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The Four Maps

1891, June 28: 11-hour 22

Lock the doors, stop your ears.

The Lachrima will sense your fear.

And if it’s drawn in by your fright

You’ll surely see it in the night.

—Nochtland nursery rhyme, first verse

ONLY WHEN VERESSA murmured, “A pleasure to meet you,” did Sophia finally find her tongue.

“You are Veressa?” she exclaimed, the words spilling from her mouth too loudly. “The cartologer?”

“Yes,” Veressa replied, both surprised and amused. Sophia felt dizzy. She put her hand out toward the table, and Veressa seized it. “Are you all right?”

“You—my uncle,” Sophia said, attempting to collect herself. “My uncle sent me to you. I came from Boston all the way to find you. My uncle, Shadrack Elli. Do you know where he is?”

It was Veressa’s turn to stare, her eyes wide. “You astonish me,” she said, her voice no more than a whisper. “I have not heard that name in many years.”

Sophia bit her lip as disappointment rushed through her. She had been hoping that somehow, once she found her, Veressa would know what had happened to Shadrack and have a plan for his rescue. Her hand closed around the spool of thread in her pocket. Why would you lead me so easily to Veressa, she asked the Fates, if she cannot lead me to Shadrack?

“Come,” Veressa said gently. “Let’s sit and talk this over.” She put her hand on Sophia’s shoulder and guided her gently toward the kitchen.

Martin and Burr followed them and stood uncertainly by while she and Sophia sat at the long table. “Now,” she said, “tell me everything, beginning with how things were before Shadrack sent you to me.”

Sophia explained as best she could, though it was difficult without being certain how much Veressa already knew about glass maps and railroad lines and any number of other things. Veressa stopped her to ask questions: once about Mrs. Clay’s story about the Lachrima, and a second time about Montaigne. Otherwise, she listened attentively, pressing Sophia’s hand encouragingly when the story grew confusing or difficult to tell. When Sophia was through, she sat thoughtfully for several moments. “May I see Shadrack’s two messages and the map?” she finally asked.

Veressa read the notes briefly and then held the glass map to the light for a moment. She placed it on the table with a heavy sigh. “I had not thought it would happen this way,” she said, “though it was bound to happen.” She glanced up at her father. “I’m sorry, Papá, there are some things I have not told you that you will hear for the first time.” She looked down at the table. “I had good reason for not telling you.”

Martin sat down abruptly, apparently more astonished by this than by anything else that had happened all day.

Veressa touched the glass map for a moment and shuddered, as if she saw something on its surface. “I know this map,” she said quietly. “Shadrack and I came across it together, many years ago. Part of me wishes we had never found it.” She shook her head. “Let me tell you how it happened.”

—11-Hour 31: Veressa Tells of Talisman—

“IT WAS WHEN we were students, as Mrs. Clay told you, that we knew one another. She is right that we were close.” Veressa paused. “Very close. But something,” she continued quickly, “came between us. What Mrs. Clay did not know was the extent of our work in cartology. She could not know the dedication—the passion—with which we pursued it. Mapmaking with all materials—glass, clay, metal, cloth, and others besides—was naturally part of our studies. However, we learned in one of our courses that there were other materials for mapmaking that were forbidden in our school. Our teachers would not say what they were. But by and by we heard of a former teacher who had been dismissed because he persisted in experimenting with them. He was called Talisman, Talis for short—I do not know if that was his full name.

“If they had told us of Talisman’s terrible experiments, we would have been disgusted and lost all interest. But our teachers’ silence only made us more curious. I can’t remember which one of us came up with the idea of finding Talisman, but once the idea had taken hold neither Shadrack nor I could shake it. Piece by piece, we put together the story, and we discovered that he lived alone not far outside of Nochtland.

“We were wise enough to write to him beforehand. We told him we were students of cartology, and that we desired to learn something of his methods. To our surprise, he responded almost immediately. He said we would be most welcome, and that he would be happy to share his learning with us. In person, we found him just as kind and welcoming, if older and more tired, than we had expected—his face was that of someone who had lived through a time of great grief. His vast home was dilapidated, but he did his best to make us feel comfortable. He showed us the rooms where we would stay and the study where we would work. I remember that he spoke with us for only a few minutes before leaving to prepare dinner—he had no servants and seemed to live alone. Those were the only minutes we passed in relative peace.

“Shadrack and I made our way to the dining room, as Talisman had instructed us, and we waited for nearly an hour. There was no sign of him. After the hour had passed, we began to hear a strange sound from somewhere far away within the house. It was the sound of weeping.

