Clouds of Men

I’m gonna get lit up when the lights go up in London

I’m gonna get lit up as I’ve never been before

You will find me on the tile

You’ll find me wreathed in smiles

I’m gonna get so lit up I’ll be visible for miles

—“I’m Going To Get Lit Up When The Lights Go on in London,”
by Hubert Gregg

I can hear a thousand things at once.

Amazing, really.

I can hear it all.

Every sound.

There are sounds at 22,000 feet you’d never imagine.

I didn’t.

My mask is on.

I’m breathing.

Helmet’s loose for a minute.

Gloves on.

Always, always keep your gloves on at altitude.

Even if.

The air is ice crystals, and I hear them, too.

Never noticed.

Simon’s in the glass house.

Machinegun Kelly.

Give ’em Hell, Simon.

Sit up.

Sit. up.

Sit. Up.

Pete took my ammo box.

Make with the bullets, Benny

Flak was bad on this run.

Bad’s we’ve seen.

Could get out and walk on it.

Fort took a direct hit a hundred yards away.

Dear Christ I hope I never see that again as long as I live.

Don’t want to look at the ball turret.

Don’t want to look at Andy.

Sit up.

Andy’s a good gunner.

Was a good gunner.

Is, was, they don’t matter up here.

Should but don’t.

Make with the bullets, Benny

I’m gonna get lit up when the lights go up in London

Thing I didn’t appreciate is how frail we are at 22,000 feet.

How could I?

In the Quonset we say, We’re gonna bring Hell. Righteous fire.

We say it in the pubs and restaurants. The cafés, too.

Raindrops on the roofs, we said.

Righteous fire.

I’m gonna get so lit up I’ll be visible for miles

On the ground Marvelous Meryl looks like Hell waiting to be brought.

Put another nail in Hitler’s coffin.

The kids from the village think it’s the greatest thing:

Marvelous Meryl’s four engines spittin’ fire and twelve crew pissin’ acid

We give them candy and little flags and spent shell casings.

They wave when we take off.

I’m gonna get lit up when the lights go up in London

I’m gonna get lit up as I’ve never been before

You will find me on the tile

You’ll find me wreathed in smiles

I’m gonna get so lit up I’ll be visible for miles

They wave.

Been bringin’ Hell almost six months now.

Bringin’ Hell 7,000 pounds at a time.

Twenty-two missions.

Two-three hundred Forts per sortie.

Once there were a thousand bombers.

Imagine the Hell we’ve brought.

Make with the bullets, Benny

I got six confirmed.

More like fifteen, but who’s counting.

Some things you don’t boast about.

Fate has good ears up here.

(There’s four more, coming out of the sun)

(Watch ’em)

I can hear a thousand things.

I can hear the airplane.

I think she’s as scared as we are.

I’m gonna get lit up when the lights go up in London

I’m gonna get lit up as

Sons of bitches.

Son of a bitch Hun sons of bitches.

In gunnery school we learned not to shout on the intercoms.

Strange to hear, I’m hit, I think I’m done, like a weather report.

Stranger still, B-seventeen out of control, three o’clock

Calm as an Essex sunset,

C’mon you guys, get out of that plane, bail out

There’s one, he came out of the bomb bay

Yeah, I see ’em

There’s the tail gunner coming out

That’s Joey for sure

(Watch out for fighters)

See any parachutes, Pete

Come on, guys

There’s three

Four

Five

Six

(Watch out for fighters)

Six left inside

Come on get out of there

Now damn it

Goddamn it get the Hell out get out get out get out

That’s it

All right cut the chatter

Watch out for fighters

There’s nothing heroic in it, nothing desperate.

I said, Cap’n, left waist down, like I was ordering coffee.

Quiet as a Kansas afternoon amid the thousand sounds.

Cap’n, left waist down

Said the radioman to the gunner

Well how are we fixed for lead

I’m gonna get lit up when the lights go up in London

I hate Messerschmitts.

Hate them to goddamn Hell.

Two second bursts, don’t hold the trigger

But this time I saw his eyes.

I held the trigger.

I had to.

Because I saw his eyes.

They were smiling.

He was smiling.

see me wreathed in smiles

You don’t smile when you’re killing Marvelous Meryl.

When you kill Andy in the ball turret.

When you’re trying to kill me.

(Watch out for fighters)

I blew it because of his eyes.

