From Poems 1953

(1953)

TO CALLIOPE

Permit me here a simple brief aside,

Calliope,

You who have shown such patience with my pride

And obstinacy:

Am I not loyal to you? I say no less

Than is to say;

If more, only from angry-heartedness,

Not for display.

But you know, I know, and you know I know

My principal curse:

Shame at the mounting dues I have come to owe

A devil of verse,

Who caught me young, ingenuous and uncouth,

Prompting me how

To evade the patent clumsiness of truth –

Which I do now.

No: nothing reads so fresh as I first thought,

Or as you could wish –

Yet must I, when far worse is eagerly bought,

Cry stinking fish?

THE STRAW

Peace, the wild valley streaked with torrents,

A hoopoe perched on his warm rock. Then why

This tremor of the straw between my fingers?

What should I fear? Have I not testimony

In her own hand, signed with her own name

That my love fell as lightning on her heart?

These questions, bird, are not rhetorical.

Watch how the straw twitches and leaps

As though the earth quaked at a distance.

Requited love; but better unrequited

If this chance instrument gives warning

Of cataclysmic anguish far away.

Were she at ease, warmed by the thought of me,

Would not my hand stay steady as this rock?

Have I undone her by my vehemence?

THE FOREBODING

Looking by chance in at the open window

I saw my own self seated in his chair

With gaze abstracted, furrowed forehead,

Unkempt hair.

I thought that I had suddenly come to die,

That to a cold corpse this was my farewell,

Until the pen moved slowly upon paper

And tears fell.

He had written a name, yours, in printed letters:

One word on which bemusedly to pore –

No protest, no desire, your naked name,

Nothing more.

Would it be tomorrow, would it be next year?

But the vision was not false, this much I knew;

And I turned angrily from the open window

Aghast at you.

Why never a warning, either by speech or look,

That the love you cruelly gave me could not last?

Already it was too late: the bait swallowed,

The hook fast.

CRY FAUGH!

Caria and Philistia considered

Only pre-marital adventures wise;

The bourgeois French argue contrariwise.

Socrates and Plato burked the issue

(Namely, how man-and-woman love should be)

With homosexual ideology.

Apocalyptic Israelites, foretelling

The Imminent End, called only for a chaste

Sodality: all dead below the waist.

Curious, various, amoral, moral –

Tell me, what elegant square or lumpish hamlet

Lives free from nymphological disquiet?

‘Yet males and females of the lower species

Contrive to eliminate the sexual problem,’

Scientists ponder: ‘Why not learn from them?’

Cry faugh! on science, ethics, metaphysics,

On antonyms of sacred and profane –

Come walk with me, love, in a golden rain

Past toppling colonnades of glory,

The moon alive on each uptilted face:

Proud remnants of a visionary race.

HERCULES AT NEMEA

Muse, you have bitten through my fool’s-finger.

Fierce as a lioness you seized it

In your white teeth most amorously;

And I stared back, dauntless and fiery-eyed,

Challenging you to maim me for my pride.

See me a fulvous hero of nine fingers –

Sufficient grasp for bow and arrow.

My beard bristles in exultation:

Let all Nemea look and understand

Why you have set your mark on this right hand.

DIALOGUE ON THE HEADLAND

She: You’ll not forget these rocks and what I told you?

He: How could I? Never: whatever happens.

She: What do you think might happen?

Might you fall out of love? – did you mean that?

He: Never, never! ‘Whatever’ was a sop

For jealous listeners in the shadows.

She: You haven’t answered me. I asked:

‘What do you think might happen?’

He: Whatever happens: though the skies should fall

Raining their larks and vultures in our laps –

She: ‘Though the seas turn to slime’ – say that –

‘Though water-snakes be hatched with six heads.’

He: Though the seas turn to slime, or tower

In an arching wave above us, three miles high –

She: ‘Though she should break with you’ – dare you say that?

‘Though she deny her words on oath.’

He: I had that in my mind to say, or nearly;

It hurt so much I choked it back.

She: How many other days can’t you forget?

How many other loves and landscapes?

He: You are jealous?

She:                  Damnably.

He:                               The past is past.

She: And this?

He:               Whatever happens, this goes on.

She: Without a future? Sweetheart, tell me now:

What do you want of me? I must know that.

He: Nothing that isn’t freely mine already.

She: Say what is freely yours and you shall have it.

He: Nothing that, loving you, I could dare take.

She: O, for an answer with no ‘nothing’ in it!

He: Then give me everything that’s left.

She: Left after what?

