The image burned into his mind like acid etching a pane of glass.
Jane sat, hunched over, head bowed, in the tub. Her thin shoulders shook with each deep gasp, but she made no sound. With her arms locked around her bent knees, she had curled into herself.
Not that he blamed her after what had happened. Although the medical records contained sparse information, he could read between the lines. Before him sat a strong woman who had been completely devastated, physically and emotionally.
Barnaby would die a thousand deaths before anyone hurt Jane again.
The wave of rage and protectiveness stunned him stupid.
Powerless to help, Barnaby could only look at her bent head. The depth of her sadness and his own inability to fix this problem froze him in place.
Well, as they said, out of the frying pan, into the fire.
“I’m going to help you, Jane. I won’t hurt you, I swear. Okay?”
A sniff and a shaky wave of her hand would have to count for a green light.
He knelt down to move her clothes and the blanket.
“Don’t touch those!” she yelled.
Jumping back, he pressed against the towel rack. “All right. Can I push them out of the way?”
She nodded.
With deliberate movements, he used the toe of his shoe to kick the material into the corner, behind the toilet. He’d burn everything, his own clothes included, everything from this apartment, if she wished.
“Tell me what I can do, Jane,” he whispered.
He had to strain to hear, as she still had her face buried between her fragile arms and pressed onto her bent knees.
“I can’t get my hair clean.”
“Hair?”
“Yes.” The misery infused into the word grabbed his heart and squeezed.
“Hair.” He frantically scanned the bathroom. “Hair.” He’d turned into a parroting imbecile. “No problem. We’ll get you cleaned up, right as rain.”
He dashed out to the living room and fished through the bag of toiletries Dante had dropped off. By Jove, Dante had thought of everything. A pink bottle. Contents smelled like flowers. Women’s shampoo. Bless that big Swede.
Running back into the bathroom like he carried a grenade about to blow, Barnaby crouched near the head of the tub. Keeping himself pressed tightly to the wall, he tried to shove his body into a nonthreatening shape.
Jane’s shoulder blades pressed out from under her pale skin, and he could count every single bone in her spine. The soft curves he’d recalled from Saigon were long gone, replaced by a tortured, thin frame. On her left hip below the waterline was a red mark. A red T.
Shite.
A brand? That whoreson frigging branded her?
His vision turned as red as her puckered skin, and it took every ounce of willpower not to turn around and hunt down Thompson and brand every inch of skin on that sick minion. Did Thompson do it before or after he turned minion?
Didn’t matter.
If Barnaby ever had the chance, he’d annihilate that creature. Minion. Criminy. Minion.
Which meant Jerahmeel had become too interested in the human happenings in San Francisco. Minions had one job: Keep the Indebted focused by any means on obtaining kills to feed Jerahmeel via that damned knife.
Which meant Jane’s life hung in the balance unless Barnaby could get her to safety and destroy Thompson, if such a thing were even possible. Or Barnaby could break the Indebted contract and remove himself from the payroll, so to speak. Damn that mess in Vietnam, but he needed to get over there and look at those scrolls.
In the act of storming out of the bathroom to go hunt down a minion, Barnaby turned and stopped cold, pinned in place by the ocean-blue of Jane’s haunted eyes.
The shimmering fear and despair sucker punched him back to reality.
He grabbed a cup off the sink and dropped to his knees.
Praying that his touch could bring succor, even with the rage swirling inside his mind, he stroked her hair until she relaxed back into his hand. He lifted the cup full of bathwater up and rinsed. Over and over, he lost himself in the smoothness of her hair as the water sluiced through the dark brown strands.
Opening the bottle, he squeezed a dollop of scented shampoo, worked it into her scalp, and ran it through the length of her hair. Another several passes with the cup of water, and her hair was shiny and clean. For a long minute, he sat between the tub and the wall, not sure what to do next but too scared to move.
She gave a sad, weary sigh.
“Can I help—?”
“Thank you, Barnaby—” she blurted at the same time.
He clamped his jaw shut and tried again. “Let’s get you out of here before you turn into a prune.”
The lift to the corner of her sweet mouth would have to count as a smile. Grabbing another towel, he held it out.
“I d-don’t want y-you to—” she stammered.
When her lower lip quivered, he was lost.
“Verily, I won’t look.”
When she glanced at the towel, she raised an eyebrow. “I don’t have anything to wear, and that’s not going to work.”
“Right.”
He dashed out of the bathroom, ripped off a sheet from his rarely used bed, and skidded to a stop back in the bathroom.
“Better?” he asked.
Her harsh laugh did him a world of good.
“I’ll help you to the edge of the tub and dry you off. No looking, I promise.”
