Dai nemici mi guardo io, dagli amici mi guardi Iddio.
A man’s worst enemies are those in his own house.
Days before her fourteenth birthday, Alessa had won a race and became Finestra. The two events weren’t related, but she’d often wondered if she could have avoided it all by reading a book instead.
After a classmate, tall for his age and built like a baby ox, convinced the girls to chase him around the schoolyard instead of the other way around, packs of schoolgirls had become military strategists. Some plotting to steal a kiss, most simply tagging along for fun.
Alessa wasn’t the fastest or the most determined, but she’d turned the right corner at the right moment. Or the wrong corner at the wrong moment.
Caught off guard, her target hadn’t stood a chance, and seconds later she was sitting on his chest, flush with victory, realizing she had no idea what she was supposed to do with him.
So, she’d touched his forehead and declared, “You lose.”
And he died.
Or at least, she’d thought he had. Tendons taut as bowstrings, blood-flecked foam between clenched teeth, he’d spasmed beneath her. He’d nearly bitten his tongue off and still talked with a lisp. Not to her, of course. He’d screamed so loudly when the Cittadella guards escorted her past his house later that day, they’d stopped to lecture his parents. That was when guards were still offended by things like disrespecting the Finestra.
Adrick had wheedled his way into the convoy, insisting he had to carry a few “priceless family heirlooms,” and gleefully rehashed every second during the walk to her new home, tossing her case from hand to hand.
Tomo and Renata had been waiting on the stairs out front as he wrapped up his impression, and Alessa had forced herself to laugh despite a current of unease. Maybe she’d already sensed it wouldn’t be the last time her touch brought pain, or that Dea’s gift would become a curse.
Alessa needed her fury to stay red hot, to solder herself together, but as she waited in the archway to the courtyard, it fled, leaving behind an aching hurt.
Tomo and Renata were already seated at the head table, with no trace of doubt or fear in their proud expressions.
She’d always known they were loyal to the island, not to her, but even if it wasn’t her death up for discussion—and it was difficult to put that aside—their sworn duty was to train the next Finestra, not kill her.
And she’d thought, maybe, they even cared about her. A little.
She pulled the tattered shreds of anger around her like a cloak against the cold as trumpets announced her arrival. A bass drum or out-of-tune violin would have been more appropriate.
The carefully curated guest list of influential citizens took to their feet around tables groaning beneath so many candles it was a miracle no one had caught on fire yet.
No daggers flew. No one shouted their allegiance to Ivini. No one gave any sign at all they were losing faith in her.
Like a dutiful show pony, Alessa promenaded past pillars wrapped with flowered vines, beneath strings of twinkling fairy lights that burnished everyone and everything with a warm, romantic glow. A true storybook wonderland for everyone’s least favorite ice princess.
Renata looked proud and Tomo smiled as Alessa took her place between them at the head table.
She didn’t return it. Maybe someday, after she’d wed her next Fonte, and the battle was over, her mentors would completely forget they’d ever considered killing her. She never would.
Discreetly, she adjusted herself as every ragged breath shifted her low-cut bodice a fraction lower. While a wardrobe malfunction might tempt some candidates, she’d burst into tears if anything else went awry.
“Rolls?” Tomo said, gesturing to a basket of steaming bread.
How nice of him. How considerate. Perhaps Make sure the Finestra eats a well-balanced diet was listed right below Discourage your life partner from murdering her in the mentor handbook.
According to the stories, Renata had faced her own army of scarabeo without breaking a sweat, but Alessa’s monumental failures had her so shaken she was contemplating heresy and murder. It was almost impressive, really.
Maybe it wasn’t fair to hold it against them. Dea only knew she had plenty of thoughts that wouldn’t land well if she spoke them aloud. Lucky for her, she had no one to talk to.
If her life depended on it—and maybe it did—Alessa couldn’t have recited the dinner menu when the tables were cleared, but her stomach wasn’t empty, so she must’ve eaten something.
Now she was supposed to say something. If only she could split her mind in two and let one half obsess about her predicament while the other kept chugging along.
Liveried servers circulated with trays of a bitter digestivo in tiny crystal goblets. It scorched a trail down her throat but did nothing to settle her stomach.
Not all Finestra/Fonte pairings were romantic, so it wasn’t like she needed to find someone who was perfect for her. Many took lovers or life partners after Divorando, and it didn’t diminish the divine bond. After all, hearts were meant to love in more than one way. Her daydreams might feature a Fonte who was a partner in every sense of the word, but in real life, she’d settle for a friend.
Or anyone, really, at this point.
Everyone turned to watch as she stood, and she realized she was still holding her napkin, twisting it until it curled on itself. She bent her legs slightly until her hands were below the level of the table and dropped it. Saved by a tablecloth.
“Um. Hello,” Alessa said. Oratory genius. “I’m delighted to welcome you to our glorious Cittadella, the pinnacle of Saverio’s stronghold and home of our armory, where we keep our greatest weapons.” Oh drat, she was supposed to be the greatest weapon. “That is, our greatest weapon aside from the people of Saverio. Like me.” This was falling apart. “And our Fontes! Our miraculous Fontes, blessed by Dea to serve and protect. And by protecting, serve.” Why did anyone let her speak? “So, with no further ado”—and no more talking—“we will now be treated to demonstrations by those noble Fontes.” She nodded, smiled, nodded again, and sat with a thump.
Tomo, bless him, began to clap, and it only took a thousand years before others joined in a wan round of applause.
The Fontes stood from their respective tables and made their way toward her, reluctant boats being towed against the current.
Let the games begin.