lyndon Johnson, but not as liberal as the Scholz crowd, Ronnie Dugger, or the rest of the Observer team. More to the point, Brammer’s piece on Paul Crume revealed directions better suited to his abilities than muckraking, and a restlessness to try them. He admired principled stands, but he was beginning to see that his talent lay in sly observations—leaving the judgments to others. Dugger ran comments from social activists to the effect that “we speak of the [Texas] slums, we shake our heads, and yet how skillful we are in resisting the full truth about ourselves!” In the same issue of the Observer, Brammer praised Crume’s writing philosophy: “[My] column is not for or against anything. We are the innocent bystander, the one that always gets shot. We have a horror of positive opinions.”

Dugger’s opinion of Lyndon Johnson was hardening. In preparation for the 1956 elections, and a possible run for the presidency, Johnson was marshaling the rules of the US Senate as his personal tools, using his position as majority leader to give the appearance of empowering colleagues while in fact subordinating their goodwill—and their votes—to his cause. His top administrative assistant, Walter Jenkins, recalled hearing LBJ, behind his closed office door, rehearsing scenarios of conversations with senators, playing both parts—himself cajoling, the other man resisting or agreeing. Johnson would act out the stories’ variations until he had locked up the narrative tight, ending always in his favor. To Jenkins, these little dramas were hilarious—like Brammer’s satirical one-act in the pages of the Observer. But Johnson understood the power of story, of shaping an image, of cause and effect.

He told different tales to northerners and southerners in the Senate. He helped Hubert Humphrey and other northern liberals pass a public housing bill while he insisted to his southern colleagues that he agreed with them—public housing was “socialism.” Off the floor, away from debate, he guided Humphrey in lining up the necessary votes while he convinced the southerners that voting against certain amendments to the bill would weaken its overall effect.

Meanwhile, to secure his home-state support, he maneuvered to place on the Democratic National Committee, as Texas’s representative, Lieutenant Governor Ben Ramsey, a “reactionary and racist . . . who presided as the dictator over the Texas Senate to the purring pleasure, protection, and profit of every corporate fat cat in the state, the oilmen most of all,” Dugger said. It was imperative that the Observer catalogue and oppose every twitch of Lyndon’s little finger. But Dugger couldn’t raise his associate’s ire. Brammer’s attention had wandered elsewhere. He had learned that Warner Bros. was set to film Giant, the screen adaptation of Edna Ferber’s overheated oil novel, in the tiny West Texas town of Marfa, near the Mexican border. The movie would star Rock Hudson, Elizabeth Taylor, and James Dean. Brammer seized on the news of its production as an opportunity to reread Ferber’s novel and to pen for the Observer another thoughtful overview of Texas’s literary promise. Ferber’s book was “richly-conceived and rottenly written,” he wrote. “Instead of portraying Texans as proud, primitive, super-patriots obsessed with sheer bigness and magnitude, which many of us are, she made us out as oil-rich robber barons and feudal lords, buffoons and mountebanks, which, it is hoped, few of us are.” He concluded that the “people who make up the state of mind that is Texas” tended to be more urban than rural now, neither excessively wealthy nor exceedingly poor, but rather middle-class folk often transplanted from other parts of the country. “Miss Ferber failed to sense this,” Brammer wrote. “Perhaps the next novelist will.”

While Dugger worried that “Americans were about to be trapped in the history that Lyndon Johnson would make,” Brammer decided the Observer should send a reporter—him—to the film set in Marfa.

“He asked me to go with him—in that damn station wagon he’d traded the Nash for,” Nadine said. “I had no interest. I’d been to Marfa.”

Named for the family servant in The Brothers Karamazov, the novel the railway overseer’s wife was reading when her train paused in West Texas in 1881, Marfa was situated barely tight against the wind in a sometimes grassy desert sixty miles north of Mexico, near the Dead Horse Mountains and the cone of an ancient volcano. It consisted mostly of cattle ranches and warehouses built as prisoner-of-war barracks during World War II. The first thing Brammer noticed, pulling into town on a sunny June afternoon, was that the “townspeople [hadn’t] changed much” under the Hollywood onslaught, but the crew from Burbank had “attempted to dress like Texans.” “The women have been wearing such things as denims and stoles and stetsons [sic] and four-inch wedgies. One lady was even seen wearing riding pants and a turban,” Brammer wrote. He said the men tended toward “khakis and dress shirts and French cuffs” as well as “Jungle Jim ‘safari’ helmets”: “It’s something like seeing a mob of zoot-suited drugstore cowboys.”

