Chapter 35

On the way upstairs, Jess felt a tide of rage sweep into her heart. Why did her mum have to come and stick her nose in? Why couldn’t she have stayed back in Penzance? She’d always been so discouraging when Jess had wanted to go and see her dad. She’d always postponed it, and made excuses, and put it off.

Now, at the very moment when Jess had finally got together with Dad, and understood what he was all about, and was having the wildest, the most wonderful time, now her mum had to turn up. Hammering on the door like the Vice Squad or something. Ruining everything.

Jess entered the room a split second before her mum. Dad, Phil and Fred were still standing there in their fancy dress, paralysed. They looked ludicrous. The music was still playing, but more softly. Mum stared at them, one after the other, in astonishment. Her eyes were enormous. She was speechless. Phil turned the music right off.

‘Er – Jess’s pyjamas,’ said her mum, holding out the bag rather wanly. ‘Her toothbrush and clean clothes for tomorrow.’

‘Madeleine,’ said Jess’s dad, after a creaking silence. He took off his wizard’s hat. His voice was kind of high and thin, as if he were being strangled. Fred suddenly took off his wig.

‘Fred!’ said Jess’s mum in amazement. ‘I didn’t recognise you.’

‘Hello, Mrs Jordan,’ said Fred. He tried to produce a smile, but it came out thin-lipped and false, like the smile of an iguana. He looked really rather like an iguana in a miniskirt. Jess was tempted, for an insane moment, to burst into hysterical laughter, but she buried it.

‘I didn’t know you were in St Ives,’ said Mum, and her voice sounded tight and weirdly polite in an oldfashioned way. As if they were all in some kind of 1940s film. Maybe a whodunnit.

‘I just hitched down,’ said Fred. ‘I wanted to surprise Jess.’

‘Fred turned up a couple of hours ago,’ said Jess.

‘Oh,’ said her mum, and nodded carefully. Then she turned to Phil, and looked at him in an intense, puzzled way. Jess realised that her mum was trying to work out whether this man in the frog suit was also someone she knew.

‘I’m sorry,’ she said, ‘I’m not sure if –’

‘Madeleine!’ said Phil, ripping off his goggles. It was obvious that neither of Jess’s parents was, at present, able to organise a conversation. ‘You find us in the middle of a carnival moment. A kind of celebration. Of Jess’s visit. I’m Phil King.’ He walked across to Jess’s mum and shook hands with her.

‘Ah, yes!’ said Mum. ‘I’ve heard a lot about you.’ Mum gave him an uncertain smile, and then turned and tried to spread the smile around to include everybody. Dad was still standing uselessly, frozen in his long grey beard, holding his wizard’s hat, just sort of blinking and trembling. It was his house. He was the host. It was his job. He should be putting Mum at her ease. How useless her parents were!

Suddenly Jess felt a wave of tenderness for her mum. She stood there looking lost and embarrassed, and also rather shabby. She stood there in the midst of all the sequins and the satin, the ostrich feathers, the glossy wigs – the sort of clothes she herself had never worn in her life. She looked small and sad and real. And tired.

She had blundered into this impromptu party. It wasn’t her fault. How was she to know they would be dressing up and dancing? She must be so embarrassed. And she had plenty to be furious about. Most of all, the sudden appearance of Fred. It must look as if Jess had been deceiving her mum, and sneaking off without her permission to meet Fred at her dad’s house. As if Dad had been involved in the plot, too. Jess groaned inwardly.

But though she had plenty to be angry about, Mum hadn’t shouted or complained or even scowled – so far. She hadn’t said anything sarcastic, even though her repertoire was extensive. Somehow she was managing to keep smiling, and Jess felt so grateful. She wanted to go over and hug her right now.

But she couldn’t, because the whole room had stopped, like a frozen screen. It was as if everyone were bewitched, and waiting for the magic word that would release them from the evil spell. And in a flash, Jess realised that she was the only one who could utter the magic word.

