twelve

So far, my least favorite thing is the pants.

Corvin and I stretch out on the roof, our elbows over the apex. He fiddles with knobs on his binoculars, though how he can see anything on this moonless night is anybody’s guess. A streetlamp casts a murky pallor over the gated doorway of the workhouse across the street.

“It’s the chafing,” I whisper. “My thighs are not used to all this excitement.”

“I wear pants like this every day.” Corvin peers through the binoculars. “Your thighs can handle it.”

I squint into the darkness. “Yours aren’t so tight. And Orm did just pull a bullet out of me. Not the sort of thing you want tweed rubbing against.”

“One would think you’d be more concerned with the goddamn slice you made in your own throat with Fir’s saber.”

A black scarf tied around my neck hides the bandage. The cut stings when I move my head, but it will heal. Besides, it was worth it.

“None of the Fog Walkers wonder if I’m really a redwing now, though,” I whisper.

Corvin laughs. “No. No, you’re right about that. You’re out of your mind, but you’re right.” He looks at me. “You’ve got to start taking better care of yourself, Redwing. I see you’ve got part of an ear gone as well. You’re starting to look like a half-plucked alley hen.”

“Oh, that.” I finger the ear the stritch whip sliced. “I just need a new hairstyle.”

I flash him a cheeky smile and his expression softens. It catches me off guard, and for a moment, we look at each other in silence. He seems like he’s about to say something, but a sound from below steals his attention.

A figure approaches from inside the gate, indistinct in the night mist. “Here she is,” Corvin whispers, and we are both silent, tense. I’m still not entirely sure how this game is played or what the teams are.

The figure swings the gate open slowly and pauses, looking up and down the street. The streetlight illuminates an old woman’s face. There is something shifty about her, her patchy coat and rough edges. The way her eyes squint in the dim light.

I frown and lean over to Corvin, my words the barest whisper in his ear. “Who is she?”

He leans his head in my direction. “Teppa the Fowl. We can’t talk to her here. She’ll just run back inside, and I’m not about to tangle with the workhouse guards. Got to get her out in the open.”

Satisfied, she closes the gate behind her and hurries off. In an instant, we are up and following swiftly.

We keep to the rooftops, our black attire sometimes hiding us even from each other as we trail her. I try to keep pace with Corvin as he slips under pipes and over pitches, in and out of the darkness of gables and the striped shadows of iron balconies. The old woman moves below, winding through garbage-strewn alleys and broad cobblestone streets. I am a tiny bit grateful for the snug tweed now, as I brush against jagged edges and squeeze through openings that might have been made difficult by the fullness of my not-as-stylish-as-Jey’s stylish pants.

At last the woman stops at a well-lit storefront: FLOWERS OF THE FINEST SILK & PAPER. From a pitched roof across the way, Corvin and I watch as she pulls something from the recesses of her old coat and starts to fiddle with the door. “A simple flower merchant?” he whispers. “No scruples. None at all.” Then he gives me a nod and jumps down through the mist to the cobbled street. What did that nod mean? Am I supposed to follow? I refuse to jump from this height onto a recently shot leg.

Cursing under my breath, I grasp a nearby drainpipe and shimmy down, streaking my hands and clothes with rust. Corvin is already across the street, looming over the woman.

“Nope, nope, nope. No Temple jobs. Nope.” The woman shakes her frizzy white hair.

Corvin nods to me as I limp over to them. “Ah, Teppa, I hope you’ll enjoy meeting my new friend. Say hello.”

Teppa the Fowl’s vacant, staring eyes reflect dull light as she swings her head my way. “Speak, ruffian, or I’ll gut you.”

Corvin shakes his head condescendingly over her shoulder, but I am not so quick to dismiss her threats. She looks—potent.

“It’s a pleasure to meet you, Miss—er—Miss Teppa.” I hold out my hand in greeting as I have become accustomed to do, but she doesn’t acknowledge it.

“‘Miss Teppa,’ is it?” She rasps a laugh. “Where did you dig up this one, Corvin Blake? Another starry-eyed revolutionary ready to die for the Fog Walkers?” She leans in, the scent of soot and decay wafting over me. “Just be sure you’re ready, love, because die you will.”

“Shut up,” Corvin says severely. “Listen, I told you, we need to get into the detention level of the Temple of Rasus.”

“I am not your personal lockpick, you thugs,” the old woman spits, then coughs. “No deal.”

“Here’s my offer,” Corvin says. “You can either get us in with your slippery little fingers, or I’ll pick the lock myself with your bloody teeth.”

I look at him in astonishment. Threats, pistols, sabers—who are these Fog Walkers?

But Teppa the Fowl only laughs and puts a scabby hand on Corvin’s arm. “Ah, my Corvin Blake. If you are as handsome as you sound, then the gods truly had their vengeance in making me blind.”

