FORTY-ONE

The cabin lay wrapped in a hollow silence. Nothing moved, except an errant fly that buzzed over Ulagu’s head and landed on his shoulder. Mary looked up. Joan and Alex stood above her, Joan holding the straight razor, Alex’s bindings dangling from her wrists. Angels, Mary decided. One short and dark, the other tall and fair. They’re both angels now.

“We’re dead, aren’t we?” Mary’s voice echoed through the cabin like an actor addressing an empty house.

Joan shook her head. “He is. We aren’t.”

Mary blinked at the bloody bulk collapsed on her chest, then she looked back at her friends. “Then help me move him.”

Alex and Joan kneeled and grasped Ulagu’s leg. Mary pushed against his shoulders. With his body heavy as stone, the three women shoved together. He flopped over on his back, which pushed the Bowie knife all the way through his chest. Blood spattered Mary’s face and neck. The stink of feces permeated the air.

Alex stared down at the oozing body. “Good-bye, Henry,” she said, her voice a low rasp. “Give my love to Papa.”

Mary sat up. Whatever fire had burned within her had consumed itself; she now felt charred to cinder and crumbling ash. Had all this really happened? Had Joan Marchetti really stabbed Ulagu to death just moments before? She looked over at him. Though the knife had completely pierced his chest, his mouth hung open as if he were about to speak, and his yellow eyes still stared at her with a curious combination of menace and astonishment. Mary thought of her mother. Was this the last face she saw before she died?

“I hope not,” Mary whispered.

“What did you say?” Joan frowned.

“Nothing,” Mary replied. “Let’s get out of here.”

Mary pulled up her bloodied jeans as bright gold sunlight streamed inside the broken windows. Joan grabbed her Yankees cap from the cot while Alex helped Mary to her feet. Together, the three women started for the door.

Suddenly Mary stopped. “Wait,” she told her friends. “I think something here might belong to me.”

“I’ve got Wynona.” Alex held up the little figurine.

“No.” Mary shook her head. “Something else.”

She turned and moved toward the rickety junk table, sifting through Brank’s grim collection of memorabilia.

“Jewelry,” she muttered, rattling through a stack of old eight-track tapes and dog-eared paperbacks. “Where’s the jewelry?”

She lifted some moth-eaten scarves and uncovered an old tackle box. Her fingers fumbled with its lid. A dazzling array of cheap, gaudy jewelry had been dumped inside. Glass bead necklaces tangled with dime-store brooches and fly-fishing lures. She rifled through a handful of the stuff; one glittery rhinestone bounced to the floor. Damn, she thought. This is going to take forever.

“It’s not there, Mary.” Alex’s voice floated across the cabin.

Mary turned and stared at her.

“You’re looking for your mother’s medal, aren’t you?” Alex sagged against the doorway. “A knight fighting a dragon. It’s not there. I’ve looked.”

“But . . .” Mary began.

“In the daytime he tied me up with a rope that reached across this cabin. I’ve spent hours staying sane by looking for Saint Andrew when he was out checking his traps. It’s not here. He didn’t kill your mother.”

“But maybe he hid . . .”

Alex’s eyes flashed with pain. “Mary, every night we played show-and-tell. Of course I had to show first, but then he would tell. I got to hear exactly what happened to all the people who owned that stuff.” Alex hobbled over and rummaged in the tackle box, pulling up a high-school ring with a bright green stone.

“Remember the girl whose picture was on the bulletin board at the store? This was hers. You don’t want to know what happened to her. And this,” she pawed through some ragged clothing and pulled out a child’s baseball cap. “This belonged to the little boy whose picture was beside hers.”

“Jimmy Reynolds,” Mary murmured, tracing the worn Milwaukee Braves emblem with her finger.

Alex put her arm around Mary’s shoulders. “I’m sorry,” she said, her voice thick with regret. “I got to hear about every one in great detail. Your mother was not among his victims.”

Mary retrieved the photo of Jonathan and Jodie Foster, then the three women closed the door of the cabin and limped into the sunshine. Walking as if of one accord, they made their way to the creek. At the water’s edge, they pulled off their clothes. Something far beyond Ulagu had stained them all today. Maybe the water could wash it away.

Mary stretched her arms to the bright sky for a moment, then she stepped into the stream. The sunlight danced like fire on the water, and she gasped as the frigid current sent shock waves up her legs.

Breathing deeply, she dropped first to her knees, then lay on her stomach, letting the stream roil around her. Though the freezing water nearly paralyzed her, the gummy bloodstains that covered her began to float away in clumps, revealing the clean skin beneath. She sighed as the water caressed her body like icy silk. Maybe this little stream was the true Atagahi. Maybe when she rose dripping from this creek, she would be clean. Maybe she would even be healed.

Alex sat down next to her with a splash, then Joan joined them, easing herself down onto a soft bed of underwater moss. Mary turned to Joan.

“How did you do it?”

“Do what?”

“Everything. Avoid getting your throat cut. And then coming after me.”

“I couldn’t stand just to stay and watch anymore. I crawled through the bushes to the front of the cabin. It was the only place I could see everything.”

Mary frowned. “Did he come looking for us at the woodpile?”

“I never saw him until he was behind you, when you were hiding by the door. I didn’t know what to do, so I waited. When nothing happened, I figured things had gone sour. Then I knew it was time for me to do something. I’ve been such a wuss . . .”

