THE HAWK’S DREAM

TRAVEL IN MY BORROWED LIVES

The mist blushes,

Then curtsies to a sun

That climbs over and commands

These hills frosted with bird calls.

There is a smell this morning of

Chekhov’s The Cherry Orchard.

See,

There Ranevskaya and Trofimoff,

Rocking back and forth

On the plains of their lives,

Palms open,

Unwilling to listen as the old order changes

And unable to stop the sale of their heritage.

Or, across the planet,

The set of Gone with the Wind.

Cocky young men gallop up to

Tara, pushing aside nests

Of magnolia mossed on their faces,

Hot to drink mint juleps three centuries old.

Or, if you prefer,

Peach blossoms dripping on Rhett Butler,

Laughing on his magnificent

Black stallion; yes, dark, grinning

Rhett Butler pouring sweet songs

Through his mustache and owled smile.

He gives a damn.

He imagines Scarlett chattering

With her suitors. But she is not

Penelope, nor is he Odysseus.

How perceptive

And almost imperious you are to have

So much of these places in you! And

Your clothes, so crisp and fresh

Like the earth under your feet.

You have

Hung up your rector’s collar and dance

Pink waltzes, sweat satin gavottes,

Or jump into blackened boots, down

On your haunches, doing the kazotsky.

Go anywhere with your passport of

Green optimism, Raleigh carrying

Scented letters from Elizabeth

On your heart of whispers.

Your rapier need never be used.

You have your royal commission!

You love this path of swollen leaves

Fused with all your remembrances.

It leads up and down through old Stuart

And Tudor lacework villages. Cobblestones

Echo horseshoes prancing around

The square. Well water glistens sweet and pure.

Apple pies cool on window ledges

For lovers who will traffic with

Bodiced and bonneted maidens gossiping inside.

Keep on going,

Dreamer, around to the bells of this

Church tower, gothic and pointed,

Like your purpose. Engrave a prayer

Skipped out of France on your way back

From the Crusades.

Yes! I do know you!

We have spilled portions on stories we have

Digested, tales caked in the mud of travels,

Epics washed in the salt of Malta.

Our ship skated across Styx and Cocytus

On winds poured into jeweled goblets,

Winds of red wine that tasted

Like blood, but we did not know the difference.

Take off your dented

Armor, sit a while. There’s a cardinal

With a message: his wife hides from us!

She was warned against the Cossacks,

Against the graycoats and bluecoats

Of Gettysburg. She is Russian and runs

From the Cossacks. She gathers her children

And. gambles on America. They will lose

Their hoarseness, learn how numbers will

Carry them to the moon. They will find

All the bright places in their myths

And walk the rails laid down by the Italians

And Chinese and Irish somewhere between

Springfield and Denver.

Yes, your grandmother

Was Russian and a believer. Now we can

Improvise angles that complement

And buy rectangles we will build into a house.

We will plan errors because we have not

Traveled. What? All right,

One last story:

Your helmet and goggles intrigue me,

Even though your jodhpurs are torn.

Yes, I know what happened after

You crashed in the jungle, searching for

Beauty. Christopher Caldwell died in Spain.

You survived your unconscious, but then

You always do.

This morning is bright and enters

Without nightmares.

Go! Be what you want. You have

What you need. Run or walk

But don’t beg. Never beg for a ride.

Travel on your own.

THE HAWK’S DREAM

The sun prints

contours and edges,

defining trees,

houses, cars, people;

the shadows create

memories from a life

I may have

borrowed, an accident

that now includes me.

The wind stacks

leaves in corners,

later puffs snow around

plants, like feathers

quilted for winter

sleep; shadows

disappear then appear,

soundless gusts

from an insistent sun.

I am

spawned by

sun and wind;

each night

when day sleeps,

I dream

of a white hawk

who

dreams of me.

RACHEL

And finally

you arrived,

breathless,

after waiting

for months

in the wet warmth,

becoming you

inside your mother.

And then

you cried,

that first breath

pushed through

vocal chords

you learned

could be used

from then on.

We heard you,

Rachel,

mother first,

through tears

that were the first thing

she offered you,

tears she had been saving

and didn’t know

were there,

tears

that made her milk flow,

milk

that will bond you

together as in

no other way.

And then

when she held you,

you stopped crying

because you knew

she would be yours

from then on.

And I cried too,

because already

I loved you

even though

we had just met.

I didn’t

know who

you would be,

Rachel;

I waited a long time

for you,

and it was dark

where I was, too.

SALMON RUN

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TRUE LOVE

Night has shut off the light.

The crickets are my eyes.

They tell me the tales

They would have me know,

Of shining knights

On horse by the road,

Silk scarves tied

Tight to lances.

Of fiery dragons,

Nicely groomed,

All green and smiling,

Breath smoky sweet,

Who loved the knights

Who killed the dragons.

If you listen carefully

The crickets always stop talking

At the sound

Of approaching horses.

Some say

The crickets see

The knights.

That may be.

But they don’t see

The dragons anymore.