“Fine.” The flatness of her voice hurt.
She weighed almost nothing as he lifted her to the ceramic rim and toweled her back and arms dry. Draping the sheet over her shoulders, he removed the towel from beneath and eased her into a sitting position on the bathroom floor. There, he toweled her hair dry. She clutched the sheet around her.
“Better?” he asked.
When she angled her face up and back and gave him a glimmer of a smile, his heart swelled in his chest.
“Yes, better. Thank you.”
“Um, how about back to the couch?”
“Okay.”
He didn’t miss how her damp head tucked into the space between his shoulder and neck made him feel complete, purposeful.
Too bad he had no purpose except to carry out his Indebted contract.
Too bad the only thing that made him complete was slaking that damned knife’s hunger.
He was a monster crammed into the shell of a man. Nothing more.
• • •
Jane shrunk back away from the syringe Barnaby brandished.
He stepped back and raised his hands. “Antibiotics. I swear. You need it for, the, um, infection.”
“It’s okay. I know what happened. The miscarriage had complications.”
He looked everywhere but at her. Jane didn’t blame him.
“So, may I?” He waved the wicked-looking needle.
“Doesn’t matter,” she said, slipping her arm out from under the sheet. As the bite of metal and tight squirt of liquid hit her upper arm, she felt a burn low in her pelvis. That’s what failure felt like, no doubt.
After wiping the tiny drop of blood on her upper arm, he set the syringe on the coffee table. “So. Sure it’s Thompson’s?”
“The miscarriage? Yeah.” She sure was doing a great job memorizing the bland pattern on the couch cushions tonight. “Change the subject, please.”
“Right. Bad choice of topic.” He paused long enough for her to glance over and check on him. Myriad emotions—everything from sadness to curiosity to banked, lethal anger—shone from his eyes. “So are you ready to get out of here? Even though the police haven’t made it to this block yet, doesn’t mean they won’t soon. Any idea where you want to go?”
“I have no place to go. The DEA won’t take me back; I’m compromised, a liability, after everything.”
“That’s not true.”
“Well, then, let’s just say I don’t want to deal with the DEA right now.”
“Fair enough.”
“Actually, I’d like to somehow get that info to the DEA chief, who might believe me, about the drugs and sex trade. If those women are suffering as much as than I did, they have to be freed. Also, I think my supervisor was somehow involved.”
“Okay then.” The line of his jaw turned to hard rock. “Why don’t we put together a plan to inform him after you’re healed?”
“Sure.”
“So. No idea ...?”
“I don’t have a home. No family. So that leaves a whole lot of nothing.” She swallowed around the lump in her throat.
“Or a lot of possibilities.” A smile lit up his handsome face.
For the first time in months, her heart lifted. A foreign feeling. Hope. “Yeah?”
“Yes. I have an idea.”
“Your last idea landed me forty stories up on a roof.” She smiled as he pulled a face. “But let’s hear it.”
“I have a little place in the Santa Cruz mountains. No one knows about it. You’ll be safe.”
“Barnaby, I can’t impose.”
“If you were imposing, I wouldn’t offer.” His voice, so grave, made her want to burst into tears all over again.
“I don’t know ...”
“Do you trust me?”
The $64,000 question again. No doubt about her answer at this point.
Her pathetic attempt at a laugh made her even sadder. “What choice do I have?”
The next half hour faded into a blur of Barnaby’s energetic activity, phone calls with mumbled conversations, and her own exhaustion.
At one point, his constant motion stopped when he stood over her, his arms filled to bursting with bags and supplies.
“I’m going to pack up the car. I’ll be back in a few minutes.”
She’d be here alone? Her heart thudded. Who was she to complain? It wasn’t as though she had many choices. “No problem.”
When he dashed out of the room, the emptiness around her felt like a mantle of fear and failure. She huddled, spine rigid, with the sheets clutched about her curled frame.
Until the door exploded inward.
She yelped, and a wave of sweat fired through her.
Chuck leered at her from the hallway.
Murmurs of nearby tenants drifted down to her, but the big man storming over to her consumed most of her senses.
“What are you ... how ...?” she managed.
“That stupid janitor used a fake address on his job application at the hospital, but one of his references had this address listed. What an idiot. Once we realized who kidnapped you, Thompson sent me here to ... get you out of here.”
He pulled a compact pistol. A Sig Sauer, if her weapons training remained relevant.
Relevant for the next few seconds, at least.
Jane’s stomach dropped out from under her.
Chuck snorted. “We tried the nice way to get you to shut up.”
“What? By drugging me into oblivion?” She didn’t care if she riled him. Thompson and his cronies had taken everything. The least they could do was provide some answers before killing her.