He:            After whatever happens:

Skies have already fallen, seas are slime,

Watersnakes poke and peer six-headedly –

She: And I lie snugly in the Devil’s arms.

He: I said: ‘Whatever happens.’ Are you crying?

She: You’ll not forget me – ever, ever, ever?

LOVERS IN WESTER

The posture of the tree

Shows the prevailing wind;

And ours, long misery

When you are long unkind.

But forward, look, we lean –

Not backward as in doubt –

And still with branches green

Ride our ill weather out.

ESAU AND JUDITH

Robbed of his birthright and his blessing

Esau sought refuge in the wilderness,

An outlaw girding at the world’s deceit.

He took to wife Judith, daughter of Heth,

Tall and grey-eyed, a priestess of her grove.

The curse lay heavy on their marriage-couch.

She was that sea which God had held corrupt;

Her tides he praised and her curvetting fish,

Though with no comprehension of their ways;

As a man blind from birth fondly adores

Fantasies of imagined gold and blue –

The curse lay heavy on their marriage-couch.

For how might Esau strive against his blood?

Had Isaac and Rebekah not commanded:

‘Take thee a daughter from thy father’s house!’ –

Isaac who played the pander with Rebekah,

Even as Abraham had done with Sarah?

The curse lay heavy on their marriage-couch.

THE MARK

If, doubtful of your fate,

You seek to obliterate

And to forget

The counter-mark I set

In the warm blue-veined nook

Of your elbow crook,

How can you not repent

The experiment?

No knife nor fang went in

To lacerate the skin;

Nor may the eye

Tetter or wen descry:

The place which my lips pressed

Is coloured like the rest

And fed by the same blood

Of womanhood.

Acid, pumice-stone,

Lancings to the bone,

Would be in vain.

Here must the mark remain

As witness to such love

As nothing can remove

Or blur, or hide,

Save suicide.

WITH THE GIFT OF A RING

If one of thy two loves be wroth

And cry: ‘Thou shalt not love us both,

Take one or ’tother!’, O then choose

Him that can nothing thee refuse!

Only a rogue would tear a part,

How small soever, from thy heart;

As Adam sought to plunder Eve’s

(What time they clad themselves in leaves),

Conjuring her to make an end

Of dalliance with her cursèd friend –

Too late, now she had learned to tell

False love from true, and ill from well.

LIADAN AND CURITHIR

Even in childhood

Liadan never would

Accept love simply,

But stifled longing

And went away to sing

In strange company.

Alas, for Liadan!

To fear perfection

Was her ill custom:

Choosing a scruple

That might seem honourable,

For retreat therefrom.

Herself she enticed

To be nunned for Christ,

Though in marriage sought

By a master-poet

On whom her heart was set –

Curithir of Connaught;

And raised a wall

As it were of crystal

Her grief around.

He might not guess

The cause of her fickleness

Nor catch one sound.

She was walled soon after

Behind stones and mortar,

From whence too late

He heard her keening,

Sighing and complaining

Of her dire self-hate.

THE SEA HORSE

Since now in every public place

Lurk phantoms who assume your walk and face,

You cannot yet have utterly abjured me

Nor stifled the insistent roar of sea.

Do as I do: confide your unquiet love

(For one who never owed you less than love)

To this indomitable hippocamp,

Child of your element, coiled a-ramp,

Having ridden out worse tempests than you know of;

Under his horny ribs a blood-red stain

Portends renewal of our pain.

Sweetheart, make much of him and shed

Tears on his taciturn dry head.

THE DEVIL AT BERRY POMEROY

Snow and fog unseasonable,

The cold remarkable,

Children sickly;

Green fruit lay thickly

Under the crab-tree

And the wild cherry.

I heard witches call

Their imps to the Hall:

‘Hey, Ilemauzar,

Sack-and-Sugar,

Peck-in-the-Crown,

Come down, come down!’

I heard bells toll

For a monster’s soul

That was born, half dead,

With a double head;

I saw ghosts leap

From the ruined keep;

I saw blows thwack

On the raw back

Of a dying ass.

Blight was on the grass,

Poison in the cup

(Lover, drink up!),

With envy, slander,

Weasels a-wander,

Incest done

Between mother and son,

Murder of hags

For their money-bags,

Wrath, rape,

And the shadowy ape

Which a lady, weeping,

Leads by a string

From first twilight

Until past midnight

Through the Castle yard –

‘Blow winds, blow hard!’

So the Devil snaps his chain

And renews his reign

To the little joy

Of Berry Pomeroy.

REPROACH TO JULIA

Julia: how Irishly you sacrifice

Love to pity, pity to ill-humour,

Yourself to love, still haggling at the price.