“I was uneasy, but Shadrack reassured me, saying that we knew not what private grief Talisman suffered. We had only to wait, he insisted. Another hour passed, and then another. There was no sign of Talis. The sound of weeping grew louder, and finally became so inescapable that I felt desperate to leave. But then it would subside, and I would steel myself to wait a while longer. Then, suddenly, when it was almost nine-hour, Talisman appeared in the door of the dining room. I say it was Talisman, but he was almost unrecognizable. He waved his arms furiously and shouted at us in a language we did not understand. Shadrack and I clung to one another, terrified. But we soon saw that he meant us no harm. In fact, it was almost as though he could not see us—he appeared to look right through us. He shouted at something that stood before him, railing at the empty air. Then, just as abruptly as he had arrived, he turned on his heel and left.

“Shadrack and I fled to my room. We pushed a chair against the door and sat up the entire night. We heard the sound of weeping rising and falling through the early hours, but we did not see Talisman again.

“We had already made our plans to escape as soon as it was light, but at dawn we heard a faint knocking on the door. Shadrack cautiously removed the chair. To our astonishment, Talisman stood in the hall—contrite and disheveled—begging our forgiveness. He seemed to have no memory of what had occurred, but he suspected that all was not right. It was painful to see how he attempted to apologize while being entirely unaware of what he had done. ‘Did you find supper to your liking?’ he asked anxiously. We answered that we had not had the chance to eat. ‘I am terribly sorry,’ he said, tears filling his eyes. ‘I can’t—I don’t know how to apologize. Please, let me make it up to you with breakfast.’ It would have been cruel to deny him. We followed him to the dining room, entirely perplexed by the change in circumstances, and proceeded to have an ordinary breakfast.

“After breakfast, Talisman seemed to regain some of his energy, and without being asked he turned to the topic of cartology. ‘I am honored that you have shown an interest in my methods,’ he said. ‘And I am only too happy to share them with you. As it stands, there are no others who practice them, and I fear that when I go’—a shadow passed over his face as he said this—‘there will be none to carry on.’ We assured him that while we knew nothing of his methods, we were enthusiastic students and open to every manner of experiment. ‘Wonderful,’ he said, his face brightening. ‘Has it not struck you as remarkable that the principal method for reading memory maps is human touch? How is it that the fingertips have this ability to transmit memories to the brain? In fact,’ he went on, his enthusiasm growing, ‘it is not only the fingertips but the entire human body which responds to the stored memories on a map. Try it—your elbow, your wrist, your nose—they are all the same. It is as if human skin were a great sponge, simply waiting to absorb memories! In fact, this is exactly the case—we are sponges and we do absorb memories.’

“I heard then for the first time the theory that has since been confirmed by other scholars. At the time, I was not certain whether or not to believe Talisman. Now I do without question. He applied his knowledge to shocking ends, but there is no doubt that his observations were true. ‘The Great Disruption,’ Talis went on, ‘disrupted the world in ways we are only beginning to understand. But one thing we know—there are borders, fault lines, edges to the Ages that resulted from the Great Disruption. I have always sought to understand these borders. What did they look like? What happened along them when the Disruption took place? Perhaps we will never know entirely what it was like, but we can try. I imagine a great, blinding light that sears the earth along a jagged line.’ He laughed. ‘But perhaps I am being fanciful. What we know beyond a shadow of a doubt is what happened to those people who were on the fault line when the Disruption occurred.’

“Shadrack and I looked at him in surprise. This was unexpected. ‘Have you never contemplated it?’ he asked, equally surprised. ‘I have been obsessed with the question. And now I know. Those unlucky people fell into a great chasm of time. Every event that ever took place on the spot where they were standing passed through them, like blinding light passing through a prism. Can you imagine what such a thing would do to you? Can you begin to conceive the damage to the human frame, the human mind, of being plunged into infinite time?’ He shook his head, awed by his own question.

“‘Contrary to what you may think,’ he continued, ‘they did not die. Oh, no—much the opposite. They passed beyond time, extending their lives to unnatural length by decades, perhaps even centuries. Nevertheless, they were lost—hopelessly lost. A million memories that did not belong to them remained echoing in their brains. Consider: black is the absence of color, while white is the sum of all colors. What is the result when all of those strange memories are forced into your mind? Utter blankness, utter whiteness. Their minds were blank. And so were their faces. Just as a contented old woman wears the grooved wrinkles of every laugh, and a bitter old man wears the furrows of every frown, and an old warrior bears the scar of every battle, so their faces showed the traces of every memory of their engulfed minds. They wore the face of nothingness.’”

