Angels in Winter

Mercy is whiter than laundry,

great baskets of it, piled like snowmen.

In the cellar I fold and sort and watch

through a squint in the dirty window

the plain bright snow.

Unlike the earth, snow is neuter.

Unlike the moon, it stays.

It falls, not from grace, but a silence

which nourishes crystals.

My son catches them on his tongue.

Whatever I try to hold perishes.

My son and I lie down in white pastures

of snow and flap like the last survivors

of a species that couldn’t adapt to the air.

Jumping free, we look back at

angels, blurred fossils of majesty and justice

from the time when a ladder of angels

joined the house of the snow

to the houses of those whom it covered

with a dangerous blanket or a healing sleep.

As I lift my body from the angel’s,

I remember the mad preacher of Indiana

who chose for the site of his kingdom

the footprint of an angel and named the place

New Harmony. Nothing of it survives.

The angels do not look back

to see how their passing changes the earth,

the way I do, watching the snow,

and the waffles our boots print on its unleavened face,

and the nervous alphabet of the pheasant’s feet,

and the five-petaled footprint of the cat,

and the shape of snowshoes, white and expensive as tennis,

and the deep ribbons tied and untied by sleds.

I remember the millions who left the earth;

it holds no trace of them,

as it holds of us, tracking through snow,

so tame and defenseless

even the air could kill us.