*   *   *

Fir is waiting for us in High Ra Square, lounging against the giant obsidian redwing. The square is finally deserted, the temple beacons casting a strange, beautiful patchwork of soft light on the vast expanse of flagstones.

Fir stretches lazily as Corvin, Teppa, and I approach. She saunters over to us, one hand tucked in her pocket, the other gesturing to the enormous statue. “I see it now,” she says to me. “There is definitely a family resemblance.”

I ignore her. Corvin says quietly, “We go in the front, take the servants’ stairs to the detention level, and bring the prisoner out the way we came. The … new girl … is the priority. Fir and I will deal with any situations that present themselves.”

I swallow. The new girl is the priority. I know what that means, what he’s not saying. The redwing is the priority. Her life is the priority. Not her sister’s. Not ours.

“Risky,” Teppa says. “But it’s not my skin. I was coerced.”

“We can’t bring the prisoner out the damned front door,” Fir hisses. Corvin throws up his hands, but I jump in.

“No,” I say. “We don’t go out the front door. We go all the way down the servants’ stairs, to the lower kitchen. There’s a window in the pantry we can climb through.”

Teppa hacks out a laugh. “The new girl has done her schoolwork.”

Fir glares at me, but gives a crisp nod. “We enter in pairs,” she says. “If there’s anyone in the vestibule, we go all the way into the sanctuary as though we’re there to offer prayer, all right? When the vestibule is empty, we find the staircase.”

Corvin and Fir enter first, then Teppa the Fowl and me. Two high priests in black amble toward an ornate door, laughing softly at some joke as we pass through the gaping vestibule. They don’t pay us any notice, but Corvin and Fir cross all the way to the large doors to the sanctuary and go inside. Teppa follows, keeping only a foot or two behind them, so I hang back.

I have nearly reached the sanctuary when I hear the groan of old hinges. I turn to find a hunched figure emerging slowly from the ornate door in front of the black-clad priests. The priests stop their conversation and move aside, bowing low—so low that through the soft pattern of night light I see their knees touch the floor.

I give a start. Someone before whom even high priests kneel? It can’t be the Onyx Staff. I bite my cheeks, willing this to be true. And no, it isn’t him. It is an old man, who carries not a staff, but a basket. He is dressed in pink robes, elaborately ornamented with ribbon, and he moves with small, slippered steps. The Salt Throne. The most powerful priest in all of Caldaras.

To my horror, he turns his head and fixes me with a gaze. It is too dim to see his eyes well, but the meaning of the gloved hand he extends in my direction is clear: Come here.

I give a panicked look toward the sanctuary. No sign of the others. I look back at the Salt Throne, who is as still as the stone pillar next to which he stands. He holds his hand out patiently.

What can I do but go to him? It would be far worse to disobey. At least now I have some small chance of coming out of this unscathed.

The high priests step back, smiling. What do they know? Am I done for? Or are they just … smiling?

“Good evening, Beloved,” the Salt Throne says in a thin voice. “Welcome to the temple. I am on my way to offer nightkiss petals to the holy fountain.”

I bow low. Something tells me this isn’t an occasion for a handshake. “Good evening…” Wet hell, I don’t know what to call him. “Good evening, Beloved,” I say.

The high priests both gasp. Ver’s ass, I’ve fouled it up; royally, by the sound of it. But the Salt Throne just looks at me. Then his wrinkled face ripples like water—a smile. “A term reserved for one’s equals or inferiors,” he says. “According to the Temple, that is. According to … me, I suppose.”

I bow again, lower, touching my knees to the floor. “I apologize, Your Benevolence, I—”

“‘Benevolence’ is reserved for the Onyx Staff,” the Salt Throne says, gesturing as one of the priests helps me to my feet again, “and I’ve always wondered if that was a bit of a joke. Most would call me, ‘Your Brilliance.’” Your Brilliance. I knew that! “In any case, there is no need to apologize, Beloved.”

I keep my eyes lowered. “I am honored by your greeting, but I am ashamed that I did not address you properly.” Please don’t have me boiled again. Or shoot me. Or slice my head off.

The Salt Throne puts a light hand on my shoulder. “I wanted to speak with you because my heart told me you had something valuable to say. And now I know it is this: We are all beloved of Rasus, the godking.” The priests make their open-palmed gesture; I try to follow suit but end up just kind of waving at them. “All of us, lowly and exalted, are equally warmed by the rays of the sun. All are beloved.” He closes his eyes. “Thank you.”

I don’t know what to say, other than, “You’re welcome.”

“Breathe easy,” he says, and the high priests echo, “Breathe easy.”

