I stand in this valley
watching how the yellow-green grass
stretches up the blue mountain
against the coral-colored sky—
and I am reminded
no matter the times
my weary heart has tried,
nothing can wash away
the richness of these lands,
where silence is stronger than thunder.
My gratitude as steady as the hills,
I want to surrender to
gravity
remembering it is okay to feel small out here
as one of a billion divinely intentioned parts
of the morning hymn that has always been in you—
then sings my soul
How Great Thou Art.
And the thing about blooming is, nothing about the process is easy. It requires every part of you to stretch upward, with your roots firmly planted in the ground; and in the sun, and in the rain, and wind, you stand anyway, even against the pull of the soil. And through it all, one day you will see all along you were transforming. This took everything out of you, but the struggle was beautiful and necessary for your growth.
Amidst all the pressure
to keep going and to keep going,
may you also take time to learn the art of being;
being Loved,
being Held,
being Seen,
being in the Presence
of the One
who calls you
to rest.
For beyond your accomplishments
and your calendars, and your lists,
you were made with purpose and intention
to reflect Glorious Light
and to abide in Love
that reminds you
even in the pause
you are still
where you need to be.
No matter
how yesterday
unfolded before your eyes
and no matter the stacks of worries
burdening your mind
that have left you unsettled
or confused,
Light is still pouring in
reminding you over and over again
to surrender,
to let go,
for these troubles
are bound to shadows
that cannot survive in this new light.
Bask in these beams of sun
as you find your new beginnings,
a new way of seeing,
a grace-filled way
of living.
Oh, how steady
hope makes the soul
in the river rush of things
you cannot control.
For somehow through it all,
you have still been made whole.
Because as sure as the water
makes way
past the river stones,
so does hope carry you
past the depth
of your unknowns,
under fogged and white-gray skies
that demand
the most of tired eyes,
the sound of the rushing river
gently speaks:
all is passing,
truly passing.
What if all the imperfections
and the flaws
were only part of your story—
not the sum of who you are?
What if all along,
you were made to be beautiful,
and it was only the dirt from this broken world
that made you doubt your shining self?
And what if you were not alone,
as you once thought,
and when a friend
told you
she would be there,
she truly meant it?
What if for every time you were afraid,
you remember how you were brave,
and it only escaped your memory
because bravery is
natural these days?
Perhaps there are a million reasons
to never take the leap,
to never take the time to think
your presence means anything,
but I hope you know
there are more reasons to believe
this life is worth living for.
I hope you can look down
into that warped well of your imperfections
knowing whatever you find there
can never even compare
to the greatness in your soul,
shining wildly through.
Where is strength found?
not only in the highs,
but neither only
in the lows.
It is found in the grasslands
and the wastelands
and the footpaths
in between them
in your laments
your anthems
and the quiet hours
in between.
strength
can arise
in these places,
unexpected.
In winter,
the trees are bare,
and the sun is glorious
casting silhouetted tree limbs.
The air blows cold around us.
We are seen.
We are known.
O Great Light
of the world,
be my guide,
be the Path
beneath my feet
when I feel
that I might sink.
Be the river
in the desert.
Be the storm when my soul
is torn and dry.
Be my hope,
be my treasure,
be my peace,
when I
am lost inside.
Be everything
when I am nothing,
be the Way
in the wild.
Be my guide.
Be my guide.
More than anything,
I hope you find your way home.
I hope you find
what speaks to your heart
like nothing else in the world
has spoken to you before.
As you sit in this terminal
hoping this new city
will be home,
the home that you’ve longed for
where your name will be safe,
where you will finally
belong—
as you’re here
lugging luggage,
bumping shoulders
of others charging through
with apparently important things to do,
and you’re berated by
the mechanic clattering of voices
citing numbers,
directions,
delays,
Alone
inching toward your unknown.
But take time
to listen
for the ever-present Voice
gently whispering,
“I’ll guide you.”
And may your love for traveling far
remind you of traveling grace
finding you here in the crowd
reminding you that you belong,
no matter where you are.
through all the times you fell
and all the times you ran
not knowing what was next
or where your feet would land,
and all that was lost in translation
of a language you could not understand,
even then,
you were known
and you were still
headed home.
in all that has changed
or stayed the same,
you have found comfort in the Voice
rising up above the noise:
“You are loved,
you are loved,
you are dearly, dearly loved,
and you’re worthy of the journey
of being.
You’re worthy of the journey
of finding home
in Me.”
Step into the unknown and learn
as you go.
Walk through fire and
come forth refined
as gold
and journey on.
You have been made new,
and you see
nothing is ordinary.
You are being called beyond the shore
to a place you have never been before.
The water may be colder there,
and the ocean floor may seem too far,
but you are going to learn more of who you are.
So keep your eyes open
as you venture out today.
These waters are new,
but do not be afraid.
You are only going to grow here,
as your eyes and heart become open
to the process of becoming.
Let us leave room
for bold adventure
and wake up at dawn
in search of wonder.
Let us find joy
in the grit
of the wonderlands
and look for Light
in everything.
For all along,
we were made for this:
to step fully
into unknowns,
to know deep
within the night,
within the soul,
we were not meant
to go alone.
In every single
moonlit tree,
we were meant
to see those leaves,
and we were meant
to see the beauty
in the swaying arms
of branches.