APPOINTMENT IN SAMARRA

“...and one of them, on seeing

Death, runs away to Samarra.

‘That's strange/Death says

to the other, 'that's where

I have an appointment to meet with her?' "

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She hears the wind

Pour through the oaks,

How it organizes the branches,

Stirring the leaves that make

A confusion of small sounds

Against each other.

I must tell her

The treetops sway in sections

Like undulating ballet dancers

Moving in waves.

She nods and muses quietly,

“Yes, of course”

I must tell her

Of the ravens

That took her eyes,

That fly soundlessly,

One by one

To the bird feeder,

Taking turns with blue jays and cardinals,

Offering colors

She has not seen

Since she was three.

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And a storm follows.

She runs wildly,

Trying to escape

Each clap of thunder,

Unsure where the lightning

Will strike.

She bangs into brush and

Trips over stones.

I call out to guide her

But she cannot tell

Where things are

In the darkness.

III

Sometimes she feels

My mouth and face

With her fingers.

She can tell me what I see

When I have not even noticed.

She knows more quickly

When the sun flames softly,

But not where It casts

Deep tones on an aging afternoon.

At night I whisper that

She loves more fully than I do,

That less Is often more.

She smiles and tells me, yes,

She hears and smells and tastes better,

But that she would trade It all

For twenty minutes

In front of my mirror.

BARRIER BEACH

The beach is a vigilant guardian,

Great arms spread out, protecting all behind.

November sits on the sand, taking its turn.

The people have returned to the mainland.

The ocean is chafed by the wind and

Bares an angry face of white waves.

A handful of gulls are bounced around

So much they finally jump up and leave.

A small trawler plows a section off

The sand bar, dragging for blues and weaks.

Sometimes it drops into farmer furrows, the rigging

Appears like broken crosses on a battlefield.

White-necked scoters fly low and fast, oblivious

To the wind that is ceaseless, that pushes

The water out of the sea up onto the beach.

It does until the November moon, no longer

Amused by the wind, pulls the water back

Down into the sea, back off the beach that’s

Left only with marks and remnants

Like a lover who has come and gone.

LAND OF DIXIELAND

Hey, listen: you can hear them, can’t you?

There, around the corner,

those seven sounds scrambling

in the dank mustiness

of Preservation Hall.

Here, get a little closer.

That horn is Percy Humphrey’s

love, and

notes stand up,

at different heights,

like choir boys

marching with shiny icons.

The melody oozes,

fingers tap on tabletops,

bodies sway, controlled by the rhythm.

Well, they’ve finished

“Beak Street Blues.”

It hangs in the smoke,

then blends into laughter and

noises from chairs scratching

against the tilted floor.

Waiters hover like birds,

asking for drink orders before the next set.

They start again,

slowly at first,

the music shimmering like that “sexy” dancer

across the street,

who rolls her shoulders and then her hips.

Sweet Emma takes another last sip,

slides to the mike;

“… don’t the moon look lonesome

shining through the trees?

Don’t a man seem lonesome

when his woman packs to leave?"

New Orleans bards and balladeers,

hear the cries of the Quarter.

And years earlier,

of cotton and whips,

run and hide.

Now it’s all newly painted

even though some buildings

only have fronts:

nothing is permitted to spoil

the Mardi Gras.

But he’s there,

around the corner,

legless,

begging on his skateboard.

He’s still there.

Waiting.

SATURDAY NIGHT ON THE DESERT, MARCH 1938

The moon is fully turned on over

Fort Huachuca. On a distant ridge

A coyote yaps and whines his serenade

To an audience of barrel cacti.

The scooped-out valley south to Naco

Looks like the Copernicus Crater,

Scarred with faults and bouldered rubble.

Tonight Bisbee must be an erupting

Volcano of beer. The copper miners are

Rolling in the lava, its froth washing

The dank and grime from their eyes.

In this last hour before taps,

The all-black cavalry battalion

Repolishes its boots for the Colonel’s

Weekly Review on the parade grounds.

Ernesto lies against a very old fig tree,

Dreaming a cowboy’s dream of Nogales’ whores

With perfumed smiles and swooshing skirts.

Soon he mounts his horse, heading west

Up into Carr Canyon where that lost

Calf might be. And the coyote leaves

The ridge, following a faint scent.

MOUNTAIN THAT WAS GOD

“I am Gray Fox. I live and fish

the Nisqually and the Yakima.

“My grandfather told me of Rainier,

“Mountain that was God’ land pushed

so high men would see her forever.

“My grandfather told me when the rains stop and

it is clear, I will see her haloed head poking

through quilted blankets of clouds.

“I will see her shoulders are the bulging

muscles of her blue-iced glaciers.

I will see her spines rise like the dinosaur’s into

“Rocky spires that punch through fields

of fractured snow. Her cheeks are craggy

With cracked calluses. I have stood on her

bouldered chins, trying to understand.

Grandfather told me the tales of how she has been

burned by centuries of the Sun’s gas-fired breath.

“It is good when she is calm and pleased

with us; then there are many salmon.”