Sophia, absorbed as she was in Veressa’s story, let out a gasp. “Of course! That is why none exist in Boston.”

Veressa nodded. “At that moment I understood, and I could see that Shadrack did as well. ‘The Lachrima,’ he said.

“‘Yes!’ Talis exclaimed. ‘What we call the Lachrima, who weep for the surfeit of memories, among which their own are utterly lost: the Lachrima who weep even as their long lives fade, so that before expiring they are nothing more than a sound, a lament. They are truly the lost souls of this earth.’

“I then realized the meaning of what I had heard the day before. ‘Can it be,’ I asked him, ‘that we have heard a Lachrima here—in your home?’

“He rose from his chair. ‘Follow me!’ he said, hurrying from the room. ‘You have heard a Lachrima who has lived with me for nearly three years!’ We were stunned. ‘Yes!’ he said breathlessly. ‘Three years!’ He stopped suddenly and laid a clammy hand on my arm. ‘And I have attempted to save it.’ He rushed onward, through the twisting hallways, and we followed him, riveted and horrified. Finally, at the end of a long corridor, we reached a door that was heavily chained. Catching his breath, Talis took a key from his pocket and unlocked the massive lock that held the chain in place. ‘Quiet,’ he whispered, ‘it sleeps.’

“He slowly opened the door. The room was small, with high ceilings; bright light poured into the room from a barred window. Underneath the window was a narrow bed, and at first I could not identify what I saw upon it. It was a shape—a female figure only partly hidden by white sheets. There was something draped across it that I suddenly realized was the Lachrima’s arm. It was entirely covered with strangely colored designs that I took for some peculiar pattern on its clothing. Then the Lachrima turned toward us, and I saw the long, pale hair that trailed across the bed and onto the floor. And the face—oh, the face. It was horribly wounded and scarred, as if it had been repeatedly cut in long lines. ‘You see!’ Talisman whispered, gesturing with trembling pride. ‘My great cartologic invention. I have drawn the map upon its skin.’

“I understood then that the web of unintelligible markings that I had taken for clothing were lines of ink drawn upon the body of the Lachrima. Shadrack frowned. ‘But what have you done to its face?’ he asked.

“‘With careful incisions,’ Talisman exclaimed, ‘I have twice almost found its hidden features!’

“I shuddered, taking Shadrack’s arm, and a cry must have escaped my lips, for the Lachrima suddenly stirred and lifted its head. It faced us in silence, its horribly scarred countenance a mockery of a human face; and then suddenly it let out a terrible, heartrending cry. Covering its face with hands that were, like its arms, laden with inscrutable markings—it shrieked over and over, as if in agony. The shriek resolved itself into words: ‘HELP ME! HELP ME!’

“I bolted from the room, dragging Shadrack behind me, and Talis followed us hurriedly, locking the heavy door. But it did not muffle the cries of the Lachrima, and I felt that if they continued, I would lose my mind. Then I saw from Talisman’s face that he was even more affected than I. He dropped to his knees, suddenly, and looked up at us. ‘Apff?’ he said, in the high, gurgling voice of an infant.

“‘What is wrong with him?’ I cried.

“‘I don’t know,’ Shadrack replied. ‘He seems to think he is a child.’ The shrieking of the Lachrima continued, and I knew that I could bear it no longer. I turned and ran down the corridor, fleeing from the sound and from the frightening sight of Talisman on his hands and knees. Shadrack ran after me, and though we lost our way in the hallways more than once, we finally found our way back to the dining room and from there to the bedrooms to gather our belongings. We seized them and ran toward the stables, where we had left our hired horses. I was trembling from hand to foot, and I could barely manage the saddle. And yet, as we were readying the horses, the sound of the Lachrima faded and finally stopped. Still, I wanted nothing more than to leave as quickly as possible.

“Suddenly Talisman threw open the stable door and came unsteadily toward us. I felt an irrational fear surge through me. ‘Please,’ he said faintly. ‘Wait—I beg you.’ I would not have waited, but Shadrack hesitated, moved by pity. The old man looked beaten down and exhausted, and I understood then the constant expression of grief that he wore, even when he was not under the Lachrima’s spell. He carried a wrapped bundle carefully in his arms, and as he walked toward us he shifted it to one hand and held his other out toward us appealingly. ‘I beg you,’ he said again, hoarsely. ‘Wait.’

“‘We are leaving, Talisman,’ Shadrack said firmly.