“Thompson wanted to know what you told the DEA so he could plan his next business move, but at this point, screw that. Damn idiot still wanted you alive to try to make more little Thompsons. Go figure. In my opinion, he should have killed you at the very beginning. Doesn’t matter now. You’re history. Problem solved.” He chuckled. “Killed escaping the loony bin.”
The big man took one step closer. Then another. The rock rhythm of BTO’s “Takin’ Care of Business” punctuated his steps. Fitting.
She flexed, testing her muscle strength. Not much defense to offer other than flopping to the floor.
With any luck, Chuck would throw his back out bending over to shoot her.
No such luck.
What an inglorious end to her career. Shot dead, wrapped in nothing but a sheet. When they did the autopsy, they’d find her hopped up on antibiotics with traces of God-knew-what drugs in her bloodstream. They’d know she was recovering from a horrendous miscarriage, so maybe chalk it up to hormones making her crazy. The DEA would label her a rogue, and rightly so, and then ... what?
Nothing.
Nowhere to send her body.
No one to mourn.
How had her life come down to this pathetic end?
What about Barnaby? He was about to walk into the barrel of Chuck’s gun.
The nasty man flicked the safety and aimed.
“Say bye-bye, honey.”
“No, wait!” she shouted.
He froze for only a moment, but that’s all that was needed.
In a blur she couldn’t follow, Barnaby flew through the open door and hit the man like a vertical projectile. The gun fired, and the couch shuddered as a puff of fiberfill and fabric drifted out of a hole in the cushion.
Her right ear rang, but she could still hear snapping bones and screams.
Another gunshot and Barnaby rolled away, blood coating the front of his shirt. He didn’t move.
Oh God, Barnaby.
Chuck staggered back to his feet, fumbling for the gun with the hand that wasn’t attached to a broken arm.
“I’ve killed him. Now you’re next,” he growled.
His arm shook as he raised the gun once more.
Well, that was it.
Life, nice while it lasted.
Actually, no, it kind of sucked eggs while it lasted. Maybe death would be better.
Before she had a chance to test her theory, Barnaby sprang like a tightly coiled Lazarus, smacking the gun to the floor and grabbing the man’s broken arm until Chuck collapsed with a howl.
Barnaby reached under the hem of his Levi’s and extracted a dangerous-looking knife.
The blade glowed green.
As he flicked a glance up at Jane and then back to Chuck, she caught the eerie green glow of the knife reflected in Barnaby’s black eyes. She froze.
Growling, he sat on top of the man. He grabbed Chuck’s jaw and turned it so the man had no choice but to look with horror at Barnaby’s rictus of a grin.
“You will never hurt her,” Barnaby snarled.
Chuck mumbled something she couldn’t hear.
“Don’t care,” Barnaby said.
And plunged the knife hilt-deep into the man’s chest, then twisted.
He shoved his hand over Chuck’s scream and rode the twitching body for a few seconds until the man didn’t move.
It wasn’t until Barnaby swiveled his head around to stare at Jane that she realized she’d clapped her own hands over her open mouth.
The brief flicker of ecstasy on Barnaby’s face as he closed his eyes and sighed made her nauseous.
With an efficiency of movement that suggested this wasn’t the first time he’d made this move, Barnaby used the dead man’s pants to clean the blade and slid the knife back into the sheath on his leg.
“Let’s go.”
“What?”
He couldn’t be serious. Go with him? Who was he? What was he? Nothing about Barnaby felt completely human. Not the speed of his attack, not his bizarre strength. And certainly not the part where he had been resurrected from a point-blank gunshot to the chest.
She should be calling for help.
And then what?
Shouts and doors slamming brought her back to reality.
She had limited choices, and none were good.
“Jane.” Still kneeling on the floor over the silent body, he held a bloody hand out to her. “Please, I want to help you.”
She shook her head. “By doing ... this?”
“If I have to, yes. I was prepared to do the same thing in Vietnam if it meant keeping you safe.”
Oh God. “What? ... how? ... what are you?” Her mind couldn’t even form the questions that needed to be asked.
“I can’t— Shite. Please believe that I would never hurt you.” He stared at his hand and wiped it on his pants, as though that would somehow help.
“I don’t know.”
Footsteps pounded down the hall.
“Jane, please.”
This moment, right here, with Jane wrapped in a sheet on a beige couch in a beige room of a supernaturally strong man who killed people—this moment was where the two paths of her life waited. She’d picked a bad path before. So what about now? She could take the leap of faith with a killer who had kept her safe in ungodly situations or stay here, go to the police, and risk Thompson, commitment, and death.
Not so big of a choice, when put that way.