Through all that has happened I always made hair appointments. I have kept it trimmed and light-colored. There is always someone who will do that for you. There is always someone who will ring up new clothes, cash your check, or point to the line where you sign a lease. There are people who will bring you food and clear away your dirty plates. You can pay someone to counsel you on your self-esteem, on your self-abuse. An eating, drinking, smoking, or sex problem. You can hire someone to help you exercise, or shop. You can have someone come in your house and organize your kitchen cupboards and bedroom closet. There are places that will take all of your old clothes and other things and give them to other people. You do not have to throw them away yourself. If you call a certain number, someone will tell you directions to anywhere, and if you look on the computer, you can see your apartment from a camera that shoots from space. You can go on dating websites and find potential partners. You can see their pictures. You can know their personalities, their weaknesses, even. But that is as far as it goes.