Under the Radar

Stephen Edgar

Flaring and fading like the blips

That flash an instant on a radar screen,

The bellbirds’ brilliant little flecks of sound

Illumine and eclipse

The points where silence has been slung between

The branches of the trees. Such flimsy tips

To bear the weight it gathers on the ground.

As when you wade through water, slowed

And heavy, hardly able to progress,

Your senses, working through this thick dimension

Of stillness, share its mode.

Each leaf glint, shadow, bird note, each impress

Of foot on twig that snaps beneath its load,

More slowly but more clearly holds attention.

Once all the world was this. Alone,

And dozing through the spell of midday heat,

You register that chittering outside,

A neighbour’s telephone,

The drone of traffic on a further street,

The ticking house – each floated overtone

Dragged by the soundless groundswell that they ride.

And so it was when you were led

To where her barely conscious form lay waiting

And silence held the burden of the room.

And leaning by the bed,

You swayed in that abeyance, concentrating

To hear far off her scarcely warranted

And weightless breathing falter, and resume.