Song of Myself

ABBY FISHER

My poem aims to turn the challenge myself and other girls of Generation F have to face into something worthy of celebration. It is a modern reimagining of Whitman’s “Song of Myself.”

I celebrate every letter in my name and every word in my body

Every comma of bone

Every exclamation point smile turned

      question-mark frown . . . and back again?

My semicolon waist . . .

Have you yet learned the grammar of your ligaments?

Have you yet become self-literate?

Do not erase your graphite smudges

      to become legible to others

Replace all your “but”s with “and”s . . . let yourself be plural

Live in the contradictions without . . . fear of being

      understood

I celebrate my allergies . . . the ways my body knows her limits

      there are some things she will not accept . . . I will not accept

Any cell in my body is a fighter . . .

      any self in my body is a fighter

The song of pen scratching paper . . . the sound of beautiful

      friction,

      Pulse, raw cuticles, the taste of metal, the school bell,

The world’s conjugation and subjugation

The rhythm of sweat sliding at the pace of tears . . . My

      anxiety is worth boasting about

I am worth boasting about

The cacophony of my heart burning madly is not a disorder

How long have you believed the world . . . . . . . you are the one in need of reorder?

I celebrate the lone eggshell in the sink

The recipe called for three . . . I cleared away two Know I was here

Accept my un-apology for taking up space

I celebrate each superstition . . . religious as a holiday . . . spiritual as a bedtime story

I look away from the teapot so it can boil

I deliberate over eyelash wishes

I turn reality into ritual . . . I am not pretending

Study the language of yourself

Teach it to others and be patient

Remember that for so long you had dyslexia of the self . . . the world twisted you into an alphabet you did not recognize

Learn your letters, the words of your body

Start with your name