So let us find rest
in these woods
so new to us,
knowing
this is where
we will learn
to grow
to love
to trust.
This is life.
You have been pulled into the fierce winds
carrying you over the barren hills,
leaving you bruised
on the shores of this rocky coast.
Your eyes have been reopened.
This life is broken.
Come now,
come falling
on your knees
on this bed of sand
where the stones have washed away
and the softened earth awaits,
take all the time you need
to be undone
and breathe.
Through all that is changing,
there are practices
we must hold on to:
wisdom,
love,
gratitude.
Gratefulness for how life’s lessons
have shaped us,
and no matter
where the journey takes us,
we know we never go alone.
I want to be more than my ruins. I want to firmly plant my feet on top of the fallen columns of a house I built out of my pride. From death to life, I want to know the Love way of rising up, fully alive from the depths within me, letting this new way of life reshape my way of seeing.
WHILE YOU WAIT
FOR CLARITY
AND ANSWERS
TO PRAYERS
THAT HAVE PULLED ME
FROM MY SLEEP,
I WILL REST
WITH SWEET ASSURANCE
THAT DEEP WITHIN I HAVE THIS HOPE,
AN ANCHOR FOR MY SOUL,
“YOU WILL NOT SWIM THESE DEPTHS ALONE.”
And as you start to ascend,
you feel the force of heavy winds
and for the first time,
you wonder if you should give up,
turn around,
and go back down
the mountain
and find a smaller hill to climb.
This is a broken place,
and you are treading on splintered ground,
trying to make sense of your progress,
and where you thought
you’d be by now.
And what was familiar is now too distant,
and what was unknown is now too close,
and you are wondering what to keep
and what to just let go.
But now that you’re here, let it be.
Slow down and let it be.
Find new rhythms
in the silence
to cling to lasting peace,
knowing well within your soul
you will have the strength you need
to make it through
these unknowns.
Decorate with flowers
or words
or music and
open the door for an old friend.
Just be there,
and listen,
without a word—
human to human,
heart to heart.
We are all
blooming,
and as we breathe this same air,
side by side,
we are reminded
at our core,
how similar we are.
What can we say
of this day?
It is here
this one time
and then
never will be again.
But we made time to see
the way autumn burns leaves
in the park
and
the thousands of footsteps,
hundreds of faces,
dozens of taxis,
making note of the little ways
life was pouring in.
I HOPE YOU SEE BEAUTY
IN FULL MOONS,
IN FULL BLOOMS,
AND IN THE SOUND OF RAIN.
I HOPE YOU FIND JOY
IN WHAT IS CHANGING
AND IN WHAT IS FAITHFUL
AND HAS STAYED THE SAME.
I will let life in.
I will not concern myself
gathering gold and silver
that can be taken from me.
I have to trust there is more to me
that goes beyond what I can see.
There is more to me
than what I know today.
I will stretch my hands up to the sky,
to say, “I am afraid but I will try,”
remembering
the sea was split in two
the veil was torn in two
so I could know deep
within my soul,
what it means to be Free.
I will not hold back,
for Love
has not
held back on me.
It is easy to admire
the grandeur of
mountains
while failing to mention
the lack of oxygen
at their altitudes.
But I find gratitude
climbing
a little closer
to the sky,
rising up
from the surrounding land.
I catch my breath
and I stand.
We stand tall in the high grass with wind on our backs and hope in our lungs.
We belong in this life.
There is a place for all of us here, by grace, there is a place for all of us here.
THERE IS MORE TO KNOW
AND MORE TO SEE,
AND ALL OF YOUR LIFE’S
MOST COLORFUL STORIES
WILL PREPARE YOU
FOR WHO YOU NEED TO BE.
No matter the doorkeepers
who told you that you were not welcome,
leaving you to wander
out into the margins
of a crowded city,
into the alleyways
late into the night—
beneath the wounds of their words,
there is still this lasting truth:
you are not doomed
to be lost forever.
You are free to find comfort.
You are free to be at rest
and be at home
in your wilderness,
exhaling
involuntarily,
free,
knowing there will be other doors
that will open up to you.
But in the meantime,
out here,
you have been found in the peace
in the piano music
drifting down
from the stairwell,
to carry on while waiting,
feeling secure
from here, within
right where you are.
And may you raise your tired hands
in Spirit and in Truth
knowing deep within your soul
by grace, you’ll make it through.
You’ll look back on days like this
with blessed, warm relief
that in the darkness you still chose
to see the Light in everything.
You have endured
storms passing through,
and even though they shook you to your bones,
they did not stay with you.
Nothing more than yesterday’s evening rain,
and though the ground is still damp in the morning,
this day is brand-new.
And it is okay if there are days
when you feel a little out of frame
and you hear rumbles of thunder
from where you thought the sky had cleared.
Though you cannot control the storm
it cannot hold you forever.
This is what the soul knows.
Light still fills the sky,
and though your heart gets heavy,
and your eyes have struggled
to find
the stars above
the streetlights,
you are free
to believe
Light is still
pouring in,
above,
around,
beneath,
within.
AND WHEN YOU GO
INTO THAT DEEP NIGHT
AND YOU FIND
UNBRIDLED FOOTPATHS
AND STARLESS SKIES,
MAY YOU KNOW
EVEN THEN
A FIRE BURNS WITHIN
AND WITH EVERY BREATH
IT IS REKINDLED
OVER AND OVER AGAIN.