Wasp

 

“HOW’s it going?” I asked as I took a seat in the small, overly cheery room of the drug treatment center. Eagle (the club’s secretary) and Havoc sat on either side of me. We were there to evaluate Hound as a possible prospect and see if he cared enough about turning his life around to break his substance addiction.

“Good,” Hound replied with a quick bob of his head. He wore loose gray sweats and had his elbows on his knees as he leaned forward with his back arched at a strange, seemingly uncomfortable slant. Someone had cut his hair and trimmed his beard since I’d last seen him. He was still gaunt as a goddamn ghoul, but at least his skin had a little color to it now. His stark features and sunken eyes looked completely out of place on the overstuffed floral sofa with a bright yellow wall for a background. The contrast was almost funny.

“Doc says we’re seeing progress. The cravings aren’t as bad now.”

Great to hear since the club had very strict rules about drugs. Link would boot Hound’s ass at the first sign of use, and I’d back him. We couldn’t risk the health and stability of the entire club because one brother couldn’t get his shit together and clean up his life. It was tragic, but it was the way things needed to be.

“You look better,” I said.

The shame in his eyes about did me in. No grown ass man who’d served our country should feel that much remorse for how he had to cope with the aftermath. “Sorry I came to you fucked up like that. I didn’t know what else to do. Where else to go. Heard from Smithy you had this organization going that might be able to help me. Thanks for setting me up in here. I don’t know what I would have done…” he trailed off, looking away.

This was my fifth visit since he’d been admitted into the center, and every time he apologized and recounted how he’d found me. It was time to move on.

“It’s all good, man. This is what we do. We take care of our own.” Someone had to. The goddamn Department of Veterans Affairs definitely didn’t. “You feel like talking about what happened now?”

When I’d served with him, Hound had been a beast of a man. Tatted up with plenty of muscle to spare, he was a man who stood tall in his knowledge, skills, and reputation. It had been two weeks since he’d shown up at the fire station, and I still couldn’t reconcile the Hound I’d known from the service with the shell of a man sitting in front of me.

Hound glanced at Eagle and Havoc before his gaze fell to the floor. “Had a couple of bad accidents that really fucked me up. The first came when the landing craft air cushion broke down and I was part of the team doing the LCAC recovery.”

LCAC was the acronym for a landing craft air cushion, and when one broke down it was no joke. The team only had a few minutes to recover the air cushion before it sank and we lost everything it was carrying. More important than the gear, was the possible loss of life. There were operators on every LCAC, and when a recovery went south, the operators usually made it to the boat, but sometimes they didn’t. Nobody wanted that shit on their conscience.

“Well, we were carrying out the spanwire, and you know how heavy those fuckin’ things are. The girl behind me dropped her end, and that motherfucker came down on my back just right to do all kinds of damage to my spine. We finished the recovery and I went to get checked out, but you know how the ship medics are; bastards gave me a cortisone shot and I was back on duty twenty-four hours later.”

No doubt causing all sorts of long-term damage to his back. “How bad is it?” I asked.

“Bottom disk slipped and fused in the wrong damn spot. Muscles tore and incorrectly healed on the right side of my back, pulling the shit out of my spine. Fractured hip. Minor paralysis in my feet from my sciatica and scoliosis. Option for surgery, but it comes with a fifty percent chance I’ll end up worse off than I am right now.”

“Fuck those odds,” Eagle swore.

“Exactly,” Hound agreed, wincing as he shifted to another uncomfortable looking position. “Whenever I couldn’t function, they’d give me a cortisone shot and that got me through. Mostly. Then I got hurt again. Since I was one of the few hazmat certified crew members, I had to handle the acid we use to clean the guns on the side of the craft. I’d just finished cleaning and was carrying the five-gallon bucket back to the secured hazmat locker, when a couple of junior sailors slammed an ammo rail down, causing me to fall the fifteen feet off the flight deck. I was trying to keep control of the bucket, so the sailors wouldn’t get doused in acid, and the bucket slammed into my left knee while my right jammed into the floor, destroying the cartilage behind my knee cap.”

Holy fuck. The man couldn’t get a break. “What’d they do for you?”