I bow, just a bend at the waist. “Breathe easy.” And the Salt Throne and the two black-clad priests proceed through the temple doors and out into the moonlight.

With the vestibule now empty, Fir, Corvin, and Teppa come through the sanctuary doors. “What did you say to him?” Fir asks as though she is accusing me of something.

“I said we were here to break into his private quarters and draw mustaches on all the Holy Engravings,” I say. Corvin snorts, but Fir shoots him a furious look, and suddenly he appears to be clearing his throat.

The doorway to the servants’ staircase is hidden behind the heavy golden curtains, but I remember where it is and find it in only a few short moments. Corvin raises his eyebrows in approval, but Fir just keeps watch, her intense gaze flitting from one corner of the room to the other.

We climb, careful of our footfalls. The detention level is one floor up, a narrow hallway that curves around the outside of the cavernous sanctuary. I do not expect to find the door locked; are servants not required to clean and deliver meals even here? But the others don’t seem surprised, and Teppa’s tools make short work of the lock. It is clear we need her.

Fir pokes her head out first, then motions for us to step out from the little stairwell. She is brave, I must admit. The bare hallway is a stark contrast to the lush fabrics and colors of the vestibule. Fir proceeds slowly, keeping to the shadows between the few weak lamps, and we follow, silent, always unsure of what we’ll find farther along the curve of the wall.

Suddenly, Fir stops, flattening herself against a darkened doorway. Teppa freezes, and I turn to Corvin, who exchanges a look with Fir and then nods. He gestures and I turn. Fir has tied a linen bandanna over her nose and mouth, and holds more out to us. I look to Corvin again, who has already tied a black bandanna just below his eyes and is pulling a satchel from his hip. Teppa and I put on our own bandannas, which smell like oil. I hold my breath as Corvin sidles past me along the wall. Slowly, he creeps past Fir, who slides back toward us, head turned to follow Corvin.

When he has almost disappeared from view, I see Corvin’s arm swing—he tosses something from the satchel farther down the curving hallway. Then he retreats, and we all press ourselves against the wall.

A few minutes pass before Fir begins to move forward once again. My heart jumps as the terrifying figure of a Temple guard comes into view, the spikes on his iron helmet casting severe shadows on the bare walls. But as we approach, I see that he is slumped over in his chair.

I turn to Corvin. “Star pods!” I whisper. “That’s what you’ve got in that satchel!”

I can’t see the smile under his bandanna, but it changes the shape of his eyes. “Also known as anysleep. I’m never without them.”

“They’re a nightmare to grow,” I say, impressed. “They’re such fragile little things. And they have a tendency to knock you unconscious. You must be quite a gardener.”

“He steals them,” Fir whispers. Corvin clears his throat. I’m beginning to wonder if he’s getting a cold. “Here,” Fir says, a hand on her hip. She stands just beyond the unconscious guard in front of a solid-looking door. “There won’t be any other guards. There isn’t much security in this area; the prisoners here are just detainees. Your sister may have been asked to come in for questioning simply because you were executed.”

“Well, they didn’t ask very nicely,” I mutter. I can still see our broken vase, the overturned furniture.

Fir shrugs as Teppa sets to work on the door. After a moment, Corvin pulls his bandanna down and gives the air a tentative sniff. “It’s fine,” he says. “Anysleep dissipates quickly.”

The rest of us cautiously pull down our own bandannas, but aside from a slight bitter mustiness, the hallway seems normal.

“That means he’ll be waking up in a few minutes,” Fir says. “Hurry up, Teppa, you revolting old skeleton.”

“Why don’t you stuff that oil rag in your mouth, villain?” Teppa says, clinking a jagged metal device into the lock. “It’d probably make your breath smell better.”

My eyes snap to Fir’s face, but instead of the rage I expected, she seems amused. I can’t help grinning. There is something about Teppa.

Whatever she has been rattling around in the lock gives a satisfying click, and she steps back. Fir turns the handle and gives the door a little shove. We wait, but nothing happens. All seems clear.

“Be quick,” Fir whispers as I slide by her. “We’ll keep watch out here.”

“Thanks,” I say. I meet her eyes when I say it, unintentionally, and it seems to throw her off a little. She gives a quick nod.

The room beyond looks more like a parlor than a jail cell. It’s certainly nothing like the dank, candlelit dungeon below the sanctuary. I move with caution, taking care not to disturb the graceful upholstered chairs or the thin-legged tables set with books and used teacups.

Between a gold velvet settee and an iron coatrack is a slender door, slightly ajar. I creep over to it and snake my head around the edge.

It is a modest room with two dressing tables and a row of beds. The prisoners on this level really have it nice, I think, remembering my hollow-eyed guard and her choking device. The room is dim, and it takes me a moment to make out a sleeping form.