DETHRONEMENT

With pain pressing so close about your heart,

Stand (it behoves you), head uncovered,

To watch how she enacts her transformations –

Bitch, vixen, sow – the laughing, naked queen

Who has now dethroned you.

Hymns to her beauty or to her mercy

Would be ill-conceived. Your true anguish

Is all that she requires. You, turned to stone,

May not speak nor groan, shall stare dumbly,

Grinning dismay.

But as the play ends, or in its after-hush,

O then, deluded, flee! Her red-eared hounds

Scramble upon your track; past either cheek

Swan-feathered arrows whistle, or cruelly comb

Long furrows in your scalp.

Run, though you hope for nothing: to stay your foot

Would be ingratitude, a sour denial

That the life she bestowed was sweet.

Therefore be fleet, run gasping, draw the chase

Up the grand defile.

They will rend you to rags assuredly

With half a hundred love-bites –

Your hot blood an acceptable libation

Poured to Persephone, in whose domain

You shall again find peace.

CAT-GODDESSES

A perverse habit of cat-goddesses –

Even the blackest of them, black as coals

Save for a new moon blazing on each breast,

With coral tongues and beryl eyes like lamps,

Long-leggèd, pacing three by three in nines –

This obstinate habit is to yield themselves,

In verisimilar love-ecstasies,

To tatter-eared and slinking alley-toms

No less below the common run of cats

Than they above it; which they do for spite,

To provoke jealousy – not the least abashed

By such gross-headed, rabbit-coloured litters

As soon they shall be happy to desert.

THE BLUE-FLY

Five summer days, five summer nights,

The ignorant, loutish, giddy blue-fly

Hung without motion on the cling peach,

Humming occasionally: ‘O my love, my fair one!’

As in the Canticles.

Magnified one thousand times, the insect

Looks farcically human; laugh if you will!

Bald head, stage-fairy wings, blear eyes,

A caved-in chest, hairy black mandibles,

Long spindly thighs.

The crime was detected on the sixth day.

What then could be said or done? By anyone?

It would have been vindictive, mean and what-not

To swat that fly for being a blue-fly,

For debauch of a peach.

Is it fair, either, to bring a microscope

To bear on the case, even in search of truth?

Nature, doubtless, has some compelling cause

To glut the carriers of her epidemics –

Nor did the peach complain.

RHEA

On her shut lids the lightning flickers,

Thunder explodes above her bed,

An inch from her lax arm the rain hisses;

Discrete she lies,

Not dead but entranced, dreamlessly

With slow breathing, her lips curved

In a half-smile archaic, her breast bare,

Hair astream.

The house rocks, a flood suddenly rising

Bears away bridges: oak and ash

Are shivered to the roots – royal green timber.

She nothing cares.

(Divine Augustus, trembling at the storm,

Wrapped sealskin on his thumb; divine Gaius

Made haste to hide himself in a deep cellar,

Distraught by fear.)

Rain, thunder, lightning: pretty children.

‘Let them play,’ her mother-mind repeats;

‘They do no harm, unless from high spirits

Or by mishap.’

THE HERO

This prince’s immortality was confirmed

With envious rites paid him by such poor souls

As, dying, were condemned to flit like bats

In endless caverns of oblivion:

For he alone, amid excessive keening,

Might voyage to that island paradise,

In the red West,

Where bees come thronging to the apple flow

And thrice three damsels in a tall house

Tend the mead-vat of inspiration.

They feel no envy now, those poor souls.

Did not some bald Cilician sell them

Mansions in Heaven, and at a paltry price:

Offering crowns of gold for scabbed heads,

Robes of state for vitiliginous backs?

No blood is poured now at the hero’s tomb,

No prayers intoned,

The island paradise is unfrequented,

And neither Finn, nor Ogier, nor Arthur,

Returns to prophesy our common doom.

MARGINAL WARNING

Prejudice, as the Latin shows,

Means that you follow your own nose

Like an untutored spaniel; hence,

A nose being no good evidence

That Farmer Luke hangs from a limb

With cart-rope tightly trussing him,

Till twelve unblinking pairs of eyes

Can view the corpse and authorize

A coroner to shake his head

For: ‘Gentlemen, this man is dead’,

Your blind prognostication is

Roundly condemned as prejudice;

And should you further speculate,

Snuffing once more, upon what date

His cowman strung him to the tree:

The case being now sub judice,

Contempt of court will be the cry

To challenge and arrest you by –

What will your children think of you,

Docked of your nose and your ears too?