He let out a humorless chuckle. “Bastards gave me an incorrectly-sized knee brace and a Motrin and put my ass back to work. The pain was debilitating. I hobbled around the ship best I could, trying to fake like I wasn’t hurt, but I couldn’t perform the physical tests anymore, so they put me on limited light duty and transferred me to shore command. I started physical therapy and took every damn drug they gave me, narcotic or not, to get through that shit. I studied my ass off and took the tests to become a Yeoman.” He glanced at Eagle and Havoc, then explained, “Administrative. I was trying to get a goddamn desk job to stay in the service, but no matter what drugs they gave me I still couldn’t pass the physical exam.”

Knowing what was coming, I let out a sigh. “They gave you a medical discharge.”

He nodded. “I fought it, taking exam after exam. I wanted to get my degree and become a mustang.” ‘Mustang’ was slang for a commissioned officer who started as an enlisted serviceman. Even wounded, Hound had wanted to stay in the service. The man was a soldier to his very core. He glanced from me to Eagle and Havoc, and then looked away, his expression tortured. “But the doc said I was done. Got me connected with disability and all that shit. I had nowhere to go so I moved back to Vegas and lived with my mom and little sister and helped them out with my disability checks.”

Under thirty years old, and Hound’s body and pride had taken a major hit. He wasn’t the kind of man who’d be content just sitting around and collecting a check. Not many servicemen I knew would. Ironically, the man who’d helped so many others get the help they needed to thrive hadn’t been able to fight hard enough to save himself.

“That’s when you started… self-medicating?” Havoc asked.

Hound barked out a laugh that held no humor. “Self-medicating. Yeah. Nice way of putting it. The fuckin’ eight hour, seventy-five milligrams of morphine they prescribed me barely took the edge off, so I started smoking a quarter ounce of weed every day. It helped, but not much. Mixing morphine and pot worked better. I topped off my pain management by hittin’ the bottle until I could take a goddamn breath without feeling like my body was being ripped apart.”

“What happened?” I asked. I couldn’t handle much more of this shit. His was one of the most depressing stories I’d heard yet, mostly because of his age. Hound was younger than me, and I couldn’t imagine my body being out of commission the way his was. This was the part of club business I hated most, but if I was going to sponsor Hound, I needed to make sure he had the motivation and will to stay clean. “What changed to make you leave your mom’s and come north to find me?”

He shifted again, straightening his back and stretching out his legs. “Fuck, I gotta stand.” He sucked in a breath and leaned heavily on one arm to heft himself up, barely stretching from side to side before listing a little to the right. “My little sister, Annie, happened. She’s fifteen, different dad. The bastard split when she was little, just like my old man. I’ve always tried to be there for her, always felt like I should be a role model or something. She used to look at me like I hung the fuckin’ moon, you know? But then for my birthday, she got me a present… these custom Budweiser glasses. It was a nice set, but I had to ask her why beer glasses. At fifteen fuckin’ years old, she shouldn’t be buying that shit. She said since I’m always drunk, she wanted to give me something nice to put my beer in.”

I winced. “Ouch.”

“Yeah. Like a fuckin’ punch to my drunken liver. She wasn’t trying to be mean or anything, just stating the facts like kids tend to do. But that shit stung. Made me realize just how far I’d fallen. I left that night. Knew I had to get the fuck out of there before my presence screwed her up. I need to become the big brother she can look up to again. The son my mom can be proud of again. The VA doesn’t give a shit about me, and I can’t trust myself to do this alone. I need help.”

“Can you ride a bike?” Eagle asked. “With your injuries.”

Brow furrowed, Hound asked, “A bike?”

“A motorcycle. The Dead Presidents have two requirements: you have to be a vet, and you have to be able to ride,” Eagle explained.

“Had a crotch rocket when I was growing up. I haven’t been on a bike since I’ve been out of the service, but if it helps restore some of my goddamn dignity, I’ll ride a fuckin’ cat if I have to.”

“You gotta stay clean,” I said. “We have a no tolerance policy for illegal drug use. Some of the brothers use weed to help keep their PTSD under control or to manage their pain, but anything stronger than that will get you kicked out immediately.”