“‘I know, I know,’ he said, crestfallen. ‘I know it frightens you. It frightens me as well, but I must explain to you. Someone must know. The Lachrima’s cries confuse my sense of time. I lose my way—I know not who I am nor where I am, nor when I am.’

“‘Let the Lachrima go free,’ Shadrack implored. ‘Come away with us. We will find you a doctor in Nochtland. Your mind might still be restored with care and rest.’

“Talis shook his head. ‘I cannot. It is my life’s work. I aim to restore that creature’s mind, even if it costs me my own.’

“‘But can you not see the further damage you are doing? You are restoring nothing!’

“‘I am drawing a map of its life upon its skin. Then it will remember its one, true life.’

“‘I ask you once more to show it mercy and leave with us,’ Shadrack said, taking the old man’s arm.

“Talis pulled away and handed Shadrack the bundle. ‘If you must go, take these with you. They are too valuable to be left here, where they might soon be lost with me.’ He smiled feebly. ‘Do not fear—they are maps like those you know. They hold the key to a great mystery, and it will not do for them to be buried with an old man.’

“Shadrack accepted them, at a loss for words, and Talis stepped back. He raised his arm as if bidding us farewell and slowly left the stables. Shadrack seemed to hesitate, debating what to do. Then he put the package in his saddlebag and mounted his horse. ‘Let us leave this place,’ he said to me.

“We returned to Nochtland without stopping, and we could not bring ourselves to speak of what had happened. Back at the academy, we sat listlessly at our desks, thinking only of what we had seen—of that tormented creature and how little we had done to save her. Shadrack came to my room the following day with the bundle that Talisman had given him. ‘I think we should look at these together,’ he said.

“Inside the carefully wrapped bundle we found four maps—glass, clay, metal, and cloth. Four maps that fit together and told a tragic story. Despite the horror we had felt during our visit, we recognized that the maps were, indeed, keys to a great mystery. After studying the maps we came to the same conclusion: they held a memory of how the Great Disruption had come to pass.”

Everyone at the table gasped, and Veressa looked down at the glass map. “What we could not agree on,” she continued in a subdued voice, “was what to do with the maps. The glass map, in particular, since apart from being a memory map, it was clearly also a tracing map—a lens used to identify and draw other maps. Shadrack believed we should use them for exploration, to discover where the Disruption had taken place. It was his theory that if we followed the maps we would find the carta mayor—the fabled water map that shows the living world. The idea had occurred to both of us; indeed, among cartologers, it would have occurred to anyone. But I,” Veressa paused, shaking her head, “I feared the maps would lead to ill. The carta mayor is a dangerous legend, and it has led many explorers to disappointment or death. Some say it is an ordinary water map. Some say it has much greater power: that the carta mayor does not only show all possible worlds—past, present, and future—but that it also offers the power to change them. A change in the map produces a change in the world. Who knows if such a thing is true, but it hardly matters; the rumor of such power is enough. People believe what they will. I worried about what would happen if the maps fell into the wrong hands.”

Martin reached across the table and took his daughter’s hand. “Shadrack and I could not resolve our difference of opinion,” she said sadly. “And our arguments grew increasingly bitter. I think, beneath it all, we were suffering from guilt. The Lachrima had asked us for help and we had fled. Finally, by way of compromise and out of respect for my wishes, Shadrack agreed to separate the maps as a way of minimizing their potential power. The glass map was a formidable instrument, but alone it could not tell the whole story of the Disruption. I know that he has used it with the utmost wisdom, relying on its excellent quality to draw exquisite maps of his own. He has only used the tracing glass to add knowledge to the world of cartology, and he has tried to keep its existence hidden. Nevertheless, its reputation has traveled. Even here, I heard rumors of what came to be known as the ‘Polyglot Tracing Glass.’ It was inevitable that as its reputation grew, so would covetous explorers and cartologers seek to find it. The other three maps were mere stage scenery without the glass layer. I kept them.

“Shadrack and I parted on bad terms. He wrote to me only once, to tell me that he had returned to Talisman’s home, but the man’s mind was past repair. Shadrack freed the Lachrima, who fled at once, and brought Talisman to Nochtland, where he settled him in a convent hospital. From time to time I visit. He is like a child now—lost in some private world which the rest of us cannot see. But Shadrack I never heard from again—until now.” She smiled wanly at Sophia. “And so, with you, the glass map returns to Nochtland.”

“But where are the other three, my child?” Martin demanded. “I have never seen such maps here.”

Veressa sighed. “They are in the library safe. The four maps are together in the same place once more.”