“I brought you something,” Priya told Emily a couple of weeks later, when she stopped by Emily’s apartment to say hi. The show was a done deal now, and Emily spent most of her time rehearsing.
“Oh yeah?” Emily asked.
Priya produced a pair of green socks. “I know this may sound silly, but a friend of mine told me that green is the color of fertility, so when you wear green socks, it increases your chances of getting pregnant. And I wore green socks the day I got pregnant with Anika, so . . . maybe?”
Emily laughed and took the socks. “Thank you,” she said. “I appreciate it.” She put them down on the table in front of her, next to the two mugs and the teapot she’d set out there. “Though we still haven’t been trying.”
“No?” Priya said.
Emily shook her head. “I thought a baby was what I wanted more than anything, but now that I have a chance to perform again, I worry that . . . what if it derails everything before it’s even begun?”
“It could,” Priya said, slowly, “or it could jump-start your music in a different way. Inspire a hit song. Or your music career could take years to materialize. How long did it take Rob to write a hit?”
“More than a decade,” Emily said, playing with the tag on the socks.
Priya shrugged. “Not that your life will follow the same path as his, but I’d hate for you to sacrifice one dream while you’re trying to pursue another.”
“I guess I should be grateful I have the ability to try for both.” Emily sat down on the couch after filling her mug.
“You can be grateful, and it can still be hard,” Priya said, filling her own. “But on a happier note, Neel and I have a babysitter booked for your show. He’s flipping out that we got VIP passes.”
Emily laughed, happy to focus on the show instead of on pregnancy. “Well, you’re my Very Important People,” she said.
Priya shook her head. “It really is incredible. Your life from a few months ago to now is a hundred percent different. How does Ezra feel, now that the show is getting closer?”
Emily thought about her answer. “He’s happy for me. But I think he’s worried, too, that all this work we’ve done won’t last. Our relationship is so different than it was when we got married, but I think I like this version of us better. It’s messier, but it feels stronger.”
“And you and Rob?” Priya asked.
Emily leaned against the arm of the couch. “He’s been a really good friend. And a huge champion. He made all of this possible. Ari thinks he has an ulterior motive, but I’d like to think that he doesn’t. That he was being honest in Mexico when he agreed to be friends, nothing more.”
Priya nodded as she added milk to her tea from the pitcher Emily had left on the coffee table. “I’d like to think that, too.”
Both women were quiet for a moment.
Emily was so glad that she and Priya had crossed from work friends to actual friends who would hang out together regardless of who worked where.
“How are my kids doing?” Emily asked. Priya had taken on a lot of Emily’s patients when she left. She hadn’t realized how hard it would be to leave them, and she still thought about them all the time.
“All trucking along,” Priya said, taking a sip of tea. “Have you heard from Tessa?”
Now that Tessa wasn’t her patient anymore, she sent Emily an email from time to time.
“Last I heard, doing well in Ohio. She and Zoe are living with her mom and she’s taking classes at Cleveland State. Still working toward law school one day.” Emily thought about Rob and his mom’s saying, Everything is always okay in the end, and if it’s not okay, it just means it isn’t the end. She didn’t believe it, not one hundred percent, but she understood what his mom meant by it. Things happen, and usually people can work through them; usually they can find a semblance of normal, a way to keep going, in spite of the pain. If they’re lucky, they’ll even find a way to thrive.