Emily looked at the clothing hanging neatly in her closet, pants with pants, blouses with blouses, skirts with skirts. She’d become such an adult. Initially she’d changed her wardrobe to make sure she looked older than her patients, to make sure they respected her and didn’t treat her like just another friend. Soon that look permeated her weekend wardrobe, too. And Ezra liked it—the crepe pants, the silk tops, the tailored skirts. So did she. The clothing made her feel strong, in control, put together, like she always knew what she was doing. But now she wished she still had a pair of leather pants or torn jeans in there.
She took out a pair of regular jeans, the tightest ones she owned, and put them on with a black cami, one she usually wore under a blazer. But she left off the blazer, and added a pair of heels. Then she walked to the bathroom and braided half of her hair into a crown, something she hadn’t done in thirteen years. She was a bit more heavy-handed with her makeup than usual. And went to her jewelry box to find a pair of old silver hoop earrings to complete the look. While she was there, she saw the four-leaf clover necklace that Rob had given her years before; she’d never been able to give it away.
Emily looked at herself in the mirror again and smiled. She looked like a musician.
It felt good to be Queenie again.