Alex frowned at her. “What was that word you called him when you killed him?”

For a moment Joan only stared into the rippling water. Then she raised her head and looked at Alex, her face calm and unashamed. “ Stupratoré,” she replied. “Rapist. I was raped, you know.”

Alex nodded, her eyes full of pain. “I know.”

Joan turned to Mary. “Do you think I’ll go to jail?” she asked evenly. “I mean, I did kill a man.”

“They ought to give you a medal for killing him,” Alex growled as she stroked the raw, blistered skin where her wrists had been bound together. “Maybe mint a few million new quarters with your face on them.”

But Joan kept her eyes on Mary. “Barring that, will they indict me for murder?”

“I doubt it, considering the circumstances. You could claim about ten legitimate defenses. Lex talionis, for one.” Mary scrubbed fiercely at the blood on her arms and fingers.

“Eye for an eye?” Joan frowned. “But he didn’t kill any of us.”

“Yes, he did.” Alex said it flatly. “Just because he didn’t stop our hearts doesn’t mean he didn’t kill us.”

For a while, no one spoke. Only the monotonous gurgle of the creek rose around them as they each counted the cost the barefoot stranger had exacted of them. Finally, Mary broke the silence.

“Alex, did you ever find out his last name?”

“Brank,” Alex replied. “Henry Brank. His father was a butcher. His mother made chocolate cake called Kuchen. He was absolutely convinced that I was his dead sister, Trudy.”

“His dead sister?” Joan frowned. “Why would he want to kidnap a person who’s already dead?”

“He was way gone, Joan. He’d spent thirty years hiding in these woods,” said Alex.

“But I don’t understand . . .”

“Years ago, he couldn’t bring himself to kill a deer, so his big sister Trudy made fun of him.” Alex’s laugh was bitter. “He got mad and killed her, then he got scared and ran into the mountains. Somewhere along the line, the edges began to blur. He believed Trudy was hunting him. To him, everything became Trudy. And every Trudy, he killed.”

“But he didn’t kill my mother!” Suddenly Mary’s voice broke with rage and pain. “Somebody else did! I can’t catch the one who killed her!”

Alex leaned over and gathered her in her arms. “Honey, it’s okay—”

“No, it’s not,” cried Mary in a fury. “You don’t understand!”

Alex held her tight. “No, Mary, you don’t understand.” She looked into Mary’s eyes, now sparkling with angry tears. “The whole time I was in that cabin the only thing that kept me going was that I knew if you weren’t already dead, you’d come after me.” She smiled. “You saved my life at least fifty times a day.”

“That’s right, Mary,” added Joan. “You might not have been able to save your mom, but you certainly saved the both of us. That must count for something!”

For a long moment Mary stared at them, as if measuring their words, then she nodded. “I’m freezing. Let’s go lie in the sun. We’ll catch pneumonia sitting here.”

The three women climbed to the bank and let the warm sun dry them, then they put on what clothes they had; Mary lacing her boots, Alex buttoning up her old shirt, Joan pulling on her underpants and ceding Mary’s jeans to Alex. After that they walked over to the bright meadow behind the cabin and stretched out beneath the maple tree.

Joan fell asleep immediately, but Alex could not be still. She walked around the cabin several times, once returning with a small shard of glass from one of the broken windows, another time carrying the cedar log with which Mary had meant to kill Brank. Finally she settled in between Mary and Joan. She sat down with her arms folded, and stared intently at the cabin, as if Henry Brank might reappear and pursue her once more.

“He’s not coming back, Alex,” Mary said, looking at her friend’s odd collection of weapons.

Alex shrugged. “You know, when I was a kid I wasn’t afraid of anything. Not Dracula or Freddy Krueger or any of the gross stuff my brothers tried to scare me with.” She pried a weed up from the dusty earth and shredded it. “Now I can hardly stand to blink my eyes.”

“Lie down,” Mary said. “I’ll stay here beside you.”

“I don’t think that will—”

“Alex, remember our freshman year in college? All those nights you listened to me until I fell asleep?”

Alex nodded.

“Well, now’s payback time. Close your eyes and sleep. And this time I’ll keep watch.”

Alex frowned, but then she curled up obediently while Mary leaned back against the tree and watched two squirrels play on the roof of the cabin. For a while Alex twitched and cried out in her sleep, but gradually her arms and legs relaxed and her breathing became soft and rhythmic. Mary pulled the photograph of Jonathan from her sweatshirt pocket and studied it. How sweet he looked, standing there beside the beautiful actress, his arm lightly on her shoulder, his smile genuine, but also amused at the unlikeliness of his picture being taken with a movie star. Mary traced around his image with her finger. He would not have given this up without a fight. Was this the souvenir of Jonathan that Henry Brank had stolen for his collection? She stared at the picture for a long while, then she put it back in her pocket. Waves of a new dark ocean of pain lapped against her, but she would not plunge into them now. She would do that later, if she ever made it back to any place where tears could be shed safely and in private.

All at once she felt as if her whole body had been leeched of all the strength it had ever possessed. With a deep yawn, she lay down and turned her face up to the afternoon sun. They would have a long, hard hike back to Little Jump Off. They would need to be rested. She took one final look at the cabin, then she laid her head down. With a single sigh, she closed her eyes and allowed herself to relax into a soft heavy nothingness that was very like what she imagined death to be.