And now I can feel the air.

At 22,000 it feels so very lonely.

My legs don’t work.

I’ll be visible for miles

It smells like cordite.

Oil and asbestos.

Something else, too.

Meryl’s as afraid as we are.

(That got him, he’s smoking)

Hang in there, girl.

Hang in there.

Cap’n’ll get us home.

Simon’s still shooting.

Give ’em Hell, Simon.

Tailgunner Drew’s out of ammo.

Best card shark in the squadron.

Won us plenty.

Counts cards.

How’s that work?

(Watch out for fighters)

How’s any of it work.

Never wondered.

War’s the strangest thing.

Hadn’t thought about it.

You don’t until you have time.

There’s time at 22,000 feet.

We do what has to be done.

That’s all there is.

He saw the target and locked the target

And suddenly bombs away

(Black smoke black smoke)

(That’s a good hit)

(Good run)

(Flak’s stopped again)

(Watch for fighters)

I’m at that strange brink.

I could imagine myself back to the farm.

That would do it.

I’d cry, for sure.

(Here they come)

(Two o’clock I see ’em)

(I’ve got about a hundred rounds left)

(Chose your shot)

(Three more coming from twelve o’clock high)

(They got Pete)

(Pete)

Don’t lie yet.

Could be on the farm.

In my room with my brother James.

Don’t lie.

I could be in Mama’s arms.

Don’t lie.

I’d cry into Mama’s arms.

Autumn Kansas sun is like warm melted butter.

Warm.

The adrenaline’s off.

Cold through my jacket.

Cold in this bomber.

That means something.

When it gets cold.

Cap’n, we’re bad back here.

I know. Hang on, Johnny. Twenty-five minutes.

I’ll hear a thousand things in twenty-five minutes.

Cap’n’s talking to the other planes.

Make with the bullets, Benny.

I can hear them, too.

Out of a thousand sounds, the bombers.

Said the bombardier to the pilot

Call it a day, and then

Sit up.

Sit the Hell up.

We’re making the turn, now.

Means we’re past Belgium.

Make believe little country.

Supposed to prevent all of this.

Lot of good Belgium did for Andy.

Fat lot of good Belgium did for Pete.

I’m gonna get lit up when the lights go up in London

There’s our halo on a cloud.

Blessed Meryl.

Blessed be.

Sometimes a Fort looks like a cross.

Something in that.

Reminds me:

O most merciful

O most merciful

Jesus wash my blood in the sins

Wash my sins in blood

I live for thee

Amen

Can’t remember.

Hell of a time to forget.

Pete’s got one hand on his .50.

God bless him.

Andy, too.

They lived for thee

Don’t know if Andy’s still there.

They lived for thee

the bombers

Johnny

Yeah, I think. Yeah, Johnny.

Sun’s out.

Now we’re clear for sure.

Damn that feels good.

The weather’s fine for flying

The fog has gone to bed

There’s such good visibility

You can see victory ahead

No foolin’ Johnny

No foolin’, Cap’n. I’m all right.

I am all right.

I am all right.

I’m doin’ just fine.

I’m gonna get lit up

Let’s fill the air with eagles

Let’s fill the clouds with men

It’s beautiful up here, when the air isn’t trying to kill you.

It’s beautiful, the blue,

and I hear a thousand things.

Meryl’s halo on the white clouds.

Singing

fill the air with eagles

We’re descending.

Meryl will descend.

Pete will descend.

So will Andy.

Simon.

Me.

Maybe the Cap’n.

We’ll descend

then climb.

There’s the cliffs.

Good.

Rest.

Let’s fill the air with eagles

Let’s fill the clouds with men

And we shall see a world that’s free

When we fly home again

Johnny you’re gonna make it

Damn right, skipper.

I’m pissin’ acid.

Let’s fill the air with eagles

Let’s fill the clouds with men

a thousand things at once

the beginning and end

my heart beat

Let’s fill the clouds with men

(Stagecoach Nine turning final)

(We’ve got five wounded souls aboard)

(Clear the field clear the field he’s going to belly in)

(Stagecoach Nine field is yours)

(Godspeed fellas)

lead the target two seconds

my heart

beat

Mama

the bombers Mama

watch for fighters

watch his eyes

visible for miles

for thee

the bombers

for thee

clouds of men

it’s me Mama

home again

(going to help you, son)

home again

clouds of men

clouds of men