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Dear Diary,

Hi, it’s me, Cecily. I think I should come up with a better name for you since you’re brand-new. Thank you, Ingrid, for this fab Christmas gift. Don’t know why I’m thanking her here since she can’t see this (AT LEAST I HOPE SHE WON’T SEE THIS!) but anyway.

So, hmmm. Where to start? Well, the thing is, I still have feelings for Mara. Sometimes they go away or maybe they’re just in the back of my mind when I’m busy but then when I see her for a long span of time or talk to her, I feel like I like her again.

She just looks at me in a different way than anyone else. And I can’t explain it; I just want to be near her. I mean, I know I bailed on the summer trip with her, and I felt bad about it but it was the right decision. But now I like her all over again.

UGGG!!!

I never want to text first because I hate waiting around for her to text back. It stresses me out waiting for those three dots that show she’s typing.

This is a depressing way to start you, my new beautiful journal, but what can I do?

Here’s some happy news, though: TODAY IS A SNOW DAY! SO WOO! Maybe she’ll come sledding . . .

Xoxoxo Cecily

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