Warner Bros. had leased several “mesquite-studded and stunted ranches” for the movie shoot. “Some miles out from town, south on Highway 67, there looms large on the horizon a macabre structure which should remain for years a curiosity for West Texas cattle and cowpokes. Sticking starkly out of the prairies is a three-storied Victorian mansion, all gingerbread and lightning rods, rococo and utterly inelegant,” Brammer reported in the second of two articles on the movie, in the July 4, 1955, issue of the Observer. The house was “a sham,” he said, “built in California, in prefabricated units, the simulated stone façade being plaster on wood and metal, and shipped to Texas by flatcar”: “It’s here that the crowds foregather, here and down the road a piece, to watch [director] George Stevens and several hundred slightly parboiled Californians labor in the Texas sun. It’s as if a vast, traveling circus has broken down in the midst of this desolation and set up shop for some kind of performance. There are tents and trucks and trailers and tractors, buses and vintage cars and a great, milling mob of carpenters, technicians, cosmetologists, and even an occasional moom-pitchure star.”

The gabbling activity and the equipment reminded him of the Texas Power and Light construction camps he had stayed in as a boy with his father. The two of them had, in fact, camped near here once, on a line project, by an old silver mine that was now the site of a ghost town. He liked the frenetic, temporary feel of movie lots: long black cables strewn across dry hummocks of gravel and sand. He liked the desert’s edge-of-the-world atmosphere. But what really caught his fancy was the unintentional surrealism of Hollywood’s daily business. Tumbleweeds were too scarce, here, for the director’s taste, so the studio had trucked in some from California. If the wind didn’t blow on the days the director needed it to, the crew would manufacture gales with blowers. The local range grass wasn’t green enough for the cameras, “so the moviemen simply sprayed on a green vegetable dye. It looks real pretty,” Brammer wrote.

His “dispatches from Marfa are . . . the most sophisticated writing of any Texas journalist at the time,” Steven L. Davis wrote. Brammer focused very little on the larger-than-life celebrities. Elizabeth Taylor was “every bit as pretty as she seems in the movies and bearing up well in the Texas sun, although she seems a bit slim in the shanks, a trifle weak in the pasterns.” James Dean seemed at home in the desert: “A kind of fuzzy-cheeked Marlon Brando . . . blend[ing] into the scenery . . . He looks like he’s been rolling in it, in fact. He’s what you’d call a dusty-colored fellow.” Instead, Brammer highlighted the social—implicitly political—differences between West Texas and Hollywood, between the hardworking ranchers and the California mythmakers. The movie’s fake mansion was erected “on the Worth Evans ranch,” he noted. “Mr. Evans wouldn’t even have made it as a bit player in the Ferber novel. He only has 35,000 acres.”

By the time he returned to Austin, he was already imagining a novel, or part of one, set on a movie shoot in far West Texas. Earlier in the year, Governor Shivers had made a cameo appearance in a Paramount production called Lucy Gallant, starring Jane Wyman. Brammer began to speculate on intersections between politics and Hollywood, candidates, actors, and directors. Eventually, details from his Marfa reporting, such as the fake Victorian mansion, looming on the horizon “like a great landlocked whale,” the dyed green grass, and the trucks full of tumbleweeds, would make it into The Gay Place. Says one of the characters, explaining how set technicians planned to prepare the tumbleweed scene, “It don’t tumble. Even when there’s a good wind. It just don’t tumble. So they brought out some big blowers—big ’lectric fans—to make the tumbleweed tumble when they shoot the moom pitcher.”

Still ecstatic over what he’d seen in the desert, Brammer was not in a particularly receptive mood when an anxious Dugger showed him a lengthy Newsweek article calling LBJ “THE TEXAN WHO IS JOLTING WASHINGTON.” Dugger hoped to recruit Brammer back into battle. He said he thought “the FBI or ‘The Lobby’ or some other ubiquitous, indefinable Dark Force of Reaction was engaged in tapping his and my and the Observer’s telephone lines,” Brammer recalled. “Perhaps they were being tapped—I’ve always hoped they were. There’s been precious little intrigue in my life, and . . . I’m inclined to welcome a really first-rate gang of spies and trenchcoat-flapping saboteurs.”

But before the two editors could schedule upcoming assignments or work out their growing differences about the Observer’s focus, their world wobbled on its axis. The news came in early July. Lyndon Johnson had suffered a massive heart attack.