As Flames Were My Only Witness

Russell Erwin

After three days of wind pounding the midriff of hills

and nights of dry lightning fracturing the sky

into the crazing of old porcelain it was no surprise

when it came. In five minutes a towering cauliflower

was spilling white curds, froth and tumultuous blossom,

a fractal coolly replicating from a moment

that was now far below, with birds

like flakes of soot tossed in its turbulence,

their cries plangent and scattering, and consumed.

Driving beneath into that apricot-soft light

was like being inside an evangelist’s blimp:

a dome of chapel stillness, except for little flames

at the hem like small faces sneaking entry under.

For a moment there was a benign peace

as is said of those hazy, uncertain states:

the womb, anaesthesia, drowning.

We think we know silence, it is our blue Pacific:

the refrigerated, drained, arrhythmical kind,

and the cupped, hill-to-hill kind, with a dog’s bark

or the crack of a breaking branch to give it scale.

This was something else—dense and pressing,

even in that beguiling peace,

vast and lonely as the space that clears

the moment before judgement.