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Violet had spent the eleven-minute bicycle ride to the Hansen house rehearsing how to bring up The Topic. Then she’d stepped into Khloe’s bedroom, plopped down in the blue beanbag chair, and lost every planned word. Small talk took over for an hour or two and then gave way to silence. She slouched into the beanbag chair. They had to talk about it. She had to mention it. Somehow.

Khloe sprawled on her stomach over the blue carpet, stretched out to her full length of four-foot-eleven. She always extended even her feet, as if to take up as much room as possible. Her hand swept a flesh-colored pencil over the sketchpad paper. A woman’s profile began to take shape.

From the dresser, her sound system emitted a low stream of music, some artist from at least a decade ago. Violet couldn’t figure out what Khloe had against current music. Come on, no dodging, just ask her. Best friends didn’t need a smooth-edged speech. Shouldn’t, anyway.

Khloe glanced up and rolled onto her back. Her strawberry blonde ponytail fanned out to the left of her face.

“I’m going crazy here. Just spill it, Vi. I want every detail.”

Violet swallowed. “What?”

“You didn’t text me all day, even when I sent you that link about the aquarium. You should’ve been bouncing up and down and planning a field trip and stuff. I was afraid you weren’t coming over at all.”

She should just say it. But with Khloe poking a pencil in her face, not a word squeaked out.

A grin cracked the rose-petal line of Khloe’s glossed lips. “I could guess. You could just nod or shake your head.”

“Khloe …”

Khloe pushed up from the floor and knelt close. “Fine, leave out some details, just tell me. How far did you get?”

Oh … “This has nothing to do with Austin.”

The smile inverted. “You guys still haven’t—?”

“Khloe, I know. About your dad. I know what’s going on.”

A story-weaving wrinkle gathered between Khloe’s eyes. She couldn’t possibly think she’d get away with the first lie in a decade of friendship.

Violet ran a thumb over her charm bracelet. “Thursday, when we made carrot cake, he wasn’t at that pub like you said he was. At first I thought he must have lied to you about it, and you didn’t know, but … you did. And you know where he really was.”

“He was at the pub like he said. Like I said.”

No way. Violet looked away from her, up at the fixed smiles of age-old singer/songwriter posters tacked on the wall over the lavender-quilted bed.

“Just so happens my dad was there,” she said to the image of Carole King. “And I asked if he said hi to yours.”

The colored pencil in Khloe’s hand dropped to the carpet.

“I figured it out.” Violet crossed her arms. “I never, ever thought your dad would, but … Khloe, why didn’t you tell me?”

“There’s nothing to tell.”

Oh, fine. She’d say it. She faced Khloe and unfolded her arms. “He’s having an affair. Right?”

“What! Of course not!”

The surge of red in Khloe’s cheeks had to be real indignation. But she knew. Didn’t she? In the Hansen family, people paid attention to each other. How could Khloe not know?

Or maybe it was something else. Something disastrous enough to make Khloe lie, knowing she would be cutting threads in their friendship.

Khloe jumped to her feet and plopped onto the bed. “Okay, whatever, you hit the bull’s-eye. It’s an affair, and it’s embarrassing, and I didn’t want you to find out.”

When lying fails, get snarky? Who did Khloe think she was talking to, her mother? Violet jumped up and planted hands on hips. And gosh, she must look kind of motherly.

“I’m not stupid, Khloe.”

Khloe tried to glare but instead ducked her head. She scooted back on the bed and pressed against the wall.

“So?” Violet said. “Where was he really?”

“I wish he was cheating on her. I wish he was cheating and lying and … and robbing banks.”

A chill breathed over Violet. She crossed the room and reached for Khloe’s right hand with her left. Their charm bracelets clinked. Together.

“Okay.” Khloe sucked in a breath. “Vi, you know Dad goes to our church.”

Of course she knew. He drove them every Sunday.

“Well, um, Elysium isn’t the only church he goes to.”

For a stupid moment, Violet didn’t get it. Having two churches was a little weird, and there weren’t many others in the area, but there were a few. Maybe he liked to hear various speakers. Then understanding smacked her in the face.

Clay’s other church wasn’t a real church.

“Yeah,” Khloe whispered. “That’s where he was. One of their meetings. Dad’s … a Christian.”

No way. He wasn’t.

Or maybe he was. Maybe knowing him for two-thirds of her life didn’t mean Violet really knew him. Her legs rubberized. Maybe she should sit.

Oh, come on. Of course she knew him, and he wasn’t dangerous or violent or even harmlessly demented. “Khloe, are you sure?”

Khloe scuffed her small foot along the bed frame. “He’s been bugging Mom to go with him. And me.”

Uncle Clay. Not related by blood, and usually just Clay in her head now (though she’d probably always call him Uncle to his face). He couldn’t be a Christian. He was too normal. Too safe.

Khloe buried her face in her knees. “They meet on Thursdays. Eleven at night. They can’t meet in daylight like a real church, of course. And Mom says … we, um … we’re going.”

Violet’s spine prickled. “No way, Khloe, you have to tell her no.”

“She used to worry about him, but he’s been going for like a year now and nothing’s happened. She says if we go one time, maybe he’ll get it out of his system.”

Wait a minute. A year? “You haven’t reported him in a year?”