Hound nodded, wincing as he leaned against the wall. “Never touched the illegal shit. Morphine is what they’re breaking me of in here and I don’t want to touch the shit ever again. I don’t care how much pain I’m in. It’s not worth it.”

“My chiropractor’s good,” Eagle said. “Fucked up my back once when I was climbing out of a roost. He fixed me up. I’ll see if he can get you in.”

“Thanks, brother. I’d appreciate that.”

The interview was finished, so we all stood. I held out a hand to Hound. “All right. You keep doing what you’re doing, and we’ll be in touch. I have a big job at the shop tomorrow, but I’ll swing back by the day after, okay?”

He shook my hand and patted my back. “I can’t thank you enough, Marshall, err… Wasp.”

Eagle, Havoc, and I headed out of the treatment center, stopping in front of our bikes.

“What do you think?” I asked, turning to Eagle.

Eagle was a hard motherfucker to read. His full beard and mustache made it almost impossible to tell whether he was smiling or frowning. The ex-Marine sniper stood a little over six-feet tall. He had his dark hair pulled back in a ponytail at the nape of his neck, and the tank top he wore under his cut showed off both tatted arms. He projected a ‘stay-back’ vibe that those of us who knew him ignored. Link’s sister, Naomi, was the only person I’d seen pull character out of him, and whenever she was around, he was unstable as fuck. The rest of the time, he was like a goddamn stone gargoyle watching over the club.

“Seems like a solid dude who’s been through some shit. Fuckin’ VA. It’s a damn shame we don’t take better care of our vets. I’m worried about him relapsing, though. He fucks up, he won’t get a second chance. Not from us. Gotta make sure he’s coming in at the right time and one hundred percent ready to make the change for good. If he’s not ready and fucks up and gets kicked out… it’ll just put one more thing on his shoulders and I don’t think your friend can handle much more.”

I nodded. Hound had been popping three times the prescribed amount of morphine, and had started getting the shit off the streets to supplement his prescription. It wasn’t like he was snorting coke or shooting up heroine, but it still wouldn’t be tolerated. “Agreed, but I don’t know that he has any other options. If we can’t help him stay clean, who the fuck can?”

Eagle tilted his head in agreement before swinging his leg over his bike. “If you decide to sponsor him, I’ll back you, brother.”

“Thanks, man. Appreciate it.”

Eagle kicked his sled to life and motored off.

Turning toward Havoc, I asked, “What about you?”

“Eagle’s a wise man.”

I nodded. “Hey, how did things go with Julia and your mom? Everyone still alive?”

“Shit.” Havoc chuckled. “I don’t know what the fuck I was worried about. After handling her own parents, Julia didn’t even balk at Mom’s little digs at her cooking and culture. I don’t know what Mom said that finally set her off, but I came in on the ass end of Julia telling Mom she could shove her pot of greens right up her pretentious ass.”

I laughed, imaging the confrontation in my head. The last person who fucked with Julia was now six-feet under. I wouldn’t mess with her. “What did your mom do?”

“Think that’s when she realized Julia isn’t just some weak-ass white bitch who’d cower in the corner and take her beat-down. Julia said, ‘He’s mine, and I’m not letting him go. You need to deal with that and be a part of our lives, or don’t and don’t bother coming back. I love him, and I will protect this relationship at all costs. I’ve already blocked one family from our lives, don’t make me block another one’.”

“Damn!”

“Yeah.” Havoc grinned and kicked his leg over his Hog. “Hottest thing I’ve ever heard in my life. I swooped right in there, picked Julia up, and carried her into our bedroom. When we finally emerged, Mom was a whole new person. Friendly, smiling. She and Julia even went shopping together. And when Mom left, they both teared up. Now my sisters want me to bring Julia to meet them.”

“Women,” I said with a shake of my head.

“You’re tellin’ me.”

“I’m glad it all worked out, though.” The good news was definitely welcome after hearing Hound’s story.

“Yeah, me too. Mom wants us to have the wedding back east, so she and my sisters can be involved.”