‘Isn’t it great that Dad’s boyfriend is a frog?’ she said. ‘My favourite species! Plus he’s a lifeboat-man. And he’s won a medal. Isn’t it brilliant?’

Jess saw her mother’s eyes flicker, as if a speck of dust had caused her a moment’s discomfort. She prayed that, though Mum must be reeling inwardly, she would say something gracious. She watched her turn, almost in slow motion, towards Phil. She smiled.

‘Yes, it really is lovely to meet you at last!’ she said. ‘I’ve heard so much about you from Tim. Does he still leave the top off the toothpaste?’

You legend!!!!! thought Jess. Brilliant, brilliant, brilliant!

Phil grinned. ‘He leaves the top off everything,’ he said.

‘What a marvellous house you’ve got here,’ said Mum, still addressing Phil. It was her way of accepting that he lived there, too. ‘All this blue and white – it’s beautiful.’

‘Tim completely transformed it,’ said Phil. Thank goodness he didn’t call him Timbo. It was a bit soon for that sort of thing. ‘It was a derelict old warehouse when we found it, wasn’t it, Tim?’

Jess’s dad stirred out of his frozen spell. He blinked and visibly relaxed, like someone moving into sunshine.

‘Yes, it was an old pilchard shed,’ he said. ‘It hadn’t been used for years. You could see the sky through the holes in the roof. That’s how we got it so cheap.’

‘And did you do all the work yourselves?’ asked Jess’s mum, still including Phil. Jess made urgent plans to hug her mother as soon as possible. It was an absolute priority.

‘Phil masterminded it,’ said Dad. ‘He’s a genius with the old DIY.’

‘Tim did all the decoration,’ said Phil.

‘Although I hate doing the ceilings,’ said Dad. ‘I’m scared of heights.’

‘You’re scared of everything!’ said Mum, but with a winning smile. ‘Or is he braver these days?’ she asked Phil.

‘Nope!’ said Phil. ‘Last week, he was even scared of an ice cream.’

‘Well,’ said Dad, ‘ice creams make my teeth jump sometimes. One doesn’t want to scream aloud in a crowded cinema.’

They all laughed. The atmosphere in the room softened and warmed. Evening light stole across the blue floorboards.

‘Well,’ said Dad, ‘I’m feeling a bit of an idiot in my wizard’s frock, so I think I’ll go and get changed.’ He picked up his clothes.

‘I think I’ll get out of this miniskirt,’ said Fred, hanging his wig back up on one of the wig-stands in the wardrobe. ‘It’s draughty. I don’t know how girls do it. Next time we do fancy dress I’m going as a tortoise. Is it OK if I change in the bathroom?’

‘Sure,’ said Phil. ‘Would you like a cup of tea, Madeleine?’

‘I’d like nothing more,’ said Mum. ‘Thanks!’

‘Come down to the kitchen, then,’ said Phil. ‘And you, Madam,’ he winked at Jess, ‘get those ridiculous bosoms off your chest – you look like a female impersonator!’

Fred and Dad went off to their various changing rooms, Phil escorted Mum downstairs, and the studio was suddenly empty and private. Jess took off her Marilyn wig. Her own dark hair was pinned close to her head. She took the pins out and ran her fingers through her hair, teasing it out into its usual comfortable chaos.

She looked at herself in the mirror. It was a relief, somehow, to see her own funny hair, even though it looked like dark tangles of seaweed. Then Jess peeled off the sequinned Marilyn dress, and the bra with foam inserts. Her own body emerged. After the grotesque exaggeration of the falsies, her figure looked almost slim. Not so bad after all.

A wonderful feeling was stealing up from the soles of her feet. Relief. So much had finally begun to feel sorted. She understood why Mum and Dad had parted. She could stop worrying about Dad being lonely. Mum had been nice to Phil. And looking in this mirror, Jess thought she didn’t look too bad really. Just ordinary, but so what? Fred had made an epic journey all the way down here to be with her – so she must be doing something right. She grinned at the small, dark girl in the reflection, and went downstairs.