A Dire Season

Judith Beveridge

from Devadatta’s Poems

A star had appeared in the night sky,

it was long and pointed as an adder’s tooth.

The moon rose putrescent, bloody. All our

elephants had turned viridian-eyed, wild.

Dozens of snakes hissed as though a fierce

wind blew. Many children fell ill,

tottered on legs like blown-up bladders.

All we could do was summon the Brahmins,

watch as they poured ghee over the altars

and burnt our cattle in sacrifice. After a week

we had little left to offer, though we still

dug fields, hauled water, turned the loam.

We all felt Kapilavatthu was done for,

that not one of those Brahmins had the verses

to save us. We drank bitter herbs,

flailed our skin with twigs we bought

from the broom makers, cut our arms

with shards from the potters’ workshops.

We fingered crimson beads and performed

small dry ceremonies in the dirt. Before

that season finally turned, I’d often long

for Siddhattha, for the little tunes he could play

on his thin, twisted stems of grass.

Something about his notes, their fine weaving

through the dusk. When I listened, I thought

of our clay daub, mud brick and whitewashed

town as a grand place, one whose streets

you could walk down squaring your shoulders,

knowing that the gods supped at the flames

that burnt on our altars. I don’t know

what Siddhattha heard in the notes.

Perhaps he foresaw the rise of the rivers,

border conflicts in the west, heard the screams

of our women and children, saw the smoke

and the fires, saw Kapilavatthu overrun

with Brahmins carrying slaughtered oxen

and antelope aloft from all our fire hearths—

all that blood and dung,

all the vulture feathers in their topknots.