I pad over to the bed, where a familiar lock of dark hair spills from under a floral-patterned blanket. I lean down, my face nearly touching the sheets. “Jey.” I touch her shoulder.

She shifts, extending her legs and sliding the blanket off her face. My sister cracks her eyes blearily, then opens them as wide as raptor eggs.

I put a finger to my lips and motion for her to follow me. Jey rises hesitantly and joins me in the parlor. I shut the door to the bedroom without a sound and signal for my sister to come with me. She doesn’t move; she is in shock. I go back to her, put my arms around her, and whisper, “It’s all right. I know somewhere safe we can go.”

Her body feels rigid and strange, and she keeps looking at me with those raptor-egg eyes. I take a step back. “Jey,” I whisper. “We must hurry.”

Then, slowly and without breaking eye contact, she shakes her head.

I grab her shoulders, and she shrinks. “What’s the matter with you?” I hiss. “I’ve come to get you out of here. But we mustn’t be caught—we have to go now!”

“No,” she whispers, so quietly I can barely hear her.

I release her. “What?”

“No,” she whispers again. “I … I know what you are.”

All I can do is stare at her. “What do you mean? What do you mean, you know what I am? You’ve always known … what I am.”

“I know more than that. More than you think.” She looks down. “You were never educated in the Temple, sister,” she says.

“That would have worked out well, I’m sure.”

“But I go.” Her voice shakes. “I go, and I listen. I thought they were going to—to rehabilitate you. Bonner said that the Onyx Staff would cast a healing light over you.”

“Bonner!” I can barely stop myself from shouting it. “Bonner is a cruel man, Jey! Listen to me—”

“No, you listen!” she says, sounding more like herself. “Do you think I wanted to get you killed? Do you think that was easy for me?”

I steady myself against an overly dainty chair. “You told the priests about me? That I would be coming home from the aviary that day?” The realization crawls over my skin like a thousand worms. No longer steady, my legs buckle and I sit heavily on the chair’s fine upholstery.

Jey wrings her hands. “Bonner didn’t say they would execute you! He said you would be cleansed. I—”

“It’s not your fault,” I say, trying to hide the tremble in my voice. “It’s Bonner’s fault. He lied to you, that—that eel of righteousness. He’s a lying scoundrel.”

“He’s not,” she says, unaware of how young she sounds. “I love him. We can’t choose whom we love.”

My cheeks heat up. “What you have with Bonner is not love!” I stop myself, inhaling deeply. “We have to get away from here.”

“No!” She paces away from me. “No, redwing. I understand now. I didn’t know before that you were a—a monster. I thought you were just like me.”

“I am just like you!”

Her eyes flash. “I saw the priest! The one whose face you burned off!”

I open my mouth, but no sound comes out. I can still see his blood-streaked face.

“And the other one!” Her words scratch with anger now. “His arms were in six pieces! Bonner brought those men here to show me what you really are.”

“Jey, they were trying to—”

“And I saw Bonner’s poor hands. His hands, sister. How could you?”

Oh, Jey, why must you be so trusting? My sister’s innocent faith in that vile young man has led us to this. She is safe for now, but to the unshakably righteous, eventually everyone begins to seem tarnished and wicked.

Jey’s voice quiets. “I am here for my own protection.” She glances back toward the bedroom. “The Beautiful Ones know you didn’t die. They said I had to come with them so they could keep me safe.”

“Is that so?” I clench the delicate arms of the chair. “Did you smash our birthday vase because you were so happy about being safe?”

She lowers her eyes. “I didn’t want to go at first. I didn’t understand.”

“Yes, you did.” I look at her face—my face. “You always understood.”

Now she stares back at me, hard. “They said you were an angry beast. That you would come for me. And you did.”

I jump to my feet. “I came to save you!”

Jey recoils. “Please! Please don’t hurt me, redwing. If you ever loved me at all, if there is anything human in you!”

I can’t speak. I stare at my sister cowering at the thought of leaving her prison.

“Bonner and I are going east tomorrow,” she says. “We’re going to join Papa. You won’t follow us there, will you?” She swallows. “They said you would seek revenge against Papa, too, once—once your mind starts to go. We’re going to take him away, and then you’ll never find us.”

Heat trickles down my face, worse than worms, worse than blood. In a fragile whisper, I ask, “Do you really believe all those things about me, Jey? Do you really want to go east with Bonner?”

She says nothing, but I can see her shaking. Jey, who has never been afraid of anything in her life, is afraid of me.

“I want to be far away from this madness,” she says, sniffing. “And you … you can be me now.”

“I’ll never be you,” I say. And for the first time in my life, I don’t want to.

I turn and walk silently from the room. I make sure to close the door behind me.