THE ENCOUNTER

Soon after dawn in hottest June (it may

For all I know, have been Midsummer’s Day)

An hour at which boulevardiers are few,

From either end of the grand avenue

Flanked with basilicas and palaces

And shaded by long rows of ancient trees,

A man drew near, his lips in rage compressed,

Marching alone, magnificently dressed –

This, rose on green; that, mulberry on gold –

Two tall unyielding men of the same mould

Who wore identical helmets, cloaks and shoes

And long straight swords they had well learned to use,

Both being luckless fellows, paired by fate

In bonds of irremediable hate.

Closer they steered: although the walk was wide,

A scant inch served as margin to their pride.

The encounter surely could but end in blows;

Yet neither thought to tweak his enemy’s nose,

Or jostle him, or groan, or incur guilt

By a provocative grasp at the sword hilt,

Each setting such reliance on mischance

He sauntered by without a sidelong glance.

I’M THROUGH WITH YOU FOR EVER

The oddest, surely, of odd tales

Recorded by the French

Concerns a sneak thief of Marseilles

Tried by a callous Bench.

His youth, his innocency, his tears –

No, nothing could abate

Their sentence of ‘One hundred years

In galleys of the State.’

Nevertheless, old wives affirm

And annalists agree,

He sweated out the whole damned term,

Bowed stiffly, and went free.

Then come, my angry love, review

Your sentence of today.

‘For ever’ was unjust of you,

The end too far away.

Give me four hundred years, or five –

Can rage be so intense? –

And I will sweat them out alive

To prove my impenitence.

WITH HER LIPS ONLY

This honest wife, challenged at dusk

At the garden gate, under a moon perhaps,

In scent of honeysuckle, dared to deny

Love to an urgent lover: with her lips only,

Not with her heart. It was no assignation;

Taken aback, what could she say else?

For the children’s sake, the lie was venial;

‘For the children’s sake’, she argued with her conscience.

Yet a mortal lie must follow before dawn:

Challenged as usual in her own bed,

She protests love to an urgent husband,

Not with her heart but with her lips only;

‘For the children’s sake’, she argues with her conscience,

‘For the children’ – turning suddenly cold towards them.

THE BLOTTED COPY-BOOK

He broke school bounds, he dared defy

The Master’s atrabilious eye,

Diced, swigged raw brandy, used foul oaths,

Wore shamelessly Corinthian clothes,

And taught St Dominic’s to mock

At gown and hood and whipping-block.

The boy’s a nabob now, retired

With wealth enough to be admired

Even by the School Governors

(Benignly sycophantic bores)

Who call on him to give away

Prize-medals on Foundation Day.

Will he at last, or will he not,

His yellowing copy-book unblot:

Accede, and seriously confess

A former want of seriousness,

Or into a wild fury burst

With: ‘Let me see you in Hell first!’?

THE SACRED MISSION

The ungainsayable, huge, cooing message

Hurtles suddenly down the dawn streets:

Twenty loudspeakers, twenty lovesick voices

Each zealous to enlarge his own range

And dominate the echoing border-zones.

Now the distressed whimper of little children,

The groans of sick men cheated in their hope

Of snatching a light sleep from the jaws of pain,

The curses, even, of the unregenerate –

All are submerged in the rising sea of noise

Which floods each room and laps round every pillow,

Roaring the mercy of Christ’s limitless love.

FROM THE EMBASSY

I, an ambassador of Otherwhere

To the unfederated states of Here and There

Enjoy (as the phrase is)

Extra-territorial privileges.

With heres and theres I seldom come to blows

Or need, as once, to sandbag all my windows.

And though the Otherwhereish currency

Cannot be quoted yet officially,

I meet less hindrance now with the exchange

Nor is my garb, even, considered strange;

And shy enquiries for literature

Come in by every post, and the side door.

SIROCCO AT DEYÁ

How most unnatural-seeming, yet how proper;

The sea like a cat with fur rubbed the wrong way,

As the sirocco with its furnace flavor

Dashes at full tilt around the village

[‘From every-which-a-way, hot as a two-buck pistol’]

Stripping green olives from the blown-back boughs,

Scorching the roses, blinding the eyes with sand;

While slanderous tongues in the small cafés

And in the tightly-shuttered limestone houses

Clack defamation, incite and invite

Knives to consummate their near-murders….

Look up, a great grey cloud broods nonchalant

On the mountain-top nine hundred feet above us,

Motionless and turgid, blotting out the sun,

And from it sneers a supercilious Devil:

‘Mere local wind: no messenger of mine!’