Khloe’s gaze snapped back up. “Report him? Why in the world would I?”

“He needs help. Good grief, Khloe, he’s your father.”

“Exactly.”

“What, re-ed? You can’t just ignore—”

“Call me selfish, but I’m not going to re-ed. So he’s not, either.”

Violet’s thumb found the silver bracelet around her left wrist and rubbed her starfish charm like a genie lamp. Khloe had a point. She was a minor. She’d get slapped with automatic re-education, as if she were seven, not seventeen. As if she couldn’t recognize dangerous beliefs.

Re-education would destroy Khloe’s senior year. Her GPA. Her life.

And good grief. It was Clay. Violet didn’t need to report him. He was harmless.

Christians aren’t harmless.

“Okay, at least tell me you’re not going to that meeting.”

Khloe’s lip wobbled. “Trust me, I’d rather have a hundred MRIs. If I get caught … gosh, can’t you just hear me? ‘My dad dragged me here, I’m not a Christian, honest.’ The con-cops will be like, ‘Yeah, right, little girl.’”

“Would your dad take me with you?” The words popped out of Violet’s mouth before she tried them on, but yeah, they fit. Khloe shouldn’t be stuck in this alone.

Khloe’s green eyes lit. “Really?”

“Of course.”

“Oh, Violet, I’d owe you … my life, or something.”

“Nah. Besides, you’d come with me. If it was my dad.”

Khloe bit her lip. “Actually, no, I wouldn’t. Vi, if we got caught … Well, I’d kill myself. Since my life would be over anyway. And your parents—who knows what they’d do.”

Change the locks, probably. Her mom would finally have an excuse to renounce motherhood. Well, so what? Violet would be eighteen in three months. All she needed was a livable apartment at a retail employee’s salary. But none of this was the main point.

“Khloe, I don’t know if it’s right. Ignoring this. Re-education would help your dad. And all of them, whoever they are.”

Khloe swiped at her cheeks. “This is why I didn’t want you to know. You’d be all honor-bound. But, Vi, you can’t turn him in. Please. I’ll do anything. I just don’t want to go to re-ed.”

Violet inhaled the chilled air and leaned back against the wall. Would it be so wrong to pretend she didn’t know? The light from the ceiling fixture offered no answers.

Khloe held up her wrist, and zircon-spangled charms glittered: a pink heart, a purple flip-flop. “I know. We’ll put one of mine on your bracelet. A pledge of silence. Or, if you want to keep up your theme, I saw a new sea-life one on the website. An octopus. I’ll buy it for you.”

“Khloe, really.”

Her voice fell. “Will this … will we change now?”

“No.” But how could they not?

“I don’t want stuff to be awkward. You get it, don’t you? Why I’m not turning him in?”

Violet crossed the room and collapsed onto the bed. She pulled her knees up to stare at her coral-red toenails, a color she’d borrowed from Khloe. When the quiet started to push in close, Violet nodded. I’m not lying. I do get it. But the nod was more—a promise that seams weren’t unraveling.

“I should’ve just told you,” Khloe said.

“Yup.”

“And I’ve been contemplating your future husband. Don’t you think his hair’s a little fuzzy?”

“What?”

“Austin. He should use some sort of product in it.”

Violet released a sigh loud enough for Khloe to hear, but she was years past conversational whiplash. If she had gone through something as bad as radiation treatments at five years old, maybe she’d act like Khloe did when a crisis tried to knock her down. Face it, sure, but not for too long.

Actually, Austin’s hair was silky, not fuzzy. Smooth and soft and fine as gold. Not that Khloe needed information like that, especially if she still believed all Austin and Violet did was flirt.

“If I’m ever his actual wife, I’ll tell him, ‘My best friend recommends the ultra-hold, Mohawk-inducing, mullet-defeating—’”

“Who said mullet? Did I say mullet? I said fuzzy.”

Violet flopped onto her back with all the drama she could force and glared at the ceiling.

Laughter squealed from Khloe, the guinea-pig-at-feeding-time shriek that had been easy to mock since second grade. “You couldn’t mope for real for a million dollars.”

She could probably pull off brooding, though. Violet grinned, turned onto her stomach, and let Khloe’s voice slip into the background of her brain. They wouldn’t talk about it again tonight, maybe ever, but silence wasn’t much of a problem solver. For Khloe, Violet should go to that meeting, watch out for her, and bury the whole skeleton of secrets. For Clay, Violet should make a phone call, file a report, and pray that re-education saved his mind from the lies he believed.

She couldn’t do both.

She breathed in Natalia’s favorite citrus room spray and let herself shiver in the overzealous air conditioning that Clay turned down when his wife wasn’t looking. Just a few hours ago, she had stepped into this house and left her blue flats in the same corner of the mudroom she’d left them in a thousand times before. She thought she had prepared herself for whatever was going on in this home. Her home.

Hardly.

“Okay.”

Khloe’s voice broke off midsentence. “Okay what?”

“I’ll just … pretend I don’t know.”

“You just now decided that?” Khloe fiddled with her bracelet and slid a charm free. “Hold out your arm.”

“You don’t have to—”

“Shut up, I want to.” She secured the charm to Violet’s bracelet, a pansy with an amethyst center. “There. Pledge of silence.”

Violet rubbed the tiny silver petals. “Pledge of silence.”