Silent Chaos

RUBIT HERNANDEZ

Nicole and I had a mutual goal to further explore poetry. We analyzed a few poems in which different situations and feelings were expressed. I used many of those poems as inspiration.

I stare blankly at the ground

while my eyes struggle to stay open

and my thoughts battle

to not create much of a burden,

thinking about a mistake I made months ago,

thinking about life itself,

my thoughts are the planets revolving around my head,

the sun,

the closer the planets are,

the hotter they become

the more my thoughts are buried into my head,

the more I become concerned

my thoughts are

dancing at a party

with all the lights moving around,

loud music playing,

lots of people dancing,

my thoughts are multifarious:

one moment, a bouquet of roses

the next,

a walk in a dark, haunted forest

these thoughts seem to wrap my head in this mess

and there’s no way out

it’s a dark cave in which I fall

with no exit

like a scared baby’s heartbeat,

my legs quake

not because I’m worried,

simply because it’s a habit

just like biting my lips,

or biting my nails

I overthink way too much

to the point where

the rest of my body has adapted

I apprehensively think about my future:

will life continue being a hardcore obstacle course

or will it become easier the more I succeed

and create a freshly paved road?

blinking rapidly,

I return to my reality,

watching people walk ignorantly through the streets,

nothing but streetlights to brighten the vibe

I plug my headphones in my ears

turn my music all the way up

concealing the silent chaos