“Just don’t forget about your brothers. We’ve mostly sobered up from Link’s wedding, so we need a reason to get shit-faced again.”

Havoc’s hog roared to life.

My phone buzzed in my pocket, so I tugged it out and glanced at the screen to see Carly’s name pop up as I checked the time. Havoc backed out of his spot, threw me a wave, and took off.

I answered my phone. “Hey, dove, you get off work early?” In the two weeks since Father’s Day, we’d been hanging out. I’d learned her schedule and knew she didn’t get off work from the coffee shop until two-thirty. Then she usually ran the five blocks to Trent’s school to pick him up in time, sometimes calling me during her dash. It was only one forty-five, so she should still be making coffees.

“Dove?” She asked. “That’s new.”

“Yeah, I’ve been thinkin’ about it since Trent called you ‘babe’ and I shouldn’t call you that anymore. It’s too generic. Too impersonal, you know?”

“But why dove? I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone under the age of eighty use that word.”

I had my reasons, but she wasn’t ready to hear them yet. “I’ll tell you later. What’s going on? Why’d you get off early?”

“I have to pick up Trent. He’s in trouble for helicoptering in the boys’ bathroom.”

“Helicoptering?” I asked, my imagination running wild. Helicoptering could mean any number of things.

“Yeah. You know, swinging his junk around like the blade of a helicopter.”

That one hadn’t even crossed my mind. I threw my head back and laughed.

“This is so not funny, Wasp,” she said, but I could hear the smile behind her words. She’d been smiling more and more lately, and I fucking loved it.

“Sure, it is. Give me the details. You said he did this in the boys’ room?”

“Yep. One of the teachers caught him and one of his little buddies in front of the urinals with their pants down to their ankles, swinging their hips to make their little peckers flop around, laughing their asses off. I don’t know why he does this stuff.”

“Because it’s fun,” I replied. “What little boy hasn’t helicoptered his junk?”

“Boys are so weird.”

“Don’t tell me you’ve never wanted to put tassels on your tits and swing them around.”

She laughed. God, I loved the sound of it. I could listen to Carly laugh all fucking day. The musical sound eased the tension from my shoulders and stirred my dick to life. “Can’t say I ever have, Wasp.”

“Dove, you gotta try it. Preferably while I’m watching.”

“Hard pass. I take it this ‘dove’ thing is sticking?”

“Oh, I’d be hard all right. And yep, you’re definitely dove material.”

“I don’t know what that means, so I have no idea how to respond.”

“Just let it happen. You might like it.”

“That’s what she said,” Carly deadpanned.

I about died I was laughing so hard. It was the first joke I’d heard her crack, and it was well worth the wait. I couldn’t wait to pull more out of her.

“I can’t believe I said that.” She sounded so embarrassed, I could practically see her blushing over the phone. “You’re a horrible influence, Wasp.”

“You needed a laugh. We both did.” Flirtatious banter with Carly always made me feel better. “Hey, you want me to pick you up and take you to his school?”

Silence. No doubt she was trying to figure out if this crossed the boundaries of friendship. It was all fun and games until I got too close and she panicked.

“I’m just trying to help since I know you don’t have a car. Also, I’m out and about.”

“That’s sweet, but I’m almost there. Thanks anyway.”

“You know, I can help you out in the future. All you have to do is ask. I could even pick Trent up from school for you if you add me to his list.”

“Wasp,” her voice dipped. “You’ve already helped out a lot, and I really appreciate it, but I’ve known you like all of five minutes. I like hanging out with you, but you could still turn out to be a psycho.”

The worst part about her little spiel was that she sounded like she was speaking from experience. Making a mental note to find out more about the psycho who’d fucked up her life and taken away her laughter, I tabled that conversation for now. I’d get it out of her eventually. “I get it. You want me bad, but it takes time to win you over. That’s okay, I’m patient.”

“You mean relentless.”

“Practically the same thing. Since you’re not gonna let me help you, I should get back to the shop and get some work done. I’ll swing by the bar tonight to see you.”

We said our goodbyes and I climbed onto my sled and started it up, chuckling to myself about Trent’s antics. He really was the coolest little boy on the planet.