August 15th, 3:12 p.m.
O’Hare Airport, Part III

I have eaten a fettuccine Alfredo with some cold and chewy chicken. What did it taste like? The kind of paste I ate in first grade (pretty delicious).

Can you believe Jerri said I am like Dad? That’s pretty mean. She did apologize a few days later.

Am I like my dad, Aleah? I’m wearing his Stan Smith shoes right now. They fit me perfectly.

Do I sort of want to be like my dad?

I can’t begin to even address that, because saying to me I’m like my dad is like saying twenty-eight thousand things at one time.

I don’t know how much like him I really am (which is a good reason for me to be going to Florida again, I suppose).

Am I just a little bit selfish and deluded (Narcissus), or am I possibly a cheater, a self-hater, a home-wrecker, etc.?

He was a great athlete. I am too.

He was also seriously smart (PhD). I’m not, I don’t think.

I look like him completely.

I act like my dad in how many ways? I don’t know, because he’s dead.

If I won the NCAA Championship in tennis, wouldn’t I smile? Wouldn’t I be happy? There’s this picture of him right after he won his championship where he’s out the on the court with a medal around his neck, and he’s not smiling. He’s sort of staring vacantly into space with this sort of sad look on his face. Maybe I wouldn’t be happy. Maybe I walk around looking sad too.

Because of my hamstring injury, I haven’t really won anything big, yet. We lost the semifinal in football. Hamstring killed the outdoor track season.

Would I be happy if I really won the big one like he did? I don’t know.

You were happy when you got invited to Germany, right?

Are we through? I mean, is our relationship done?

Oh, I’m having a great time writing this!

Screw it. No more writing. I’m going to play Skee-Ball on my phone.

Holy nuts. I’ve written a crapload of pages.